Holygrail

i agree, its beautifully mysterious

how can you imagine different laws of physics in your minds eye? Shouldn't the laws of physics also directly apply to what we're able to imagine so that our minds can only imagine stuff with the same laws of physics as in reality? Because assuming reality is finite, the laws of physics shouldn't be able to allow our minds to imagine such different laws of physics. Seems illogical that one set of laws of physics can give rise and ground an infinite sets of laws of physics, even if its just occurring within our minds.

since there's really only the present moment which makes movement something that you're technically imagining right?

Yes

its like there's no movement within the present moment without mind, and then there is movement within mind, being both.

i see what youre saying, appears to be accurate.

that honestly seems to make the most sense. its just consciousness aware of differences

Why is non-duality any more mystical and irrational than materialism? After all, the existence of anything at all is clearly magical since it's just mysterious there.

yeah, existence exists and it's not a rational thing, its just there, whether it's an infinite regress of causes or an irreducible rock bottom, and it's clearly mysteriously capable of creating intelligence, self-awareness, thoughts and emotions. materialism still shows this.

Is it even valid to ask how you're creating anything at all? Or is it simply direct through no "how" at all?

good question, which is why i dont think it even makes sense to ask. A how would be grounding creation through some sort of process of "steps", can't see why it can't be direct rather than having a regress of how's, but i guess it's more of realizing "how" it's being done, through one of Leo's videos, he became conscious of how he created every single molecule in his body.

woah, you're answered spawned a mystical insight for me. thanks lol

Crazy... I'm wondering if you can become conscious of that

in a way, it feels good because it feels kinda euphoric, but it scares me and im constantly trying to avoid this because it makes me feel like im losing my mind or as if my mind is broken. Some people even tell me that i seem hyper aware because im trying to avoid dozing off and shutting off my mind... what do you think this is? depression?

I think i have ptsd which is why my mind like to dissociate and "rest" from my stress at times.

i agree that the mind does weird things and its probably a lot more common than i think it is. It sorta feels like my mind is just resting because i do tend to overthink a lot and maybe its the minds way of processing my thoughts or resting from all the thinking since it feels enjoyable when i doze off. Journaling would probably help me a lot, I will be trying it thanks..

damn, finally a word for this, im going to look more into it, thanks!

Accept the present moment, there's no pain and suffering there. recontextualize your situation thats causing you you're depression, everything is love, everything is perfection, happening exactly as it should, there's nothing to do, you're already at your destination, you're the entirety of existence, you're complete and whole. Now, since youre living within duality and you're fighting to survive, just become hopeful that at the other side of your goals will be pleasure, fulfillment and happiness. Baby step your goals and go at it smoothly, not trying to do everything at once, and you'll eventually get there. Start with proper nutrition because it has a hugeeee effect on your well-being and use your extra vitality, well-being and focus to help you achieve your other goals.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4KXidr0z1RY

If I am attached to a pretty rock, do I consider myself that rock and not the other things that I'm not attached to?

damn thats definitely true. i should just assume that it will just happen without being all sneaky and weird about it.

the 4 pillars of being sex worthy: purposeful- speak with humph, lead the interaction, keeping pressure on with either eye contact, touch, or questions in breaking rapport tonality controlled- being unreactive, not qualifying yourself, grounded like an oak tree, being the buyer and not the seller, talking in breaking rapport flowing- entitled like you already have the girl, hugging her smoothly not choppy, everything is part of the plan even if things don't go your way self amused- creating your own amusement without needing her because whatever you're interested in she'll be interested in, the person having the most fun and giving the least of a fuck are the most addictive traits, making yourself laugh, doing it for you and not her, not having that needy-leeching type of vibe trying to join her party. outer game: building comfort- roleplaying, what would you do if/ would you rather questions to ask her, conspiracy theories: inside jokes with her with strangers, move her around frequently to new locations, verbally lying: pretending to be from her hometown and then telling her the truth. investment- forced investment: ordering compliance, compliance hoops: if she asks for something, baby step compliance playfully and stack them more seriously, temporal investment qualifying- theres something special about her but you dont know what, future projection: telling her that we should hang out again later, similarities: emphasizing a commonality and letting her you like her for it. Do this only when she's chasing and asking you questions, sprinkle it in and don't over do it. shit test- staying unreactive and ice cold, ignore it and move on, exaggerate it playfully flirting- push: if she likes red, you can say i hate red tongue in cheek, and repeat this like 20% of the conversation verbals- keep the conversation on her and talk about emotionally deep topics like goals, dreams, fears, childhood, family, hobbies, work. don't interrogate her and add your own commentary in between answers, touch- break the touch barrier as soon as you meet her with a handshake, maintain eye contact and conversation as you're touching her, you dont have to keep touching her to sleep with her. Social intuition- maintain the right balance of pressure on/pressure off. too much pressure off and she get bored, too much pressure on and she'll feel uncomfortable, you can sense it in her body language. it's always better to go for something and then calibrate after the fact. if you go too far, just tell her sorry and keep the conversation going like nothing happened. pulling to the sex location- baby step the pull towards the sex location throughout the entire interaction from the beginning, giving plausible deniability: an innocent excuse like watching a movie or showing something off at your place, or just hanging out as friends. tackling her objections and staying persistent, keeping the interaction moving normally while going there. When alone with her- start physically escalating, go for the make out and start fingering her, tell her that it doesnt count as sex or that it'll make it sexier, show her that you're emotionally turned on while making out and fingering her, she'll be less likely to resist seeing you so turned on and it will transfer on to her, secretly put on a condom put her panties to the side and stick it in.

hahahaha

Well of course anytime she gives a serious NO and not token resistance, then you stop. but that card is really solid advice

he actually did hahaa