Wilhelm44

Well logically that is impossible. Im definitely conscious. Are you telling me that you are not conscious. Be honest, are you just some cartoon character in my dream ?

God damn it, a part of me feels there's some truth to solipsism, it just don't make any logical sense though.

I'm not debating that. I'm talking about the validity of each individual as a conscious being.

Yes there's only one Consciousness, but there are many apparent beings, and all of them have access to Consciousness.

No it does matter, viewing others as not imbued with consciousness just don't feel right.

With the emphasis on 'us'.

I am conscious. Are you saying that you are not conscious ?

The most powerful thing you can do for the world is to find inner peace. Our triggers are perfectly designed to guide us towards just that. Anger usually masks something deeper beneath it, like grief etc. And mostly it's unprocessed stuff from childhood that's coming up to be released. A being that is at peace with itself has a tremendous effect on the collective field. It's also an illusion to think that those with apparent power in the world actually have real power. Ultimate power is with God. There's a deeper intelligence running through this whole thing, which is always evolving towards more love, even if the logical mind can't see that right away. Trust that.

How is the suffering you experienced "deserved" ?

I am curious, if that is your experience of reality, do you still have any suffering ?

There is the illusion of a creation, right ? And is that not God's Will ? Is everything you see in front of you right now not God's Will ?

So Will is another name for God ?

How would you describe your experience of Free Will as your ultimate nature ?

Exactly, and the more grounded in the body, the easier it becomes to feel through the stuff we dont wanna feel.

Yes, and the more one can connect with the aliveness of the whole body, the more trusting one becomes of life.

I don't know, but you could contemplate what specific fear comes up with regards to doing nothing for a while without the need to be busy. That's why I said, test it out, do nothing for 2 or 3 hours on purpose, i mean stop when you need to, but just see if you can have a better look at what the fear is actually about.

It's like a place to just hang out for a bit. Like you choose to place all of your awareness on simply enjoying the sensations in your body, just existence by itself for itself. ie moving away from mental chatter and also including the intelligence of the heart and the gut.

Then why not choose to spend more time in body consciousness than mind consciousness for a while ? The more powerfully grounded you become in the body, the more those suicidal tendencies will dissolve.

I might be wrong, but could it perhaps be a habit that functions like a mechanism that protects you from feeling something you don't want to feel ? You could test it by doing nothing for an hour or two on purpose, and then see what precisely comes up for you. I don't know anything about green tea, but I see L-theanine is also good for focus, so it helps with studies etc. The woman in this video gives the dosage that works for her.

What do you think is the source of the belief that something bad will happen if you are not constantly busy with something ? Gym is good, but it also helps to add some kind of freeflow/intuitive type exercise/movement that you can make your own. For example, dancing to music in your apartment, where you allow your body to move intuitively, ie experimenting with movements that feel good/fun to the body is a nice practice. This can be a great way of getting out of the head, connecting with intuition, and relaxing the nervous system. L-theanine as a supplement also helps for relaxation, but of course do ur own research on that one.

Song from the movie "It's all gone Pete Tong", true story about a dj that goes deaf, and finds a way to come back for one more show. Worth a watch.

What activities do you have to get out of the head and into the body ?

What healthy activities do you have in your life to counterbalance stress ? What kind of good things do you do for yourself to help the nervous system relax ? Do you get enough sleep ?

A lot of women will be into crystals, energy healing, Tarot etc. Im sure there are the flaky ones, but some will be serious. It's not so black and white. Thats what I meant by keeping an open mind.