JJfromSwitzerland

Who knows what I will do, if I will continue denying everything or not. The problem with that is, I feel like I always knew since a I am child that there is something other than I was indoctrinated with, I just could not figure out what the point of the whole life is, so I tried to forget but I couldn't - this is since I can remember thinking. Everything made no sense and was confusing, but I tried to forget and continue to live. As I got from one of your videos, it doesn't matter if I will seek/find the Truth or not because me as god wants to experience everything - also devil. so I will see what's gonna happen.... Maybe I will seek enlightment, maybe not. I will definitely continue meditating, that's all I can say for now...

Damn, right now I wish I never heard of the whole enlightment God thing and would just continue living as before in the matrix to chase women and money and health and all that because from my point in life where I stand right now, it hurts and confuses me more than I benefit At the same time I am coriuos though and wanna find out more...

So if it is the god perception, I am the only one who exists and the friends I hang out with or the women I date are only in my imagination? So the reply you sent me is only my imagination but when you say they are also god, that means I am them and I am you aswell but why I only experience my human life then? Why I don't experience your life or their life? I just imagine the other lifes? This is the question I am struggling with since I am not enlighted and it also kind of makes me almost depressed... hehehe