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Your Primary Sparketype reveals the essential nature or "driver" of the work you're here to do (whether it's the work you get paid to do, or not). When you do the work of your Primary Sparketype, you come alive with purpose and, fully-expressed in a healthy way, deepen into meaning, flow, connection and joy. As a Maven, fascination is your call. You latch onto a topic, field or industry and devour everything you can know about it. Staying "surface level" just isn't an option for you. It's no fun. You are driven to learn, to discover, to ferret out information, wisdom, knowledge for no other purpose than the joy of learning and knowing something as fully and deeply as you can. Your Maven's fascination and yearning to learn might be expressed more generally, as a perpetual curiosity about everything and everyone. Or, it may be more focused on highly-specific topics or fields of interest that evolve over time, often because your ceaseless yearning to learn has largely exhausted what the topic has to offer. So, you find the next area of fascination to move on to. For Maven's it's not necessarily about what you "do" with your rapidly-accumulating reservoir of wisdom. What you learn may be useful to the others, or not. When it is, you enjoy sharing it. It is a beautiful potential "by-product" that also is essential if you want to turn your Maven-ness into your living. But, when you're really being honest, it's not the essential reason you do it. The fact that it has value to others is more a measuring stick of the depth of your knowledge and ability to fully-express what you've learned than a true expression of your reason for being. Either way, the deeper driver is the quest to learn, to satisfy your perpetual, insatiable fascination.

It says I'm red, but I feel more blue, maybe with a scattering of the lower stages with some experiences of yellow. I feel more open-minded, or at honest about where I am not to be considered predominantly red. Power doesn't really interest me. Any red left over would just be something like fear, or maybe occasionally anger. I feel myself becoming more aware of and caring about social issues now that survival concerns are going away. My empathy has grown a lot while working on myself. I hate hurting bugs. I accidently stepped on one a few days ago and felt bad for it. So to me, red seems inaccurate - but I also tend to underestimate myself and think of my flaws as being higher up/more noticeable in my personality so it would make sense that I score lower.

I tend to fall into the time wasting category most of all, especially in relation to journaling. I'm thinking a daily schedule will help with this. Quality post, thanks for sharing your observations.

^ very interesting jungle book cover. Now I'm the king of the swingers Oh, the jungle VIP I've reached the top and had to stop And that's what botherin' me I wanna be a man, mancub And stroll right into town And be just like the other men I'm tired of monkeyin' around! Oh, oobee doo I wanna be like you I wanna walk like you Talk like you, too You'll see it's true An ape like me Can learn to be humen too (Gee, cousin Louie You're doin' real good Now here's your part of the deal, cuz Lay the secret on me of man's red fire But I don't know how to make fire) Now don't try to kid me, mancub I made a deal with you What I desire is man's red fire To make my dream come true Give me the secret, mancub Clue me what to do Give me the power of man's red flower So I can be like you You! I wanna be like you I wanna talk like you Walk like you, too You'll see it's true Someone like me Can learn to be Like someone like me Can learn to be Like someone like you Can learn to be Like someone like me!

Play the first one, mute it, turn the second one with the narrative on and watch the first video. It's like the second song was made for it more than the original, imo. The sounds line up, too.

Look at works done by true masters of their craft, and see that there is always room for improvement. Look at all the details, the work that it takes in order to do this kind of stuff. ^ It's okay to be ordinary. Being ordinary gives you a chance to find what is special to you, being extra-ordinary requires that you share your gifts with the world and with that comes a certain type of responsibility. There is less of that, when being ordinary. There's more freedom in being invisible. Thinking that you are special can be a hindrance because it will make you over assess yourself, and then you might not learn as much. The key really is to be more in your body and really listen to what is being said, or what is around you and really synthesize that in the moment. This is what I have learned from having that problem in the past and working through it, and it is not really a part of my personality anymore. School of hard knocks told me that there are many, many, many exceptional people out there. I don't even feel jealous. They are here to teach, you can learn a lot by observing people who are much better than you.

I think it comes down to how you are raised as a child, at least for first world countries. If you were raised in a bad environment, you will generally not have very good results, although some people do overcome it. It's possible.

This video is really good! Gaia rebirths a new planet.

I've managed to find quite a satisfactory amount of new music today.

I wish I could try it. Maybe someday, the soft come up sounds nice.

Hi John, I am glad to head that they helped you. I love that scene, it kind of comforts me in a way, it's a pretty good movie. An old roommate showed it to me one night, he always had strange movies like this. Thank you!

It's here! I love the picture.

My soul is fine, I've found more of it lately and have also been vaccinated. I don't think it does anything to the soul tbh. Sometimes healers take this kind of stuff a bit too far imo.

@SQAAD I feel that way too sometimes, most nde experiences happen during cardiac arrest.

@RickyFitts you're welcome. ?

I think it takes practice. I have had insights that seemed super real, that turned out to be false, but learning they were false was part of learning what was true. It can be really hard to tell, because you can have like... 90 percent truth, and 10 percent falsity, and picking through it takes some work. That 10 percent can mess up everything else! It's certainly not a linear process, that's for sure. I like to write it out and roll with it, and have had some insights into truth so if something proves false, I just take a step back and try again, a different route. Sometimes, it is both! Sometimes karma hits you. It's all a lesson really, like learning a new skill.

@JuliusCaesar Wouldn't that be nice, though? I'd love to get rid of that last one there. ;P Kidding, kidding.

What was it that he took? edit: Salvia, didn't see that. Yikes, not my cup of tea, I hear you can get stuck in "forever" as like, swiss cheese with holes being punched into you or something very terrifying and abstract like that.

@Preety_India Oooh nice. I have a few on etsy I've been eying. Good luck!

@Preety_India You can use a ceremonial knife for cords as well, symbolically. Cord cutting under a personal ceremony produces best results. <3

Sent you some stuff on this, one is a discernment course and the other is cleansing/clearing energies, both for psychics/sensitives.

@Emerald I was a wingwoman a few times and it worked out well. Granted my nerdy friends were nerds, not creeps, so I didn't have to worry about them. Just Microsoft, Nintendo, Google employees who didn't know how to talk to women, and I had plenty of pretty and kind friends for them to get to know.

@Emerald I understand covid happened... but I mean... for the most part, what happened to early socialization? We would just go to bars meant for young folks, like ones in the U district, and the awkward guys got chicks all the time. After a few drinks they were not awkward guys anymore. This was also when nerds were starting to be looked at like prizes, nerd culture had a boom for a while there with the hipster crowd and all my computer tech friends found great girls over time. Maybe not AT the bar, lol, but but they didn't have this self deprecating attitude, and it makes me sad seeing guys who could do even better than my friends did feeling like they are not good enough. There is the early 20's initiation that is missing from modern society. It is a much more equal playing ground than some guys would think. To girls who read this: If you have awkward nerd guy friends, take them to the bars/clubbing with you. They need this. You could be a lifeline to someone's self esteem and dating life, if you do this for your awkward male friends. Women might need to step in and introduce them to their friends and stuff. There is a part of being in your early 20's where you need to get all the "party" out, and guys feel like they lost out on something if they can't do this. So bring them along and play on their strengths when you introduce them to pretty women. This incel stuff would disappear really quickly if we could show that women are not looking for "Chad" (my exes name, though lol) but we do like sweet/funny/intelligent... really though, we are all different, there is a girl out there for every guy. I think a girl as a wingman for an awkward guy would give better results than all of this stuff on the market. We might need to step in and just show guys like this what to do. So many of these guys don't deserve to feel like this, and if you can nip it in the bud in their 20's, it makes all the difference in the world. Seriously.

I feel bad, because even my nerdy awkward friends... they just went to the bar in their 20's and learned to socialize that way. Like, my autistic male friend who had a hard time finding a girl is now in a 3 year relationship. Granted he WORKED hard at getting two math degrees from university, both master's. The money did help a bit, because he then bought a home, and had what he needed to start a life. He was completely independent. He was honestly the most awkward guy in the world, and just worked on himself and found a girl he liked. She was not a model, but she was really cuuuute! A lot of these guys think "oh, I need the model" but there are so many cuuuuute girls, too. I have more stories of shy, or short... or insecure... ect ect. The difference is that they could go out and socialize. And after a few beers, they were not awkward. In my 20's, we did not throw our awkward guy friends away, we brought them WITH us as hot girls - and helped them. Things were just... different I guess.