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I am not personally a huge fan of it. I prefer fantasies. I'll watch porn maybe once every two or three months but I'm not a very sexual person anyways as it is. Some women really like porn and I have met them, some do not. I would say that it is rarer that women do, though.

This song is catchy.

@Carl-Richard Right now, the past few weeks have been really hard coming to terms with how delusional I can be at times and all the ways it manifests - how can the mind be sooo tricky? I feel silly, that I was blind by such obvious things. I can't even fully describe it, it feels like sloughing off a fog in an area of awareness where I felt so sure of things. Ah well.... life goes on. I get it.

This song makes me think of blue - a nation of people working together happily towards one unified goal - and they have like a collective people's energy that those in the west have lost that kept them going through hard times and keep stories/culture alive and have a greater bond with everyone in their entire culture because of this. Blue, at its best, allows a whole nation of people to sing and work together as One. I'm integrating some aspects of blue lately. It's not too bad... I think these lower stages are very vital groundwork.

Open eyes Keep an open mind Out of nothing the stars align What is least expected Sometimes all you need Nothing lasts forever When every moment's A choice you're making Just let it guide you Down whatever road you're chasing Now who would believe That we're even in the same league So much distance in between But we’re running towards the same dream Whеn every moment's A choicе you're making Just let it guide you Down whatever road you're chasing

wip https://www.sciencenewsforstudents.org/article/scientists-say-petrichor https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sex_magic https://cherylebannon.com/what-is-intuitive-art/

Ask for forgiveness and for guidance. Give Love and thanks. Have Faith.

I got my first vaccination a few days ago, no noticeable side effects at all. Sorry for waiting on it, I was worried about possible side effects (have an autoimmune disease) but decided to get it anyways. I get the second one in a few weeks.

You can't know for sure why he did what he did, it is disrespectful to assume you know why he killed himself and then tout that around here like his ghost's personal white knight.

Started in 2017 - I love bats - I like how with their noses, ears and wings they offer more variation for strange shapes to come together. ??❤️? My poor batties will forever be synonymous with covid. But actually, they are apparently an important marker for ecological health and scientists use them to determine if an ecosystem is "sick" or not. They have many different specialties, too, some of them very unique. Me realizing just how crazy I am. This is going to take some serious work to untangle. I think, however, after this picture, I am going to draw a few cats for a while. I have some ideas. This song feels like asmr. I feel like I'm tripping all the time. How do things so obviously not real become so strangely real? Once the delusion is seen through it's just like, "Yeah okay that wasn't real." But then it pops back up again, like... signs that seem to have some sort of direction but also don't, but I still end up with spiritual wisdom somehow. As though my foolishness has forced me to go deep with this stuff, no pun intended. It feels like a curse, like I line 'em up and it's so wrong but also so so right. I just don't get it... I'm not special, I'm normal I'm just crazy and when you're crazy the rules of reality change. And then it's real. But in all the wrong ways - but the fact that you can see anything at all, that some pattern of truth breaks free, this means something important. I was in a hostage situation at the ER, but I also have had a lot of delusions and seeing through them requires noticing the things I don't pay attention to, or can't, and that karma is what seems alive most of all.

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Same here. It felt more like a preschool for adults in a way. Not inhumane, but the system still has a ways to go imo. I feel the same way when I take medication versus when I don't.