[What are your thoughts on coffee?]

@Alfonsoo 

I was addicted to coffee for years , but finally stopped for 2 and half years now after many attempts and its all because I was trying to "find balance" ..with coffee and addictive substances it doesn't work you will always need more and more ..now I only drink ginger \herbs teas .

[Why I don't want to feel anything ?]

I need explanation, why I don't want to feel anything ? I keep avoiding anything that trigger my emotions even positive ones like passion and excitement for example I avoid listening to music or watching movies that makes me emotional I rather listen to boring podcasts or youtube videos about boring subjects I'm too serious I don't like to relax because I know I'll have to face my emotions so I keep myself busy all the time, I don't want to reflect on anything like what I've done so far in my life or where I think where I'm going etc .. before bed I try to watch something to distract me from thinking I don't let any chance to be conscious of my current state I always convince myself that I'm doing what I'm supposed to do and I'm doing okay just to stop triggering my emotions ( like depression , sadness , anger etc. ).How can I stop this ? 

[Has anyone tried GNM]

Do think these stuff works ? anyone tried it  ?

 

https://learninggnm.com/SBS/documents/intestines.html