Loba

Let her go for someone who won't judge her and find someone who's innocent and naïve instead and see if that's any more interesting. It won't be. (kidding... sort of) I've had friends who slept with hundreds of guys. Oh well. Their relationships were still great. Get over it. She knows what she's doing. Good for you. Try gratitude. I come from a background where some people were innocent and some slept around and guess what? Just because the woman slept around doesn't mean they were worth less or any less innocent. There's so many reasons for women experimenting. How do men expect us to do what you want if we can't have relationships? Or practice? You know? A churchgoing virgin could be a bigger jack*ss towards other people than some dear who just happens to love enjoying her body. Love your girl. Get to know her sexuality. Prudes aren't great, either, you know?

@SQAAD Oh trust me, most of my family lives over in Arizona and they have told me some things, so I know a small, small, small bit about what happens with these cartels. Some have said that when the ranchers complain about closing the borders it is not the poor families they are concerned about, it is the drug cartel members dressed in military uniforms that come through the border - a literal invasion that they don't cover in the news. My uncle that my aunt married - he is Hispanic and he deals with a lot of racism over there because of all that is happening with this. I can't watch vids like this. I can deal with death once already gone, but brutality or pain while alive ... dude that'll make me puke, feel weak, faint, ect. We'll get there with the decriminalization, but it will take some time... things are changing though, not just in legislature but the hearts of people and how they feel about controlled substances.

@SQAAD Yeah like, anytime a spiritual leader has seen stuff like this they do not reconcile. They take action.

@Zeroguy I don't know what you're talking about entirely but I know the source of your ire. I want to be single for life. I used to pine for something but I got over that well, quite a while ago - I'm not looking at you in that way, at all, there is no skipping or pausing or whathaveyou, ever, I am just responding to your comment as a semi stranger.

@Zeroguy There is no high or low quality. Everyone is equal. You have preferences, but that's about it. Things that can make your life easier or harder for you or someone else. And each thing about each person is unique. "I have to be this. I have to be that." It makes women/humans neurotic. This is Leo's stuff growing like a mold in people's minds because he felt like something was wrong with him at some point and turned "fixing it" into ... all of this... and the truth is... just BE. Just BE. Just BE. Just effin' BE. That's where it all comes down to. Keep that in mind folks, when doing this work that you're an equal human being to everyone else around you. Find what makes you feel comfortable in your skin, not what people will think of you in the future. You can do things, but do them with how it feels inside, each movement, each decision, check with yourselves. You don't need lists, because nothing is set in stone, things can change on a dime. You could lose a leg tomorrow. They don't work. What does though is feeling into yourself, your own uniqueness in real-time. When all of your flaws and all of my flaws Are laid out one by one The wonderful part of the mess that we made We pick ourselves undone All of your flaws and all of my flaws They lie there hand in hand Ones we've inherited, ones that we learned They pass from man to man There's a hole in my soul I can't fill it, I can't fill it There's a hole in my soul Can you fill it? Can you fill it? You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched All of your flaws and all of my flaws, When they have been exhumed We'll see that we need them to be who we are Without them we'd be doomed There's a hole in my soul I can't fill it, I can't fill it There's a hole in my soul Can you fill it? Can you fill it? You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched Ooh Ooh When all of your flaws And all of my flaws are counted When all of your flaws And all of my flaws are counted You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up. Let's finish what we've started Dig them up. So nothing's left untouched Ooh Ooh All of your flaws and all of my flaws Are laid out one by one Look at the wonderful mess that we made We pick ourselves undone

@Preety_India Yeah, but it is so subjective that there is no way to really have a list that works. Plus, chemistry and a list of what you think is high quality doesn't make it so. Anyone that tries to put themselves into lists like this or pedestals should be knocked off asap. Life doesn't work like that, nor does attraction, love, spirituality, none of it. You know what does though is buying a house or a chore list.

Doesn't make lists separating one woman's value from another... who knew it was so simple??

No idea, I couldn't even finish this. What I could watch was wrought with rocking, shaking of the head, and shaking my arms and hands at the computer screen going, "no no no..." I don't know if you can... part of having empathy for people is feeling for these situations when they happen. Maybe accept that empathy is a form of love? Accept that you can't accept this sort of thing. That's okay, too. That poor guy though.... daaaaaaaammmmmnnnnn... that's too much. Can't watch that shit, I feel it like it's my own. Makes me weak in the gut, knees, ugh. I don't think anyone can reconcile that kind of stuff. Even if it is on the media, if it where to happen irl, how? No way. You'd have to be dead inside and not in a spiritual way.

Not reading responses and last comment here, I don't really read this journal but decided to in my spare time this weekend go through it a bit because it keeps showing up as the first subject to read. You guys seem to thrive on people witnessing your convos and not actually having a genuine friendship/relationship. What I expect will happen is that the guy with the other journal who was given the projections of what is in here, none of that will be remembered while this is viewed as an accost on character rather than an attempt at pointing out what's up and responded to as such. If it were just here I would not have noticed but y'all dragged this content all over the forum while I'm looking for genuine information on problems. Way to go. Very consciousness super wow keep it up. No one that I know or knew does that kind of stuff. Ever. Everyone that I have ever known across the span of my entire life has never used a forum to represent a connection. How can you grow as people using public spaces in such a way? Let me put it that way. Think on it. And zero? Your girls observations are on point w u. So if she says something about it, I would look into it. Literally everything she says is the same thing others have said to you. Try texting. None of us need to know about you both in that way. That's not intimacy.

Not gonna look at responses because I know how people are here but wasn't last year the magical year of wasting Galynas time? Seriously. Try a text message, see if that helps. ?. Cheers

Y'all ever thought that a private and connected relationship would prove that you're compatible rather than all this nonsense? Narcs have the strangest habits. You both are in a fake relationship and use this forum for supply over it. Like teenagers. Very strange...

Personally I find masculine energy to be dishonest, destructive to the feminine, and not even remotely at the same level as feminine energy by any and every margin. Truthfully, if a woman wants to be loved, completely, forever... and not have to deal with the dating game, the back and forth that comes with it, the nonsense that males put women through, this is the solution: become as beautiful as you can, be yourself, your kindest, truest self and when he starts to fall in love, ghost him. Don't say a word; if you run into them meeting , don't even look at them. Act like you never met them. No eye contact. Make sure beforehand to get really close to their heart - the more authentic you are, which is easier when it is a situation where you have an idea of the outcome already - and then leave. Otherwise it won't sting - the more it stings, the less pushback you put into everything up until the point of peacing out - that'll do it. You want to be great in every way, as many ways as you can be - no drama, nothing - then do it. There you go. You have an inferior form of love; that person, no matter who they are with will pine for you - if they don't, keep trying until you find one that does. This is a humanly form of love with something as invasive as a bark beetle, so don't feel too bad. Essentially, that's all anyone is trying to get to with all this dating thing is to find lasting love - because men really only care about your shell, so having a lasting, fixed image to pine over is more effective than dating someone for years, then finding out you're flawed, they're flawed, you're both ugly, you hate each other, ect, ect, ect. Really. Sounds counterintuitive, but if women broke men a lot more often there would be more love in the world for women. And you don't have to be a nag, or insane or cruel or whatever, just... leave... that is literally what makes men fall in love. I don't know why that is the case, but it is. Because men love more rarely than women do usually, you'll have the heart for at least a year, most likely more. Having the love and someone's heart, there is a lot of good energy that can come from this that is very beneficial. You know how there are pick up artists and stuff? There needs to be more women who know the dynamic behind what love can do for a woman - you don't need the person there for it; it can be a hindrance - women should develop more systems for this. Build ourselves up to the very best, and then just walk the fuck away. I'll bet a girl could get really good at it, and learn how to be her best self in such a way, and the right moment to leave, just like with pick-up artists, that she could claim a heart until it quits beating for it's owner. The comment on sadism up there got me thinking. It would fix my heart, if I could keep another in the same manner that mine was damaged. I read comments like this on here by men and I realize that it isn't that this forum is a bad representation of the opposite gender, but so many men really are just... not really worth much. It's like... you have cows and pigs and then you have... fish... you know? The cow and the pig feel more, understand more, while the fish is something that doesn't to the same degree. It's muted.... and I mean, yeah sure a bottom feeder is good at filtering out the garbage in the water, but if you're going in as your best you then you won't have to worry about that. I don't plan to try this, like, go out of my way to waste my time on it - but if the situation arises I will take it.

That was a fascinating read. I would love to know more about how they experience life as they get older and can articulate their worlds better. Thanks for sharing.

I found you under my spell You were curled up like the winter I found me trying to get out of this place I found you trying to smother me with All your presents and all your visions I found you calling me your own name I won't carry you, I won't carry you Leave me to be I won't carry you, I won't carry you Leave me to be Tell me you'll leave me to be Leave me to be Tell me you want me to die Like I do I found you under my spell You were curled up like the winter I found me trying to get out of this place I found you trying to smother me with All your presents, all your visions I found you calling me your own name Aloha e aloha e 'Ano 'ai ke aloha e Aloha ae aloha e A nu ay ki aloha e There's no place I'd rather be Then on my surfboard out at sea Lingering in the ocean blue And If I had one wish come true I'd surf till the sun sets A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi Lawe mai I ko papa he'e nalu Flyin by on the Hawaiian roller coaster ride A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi La we mai iko papa he na lu Pi'I na nalu la lahalaha O ka moana hanupanupa Lalala I kala hanahana Me ke kai hoene I ka pu'e one Helehele mai kakou e Hawaiian roller coaster ride There's no place I'd rather be Than on the seashore dry, wet free On golden sand is where I lay And if I only had my way I'd play til the sun sets Beyond the horizon Lalala I kala hanahana Me ke kai hoene I ka pu'e one It's time to try the Hawaiian Roller coaster ride Hang loose, hang ten, howzit, shake a shaka No worry, no fear, ain't no biggie braddah Cuttin' in, cuttin' up, cuttin' back, cuttin' out Frontside, backside, goofy footed, wipe out Looking for the wipe-out Let's get jumpin', surf's up and pumpin' Coastin' with the motion of the ocean Whirlpools swirling, cascading, twirling Hawaiian roller coaster ride There's no place I'd rather be Then on my surfboard out at sea Lingering in the ocean blue And if I had one wish come true I'd surf till the sun sets Beyond the horizon A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi Lawe mai I ko papa he'e nalu Flyin by on the Hawaiian roller coaster ride A wiki wiki mai lohi lohi La we mai iko papa he na lu Pi'I na nalu la lahalaha O ka moana hanupanupa Lalala I kala hanahana Me ke kai hoene I ka pu'e one Helehele mai kakou e Hawaiian roller coaster ride

No intense visuals, a picture that looks like this, but in feeling: Paired with the song, like everyone singing together in unison, connected, praising life itself, like surfing a wave. And things look visually more colourful sometimes, like everything is breathing almost. Like this, like a clear miasma of ... nothing at all. And it happens if you stop thinking and just observe.

All the many corpses begin to speak What ignorance is cannot be argued over anymore It is too late for pleading white picket dreams Print you off, the shemps, the world is shrinking Rooted in a trivial concern, in interconnectedness In the need to make face and keep up And drown out the many voices within Imagine a culture that has, at its root A more soulful connection to land and to loved ones But I can hear the lie before you speak There is nothing but progress to eat And we are so fat and so hungry And the black wrists are cuffed in the pig van While the white shirt and tie in the tube car, distractional picture Pictures of beer and guilt about urges Sexual distrust and abandoned to nothingness Give me something I can nail myself to Give me a sharply-dressed talking head Who has something about them I trust and despise And what of it, anyway? These windows don't open They were designed to stay closed Shower, smoothie, coffee, commute Check the internet, never stop, never stop There is a scar on the soul of the world and it needs you to look The blood of the past is here, it remains The blood of the murders, the bodies like sacks leaking brain All stacked, chest aback on the planes, it remains To acknowledge without guilt, to accept without condition And to listen when other people tell you how you have behaved Truth is, it's for us to feel and be moved But I hear the clatter of bone against steel, it is coming It will not be stilled, it is there In the air, scorched white The reflection of sunlight on glass bouncing back into sunlight And glass bouncing back, industrialized Denial, business as usual So roll your eyes, shake your head, turn away and call me names I'm okay with that, too proud Unable to listen, we keep speaking Moted by blood, unable to notice ourselves Unable to stop and unwilling to learn This song makes me think of global warming, extinction and mass immigration. People being stuck in areas that are flooding or too hot or won't produce crops and other countries won't let them in, and the refugee problem becomes out of control. There is unrest everywhere and only the rich are protected by their wealth. People move to northern climates, after that we work on ways to reduce what has happened and beyond that I don't know - maybe we learn how to manage the weather somehow? You know, the basics. : / How can we live in harmony with nature? Will there be a massive die off? Like one we have never seen before? Most likely. It is said the black death allowed society to flourish afterwards; it empowered the poor and helped society move towards freedom. High thoughts. Maybe the same thing will happen again? I wonder how everything will play out, no one can really predict. Imagine being someone in the future stuck in terrible conditions as the sea rises, and you have been keeping water out of a ramshackle home for a few years and the mold gets to you and then the weather hits and destroys everything and you cut your foot in the water and die of sepsis? And your whole life was just hunger and stress and survival and that's it. And then you die. Imagine having to ration water, and being hungry and thirsty all the time and living in a tent in the desert? Your country has turned into a barren wasteland. Humans will survive it, but it didn't have to be this way, and if it did, what will come of the mess caused by global warming for future inhabitants of Earth? As in, how would the new society structured improve future generations if we lost a lot of our population? As it is, global warming is going to make diseases spread much easier, faster. And we have seen how humans handle this. : / What if ... like... dramatic events in history like this are synonymous with the rapture and that after a quick death, these people go to heaven or something like that? How would you karmically die from one life and move into something like that one? What event would need to take place, I wonder? Maybe it is purgatory? To clean up karma for a lot of souls quite quickly? What is the long term reasoning, plan and justification for the pain humans have to go through? The wave of future suffering is going to be unbearably heartbreaking. Cities might metaphorically be possible to make from the bones of the dead. I wonder how much time we will have in between each major disaster on our way to this timeline? It will always be something out of left field of course... Go to youtube and this is the first in my notifications. Something I will keep watch over, then. Probably another chain.

I am not personally a huge fan of it. I prefer fantasies. I'll watch porn maybe once every two or three months but I'm not a very sexual person anyways as it is. Some women really like porn and I have met them, some do not. I would say that it is rarer that women do, though.

This song is catchy.

@Carl-Richard Right now, the past few weeks have been really hard coming to terms with how delusional I can be at times and all the ways it manifests - how can the mind be sooo tricky? I feel silly, that I was blind by such obvious things. I can't even fully describe it, it feels like sloughing off a fog in an area of awareness where I felt so sure of things. Ah well.... life goes on. I get it.

This song makes me think of blue - a nation of people working together happily towards one unified goal - and they have like a collective people's energy that those in the west have lost that kept them going through hard times and keep stories/culture alive and have a greater bond with everyone in their entire culture because of this. Blue, at its best, allows a whole nation of people to sing and work together as One. I'm integrating some aspects of blue lately. It's not too bad... I think these lower stages are very vital groundwork.