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I prefer being broken up with, I'm not good at telling people no and tend to just ghost - not intentionally, I'm just shy.

I don't know, I think it's pretty cool, I want to use it in my collage artwork, it would be much easier to mix and match - and add on to my own creations. I think there is soul in the algorithms.

Similars, but different.

My first awakening was the awakening into this. I've been trying to explain it in so many ways. We'll see if notes on your video can do my interpretation of it all justice. I'll start tomorrow. Here's a song that reminds me of this.

I guess I'm a slave.

Just having a home, not having to worry about the world, freedom to work on art when I want, sleep and eat when I would like to, you know, freedom... but.... contained into my little world, that I will ever expand slowly, safely.

Yeah, it's the big picture, so it does include everything, I've experienced it before and everyone and everything is on the level of now even if we can't sense it most of the time.

I don't know if it is that I am dreaming, or if there is just another layer to be observed just an onion peel away, and that there is more going on "under" the layer. Perhaps that is what we wake up to, maybe our dreams are more alive than we think? Like this dude, would have the keys or something to a place like this, a heavenly, multidimensional town made out of pure consciousness because why not?:

Yes and no, I don't need to work on myself, I just need to Be. I think working on one's self is a trap. I feel just accepting myself, and living in the moment, whatever that may end up meaning to me is the way to go. I think people get too neurotic about changing themselves, and I have more power, intelligence and wisdom from simply existing in a simple way. I don't want to be exceptional, I just want to drink coffee, listen to music, smoke a joint and enjoy some sunshine and work on art and that is good enough for me. Be-ing for me, produces inspiration and power through will. I don't like to spread it too thin. So, spiritually - enough, in my life - I can avoid it to focus on spiritual matters. Doing or trying something new also kind of freaks me out because if I'm not good at it, then it doesn't offer me anything, I want to work on what I am good at and leave the rest for another lifetime. I look forward, in some instances, to death, so that creation as a process is quicker. I hope to improve my karma to fix myself... I think death, despite my fears, will do what it can to accept me gracefully. I already feel, in some ways, halfway there.

@Someone here That has not been my experience, my experience was like the ability to create whatever I wanted, and I just forgot, and then remember in the dream, but whatever I am doing there is the same storyline, I just progress further in understanding - I can't translate it very well. It's multi-layered, although I did once wake up in the deep sleep stage to find my higher self there, they have me a hug and said to be calm. I get the images on instagram, deviantart, google images, and you can make the above ones with wombo.art. I suck at communication, so the art helps.

I remember fantastic dreams that have plot lines to them so complex I can never bring one over in it's entirety, and it feels more rich and alive. I think heaven is more like this: Like an AI creating art or something, but alive.

I look at things that remind me of that moment of truth, and then let go and it usually comes back. It's usually some form of death, though. I think the finitude of it makes for some truthful experiences...

@Gianna That's really good and practical advice, I came here looking for solutions to feeling directionless as well.

This was informative, a good read, thank you. She came to me as Kali, but I recognize her in many different forms. I've been collecting songs, pictures, etc. that hold her energy. Here's a few that remind me of this energy, and an old altar I used to have - I love communicating with her and getting the motherly vibes that my real mother could not provide. This song has strong goddess vibes.

@ItsNick I plan to do that, to use the AI images underneath my collages. That was amazing btw. I like that I can make meaning with the AI images

I don't know what to tell you, I wish I had an answer. I have a picture and a song, hopefully they help. I think there are wonderful things in life, and you just have to be aware of them! Try to focus more on the good things in life, anywhere you can find it. Life is a blessing, see if you can find this everywhere around you and follow it and don't let it go. Be brave, as brave as you can. This can be hard in a world that is shaped in such a way, and people can get lost in all of it, but remember the Truth. I can't even describe it for you, but when you See it you Know, God has your back, you are not alone, there is a plan. I know what it's like, nothing works for me, either. I hoped that God would stick around in more than just my high states, but my low ones as well. But as each day passes, I find that there is indeed more beauty in this life than we would believe - when I journal or write, I go deep within and look for patterns, and with that comes a being able to See and Feel my essence, out of the physical body, and into the all-ness of it all. I think.. perhaps for both of us, the key is presence and bliss, and with that comes a lot of... sigh... meditation. Presence brings so much to the table, that is literally power. I wish people understood this more. You don't need to worry about what other people think because you are gifted with the same power of presence. With it, comes freedom from worrying about what other people think, I have seen your posts before, you seem like a really nice person - if someone bullies you they are either mean or crazy, one of two things - both which don't align with presence anyways. They would never be able to See you. You know? Judgement is falsehood... hard to remember that sometimes, I will try harder to...same for you, you worry about their falsehoods, and then create an identity from the lies people think or feel. Try presence and search for joy within yourself, align to that joy and follow it, and you then have your hook. "Don't think about all those things you fear, just be glad to be here." Feed the good wolf, feed your soul! We all deserve to feel comfortable with ourselves no matter what.

It just feels "right". But usually, I don't know for sure, I try to figure it out, and it leaves more questions than answers. This is good for meditation, spacious desert-like sounds..

Some that came out especially well:

How to invoke with black magic: Just watch, be aware, and watch - the eyes hold magickal power when used in the right way - listen to the lyrics and really take them in... : "If I only could, I'd be running up that hill It doesn't hurt me You want to feel how it feels? You want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me? You want to hear about the deal I'm making? You (be running up that hill) You and me (be running up that hill) And if I only could Make a deal with God I'd get him to swap our places Be running up that road Be running up that hill Be running up that building If I only could, oh You don't want to hurt me But see how deep the bullet lies Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder There's a thunder in our hearts, baby So much hate for the ones we love Tell me, we both matter, don't we? You (be running up that hill) You and me (be running up that hill) You and me won't be unhappy And if I only could Make a deal with God I'd get him to swap our places Be running up that road Be running up that hill Be running up that building If I only could, oh C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon darling Let me steal this moment from you now C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling Let's exchange the experience, oh And if I only could Make a deal with God And get him to swap our places Be running up that road Be running up that hill With no problem If I only could Make a deal with God I'd get him to swap our places Be running up that road Be running up that hill With no problem (If I only could Be running up that hill If I only could Be running up that hill If I only could Be running up that hill If I only could Be running up that hill If I only could Be running up that hill If I only could Be running up that hill If I only could Be running up that hill)

Nice, this can be used for deity-work, too... Thanks for sharing, I will use this a lot.

This is energy, this is most certainly a journey towards Teotle in some form. It would mix well with this death scene: This feels right, I will use these in the future to explain the process of dying. The first is a masterpiece, imo..