I find it difficult to do a solo meditation retreat that is longer than 5 or 6 days. After about 4 days i often get the desire to just quiet. I get temptations to masturbate to some porn, listen to some music or even go on a long walk somewhere. The first 2 or 3 days on a solo retreat are fine and actually quite enjoyable. But after awhile i just long for it to be over. Is there a different way to go about it?
Maybe dedicating 1 day a week for spirtual practice instead of several long retreats per year could be more enjoyable and suitable considering many people have very limited time that they can take off work. Or perhaps a small 3 day retreat every month or two could be more suitable for many. I know there are group retreats which are seemingly easier than just doing it solo. But these are expensive and where i live i would have to travel abroad to go to a retreat i would like. I would like to partake in 1 or maybe 2 group retreats per year. But probably not any more than that.
I'm wondering if there is any benefit to fighting the urge to quiet and pushing yourself to finish a long 10 day or 7 day retreat.
And Does anyone have any suggestions or ideas for approaching this?
