I feel like I need to take out all my traumatic experiences out of my memory. So, I will write all of my traumatic memories over here, just because it helps me to take it out of my head.
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Entry number: 1
Date: Around March,2016
Where: Jawahir Al Riyadh International School
Age: 11
Grade: 6
Who: Seraj Ali (My worst teacher ever)
Sir Seraj was giving a boring crusty lesson on Science which he does not know. I was sitting in the class and I felt like my blood frozed due to sitting in class for several hours doing me nothing. Also, Mr. Seraj English was horrible. Since, I did not have much fun those days so I have decided to chill with Hassam Zameer Hassan. Hassam told me a fee jokes which made me to laugh and chuckle in the class. Then, Mr. Seraj told me and Hassam to stand up as my punishment. I stood up and stared my face down at the table. Then I laughed even harder which I could not hear at that time since I did not have hearing aids. Seraj took 4 steps and slap me on my head three times hard which may have caused me mental illness. I had another friend names Hussnain who during this act put his hand and covered his mouth in disbelief during this act. Then he sent me out of the class. After 10 minutes, he sent me back in the class near the trash tan container. He told me to face behind the wall and stand to the trash can. I was crying till my tears dip into the trash can. After that Mr. Seraj cancelled my trip. Then the period was over and I sat next to Hassam for the next period. The next day Mr. Seraj publicly announced the cancellation of my trip. However a few days later he re schedule and allowed me to go for my trip in JARIS.
Entry number: 2
Date: I dont remember
Where: Jawahir Al Riyadh International School
Age: 10
Grade: 5
Who: Akhtar Ali
Akhtar Ali was my computer science teacher. He came into my class 5-C. It happened during the early time of the day. Akhtar Ali came to me and did not like my personality so he gave me a very hard tight slap which made half of my face red. He told me something like (which I don’t recall) don’t show me your ugly theeth.
Entry number: 3
Date: N/A
Where: The educators
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: Principal, custodians, mom, shop keeper, classmates, grandmother, staff members.
I studied my grade 1 in The Educators. Their was this shop in our school which in urdu its called,"dukan". We used to buy things from the morning and from afternoon. I was curious at behind the shop and at the unexplored territory of the school. I was wandering from behind the school and I went out. Then I told to my classmates the same thing to come and check out behind the school at the unexplored territory. Once, as I was traveling then I saw a bunch of classmates running in the opposite direction. I was wondering that why are they traveling and running away from the opposite direction. Until a school monitor approached and hold me. He told me something like (I don’t remember) do not come in this place ever again else I will break your teeth. Finally I with my group of classmates went through the place. I think that was the place to cook things for the shop. My classmates took a bunch of dishes made of glass and threw it from the roof of the school to the streets. Then we ran away. My class blamed me and all of them put me in charge for this crime. After that the school principal called my mom and told my mom,"To come to school right now at the moment". My mom thought that something bad happened. A custodian came in the school and asked me that why did I break all the dishes.Then I was called to the principal office due to my class crimes which they blamed upon me. I showed up to the office with my principle, a bunch of staff members and my mom. They all questioned me that why did I break the dishes which if I am guilty of then I am not alone because my class broke the dishes with me. Then I got a big tight slap from my mom after which I turned my face to the wall and I tried to go to the staff office. However my staff members stop me. I saw my mom giving 1500 rupees to the shop keeper for breaking dishes. After that I was taken to home with no cheetos.
Entry number: 4
Date: Sun, Oct 24th 2020
Where: JARIS
Age: 10
Grade: 5
Who: Mattiullah (Quran teacher)
In the class, we were reading the Quran. I was looking at Mattiullah face rather than the Quran. Than Mattiullah hit me on the head so hard which made a huge sound echo across the class and yelled at me to stop staring at him and to look in the Quran, not at him. Then my friend asked me that who did sir Matti ullah beat and I said, it was me who he beat.
Entry number: 5
Date: Mar 11th, 2020
Age: 11
Grade: 6
Who: Khurram (Urdu teacher)
Khurram returned us our urdu exams. I got 52 percent in my urdu exam. As a result, Khurram bought me infront of the class and beat me with a ruler on my both hands once. He said something like(I don’t remember),"If you not don't study you will fail. Why did you not study? In future/next time study, ok?". After which I sat at my seat.
Entry number: 6
Date: N/A
Age: 11
Grade: 3
Who: Faridda (English teacher)
In the class before urdu class. Their was my this friend called, Abdullah Shafique. We went to urdu class and sat together. He got up. I took a pencil and sharped it. Abdullah shafique fixed his pants. Then I put the sharpen pencil vertically holden it with my hand. Abdullah Shafique was fat and he sat on his seat with full force. Hence he sat on the sharpen pencil. Then he got up with full force and look back. He sat on the sharpen pencil so hard that the pencil broke. Then he got up and look back at me and saw a broken pencil. He then sat down with a lot of pain. He told me that class to not talk with him. He told me that he is not in a good mood. He talked to his one another classmate good. Then we went back to our home room class. In the homeroom class Abdullah shafique cried infront of the class and blamed me for it. Hussnain told the teacher Farida about it. Teacher Farida became angry and she took two rulers out of some cupboard. She hit be with those two rulers on the bedrock of the nail. Then she gave my parents phone number to Abdullah Shafique parents.
Entry number: 7
Date: Around school mid year
Age: 11
Grade: 6
Who: Khurram (urdu teacher)
I got really bad marks on my Urdu exam. I still remember I got 13/25. The Urdu teacher took an iron ruler and brought my hand near it. He hit me once hard on each of my both hands. He told me something like,"If you don’t study then you will fail. Why didn’t you study?".
Entry number: 8
Date: March
Age: 11
Grade: 6
Who: Khurram (English teacher)
He made everyone to stand up. He asked everyone one question of English which is related to chimpanzee. As students did not answer it then he began beating the students with ruler. He came across one fat boy. He told him that if he hits him the ruler will break and he will be okay. So he hit him on the legs. Then he came across me. As for me, I had hearing loss which I didn’t know in my those days of school. He asked me the English question which I don’t remember. As I did not answer due to my hearing loss, he took the ruler and beat me once each on my hand and once on my legs.
Entry number: 9
Date: May or June
Age: 6
Grade: 1
Who: A high-school student
Once, I was running through the school. I was running through the staff area where the shop keepers of the shop make their food for the shop. I saw a bunch of students running through the street and were asking me to run as well. The high-school student was chasing them until he came across me. He hold me and took me outside the place. He told me in urdu,"اگر آپ مستقبل میں یہاں آئے تو میں آپ کے دانت توڑ دوں گا۔"
Which in English translates as,"I will break your teeth if you come here in future"
Entry number: 10
Date: April or May
Age: 13
Grade: 7
Who: Mr. Kamaran (Physics teacher)
I was playing basketball separately on one side of the field. I did not know what time it was. The physical education teacher told me to leave the time as the time period is over. I went back to class. I saw the teacher made the whole class to stand up with their hands up. He saw me seated in my seat then he made me to stand up and told me to place my hands up as punishment. He told me that I was 20 mins late to class.
Entry number: 11
Date: 2015-2017
Age: 11
Grade: 5
Who: Mr. Jamshed (English teacher)
When the bell of the period rang and when the period was over. All my class ran outside. My teacher thought that it would be gym class that’s why he allowed us to go outside. Then he saw all of his students coming back in. He beat every student that came back in. For me, when I entered the classroom, he beat me hard on my neck and then I entered the classroom. Then I saw him writing a bunch of names on the sheet of paper.
Entry number: 12
Date: Somewhere between March to May in the year 2016
Age: 12
Grade: 6
Who: Tilla Muhammad
I was standing in the assembly line. Generally the assembly lines are for like 2 hours to 3 hours. Students in my school were standing in the assembly line for like 2 to 3 hours. One teacher saw me not standing properly. For explanation, he saw that my posture was not straight when I was standing. Although, I did not understand till this date why I was not standing properly in the assembly line. He came to me and pushed me and told me that,"You cannot stand properly.". He then when back and told to my grade advisor to tell me to stand properly.
Entry number: 13
Date: Around winter months
Age: 11
Grade: 5
Who: Ehab Muhammad (Math teacher)
Their was a class monitor in my class who's name was Hassam Zameer Hassan. I talked in the class and the class monitor wrote my name on the board. I still remember that the name which my class monitor wrote was the only name written across the board. Then my teacher came in and asked the class monitor that who was talking. The class monitor told only my name which he said that I was the only student who talked. Then the teacher took my head then started beating my head against his chest like 5 times and said,"Why were you talking my friend?".
Entry number: 14
Date: February
Age: 12
Grade: 6
Who: Ehab Muhammad
One student from Mr Ehab class in grade 5 complained to Mr Ehab about me in grade 6 which I did not understand. That student came to my class and picked me. He told me to come with him to Mr. Ehab. Mr. Ehab told me to sit down and stand then again he told me to do the same thing. After that he let me go telling me that for now he did not hit me but in future he will hit me, if I repeat my mistake.
Entry number: 15
Date: Nov to Feb
Age: 11
Grade: 5
Who: Ehab Muhammad
Once I forgot to bring the graph paper to my Math class. Then my Math teacher made students to gather in a line who did not bring the graph paper. He hit the school pass on every student back and when my turn came, he did the same to me.
Entry number: 16
Date: Nov to Feb
Age: 11
Grade: 5
Who: Ehab Muhammad
Their was one assignment for my Math class. One student hand in sloppy work. Then the teacher taught I was that student who handed in sloppy work which I was not and got me punished.
Entry number: 18
Date: N/A
Age: 12
Grade: 6
Who: Mr. Usman
Their was my this one classmate name Asim. Asim and I had a scuffle after which Asim gave me a slap and ran away. My mom called the vice principal about this. The vice principal took me and Asim to his office. The vice principal asked us both to write on a piece of paper in regards to what happened between us. The vice principle sent this teacher known as Mr. Usman to investigate . Mr. Usman came to the class and called our both names during which time we were taking exams. Mr. Usman asked my class teacher as to about us both. The class teacher gave negative comments about both me and Asim. After finishing our exams, Mr. Usman asked Asim and me to what happened. Mr. Usman pulled both me and my classmate hair. Also, he hit me and my classmate too without proper investigation.
Entry number: 19
Date: 11-12-2022
Age: 11
Grade: 5
Who: Mr. Ikhram (Islamic teacher)
I was talking a lot in class and laughing a lot. Sir Ikhram hit me on the back very hard and threw me out of the class due to that.
Entry number: 20
Date: N/A
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: English teacher
One classmate complained to the English teacher and told about my fights with students. Then the English teacher took a ruler and hit on my buttocks at least thrice.
Entry number: 21
Date: N/A
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: English teacher
I was talking with a bunch of students in the classroom. The English teacher took a book and hit every student on their back including me for talking.
Entry number: 22
Date: N/A
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: English teacher
I was roaming around the school. My English teacher saw that. My English teacher took me outside the classroom and warn me to not roam around the school.
Entry number: 23
Date: N/A
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: Urdu teacher
My urdu teacher wrote a lesson on the board about urdu. My urdu teacher wrote and went outside the classroom. Then four classmates misbehaved as their was no teacher in the room. My urdu teacher was secretly seeing what we were doing in the class. One classmate was roaming around. The other two were talking with each other. The final one started dancing by shouting the sentence,"I finish writing the lesson." Then my urdu teacher broke into the classroom. My urdu teacher took these four students and each of them of what they were doing when she was away. Then she beat all of them. I felt emotionally abused during that time.
Entry number: 24
Date: N/A
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: Urdu teacher
I was writing a few urdu words on the table. The urdu teacher saw my writing on the table and hit me on my head like a slap because she told me that I should be writing on the notebook instead of the table.
Entry number: 25
Date: N/A
Age: 7
Grade: 1
Who: Urdu teacher
My urdu teacher saw me talking. The urdu teacher yelled at me and screamed at me to stop talking.
