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@Ishanga Thank you, Mr. Ishanga. Your words are juicy and insightful. You're the best @CoolDreamThanks Lol. This made me laugh a lot. It also humbly reminds me that, as I intuited, I did not ask the original question of this post for the sake of pursuing truth or pure understanding but rather because I was looking to fulfill another fantasy. FUCK! However, just as you are admirably and passionately studying ACIM in the hopes of reaching an ultimate end, or at least witnessing the positive development of your intimacy with Truth and Understanding, so I will set off on a journey of my own to eventually experience what I consider to be the best state in the world right now in this very moment. Amen. God Bless your Soulless Soul @Breakingthewall Everything you said seems spot on except for less empathetic. I would also add that I am not just talking about how I feel in a party or social event but also when sitting in the scorching sun of the slums of Delhi while watching flies whiz around me and rest on my limbs.

@Yimpa thank you. This video is most stupefying. What do you interpret the buttons to represent?

@Breakingthewall Right. I have considered that the answer I am looking for simply does not exist because the LSD state is a chemical induced state that is not sustainable in sobriety. In an earlier post I found about this topic, Leo made a comparison between accessing the psychedelic state sober and taking steroids; you just can't experience the benefits of steroids in sobriety: it's a drug, it's a chemical. That makes sense. But insofar as what I am looking for is personal benefits and not consciousness itself, it follows that I may need to practice social skills or some such. Yet, the solution is obviously not "practicing my social skills," since when I am SuperConscious (off a 1/3 tab dose or whatever), I realize that I have no social skills problems and I am the most socially skilled person... So, in that case, the only solution really is "consciousness." Right? I guess this ties into the concept of "baseline level of consciousness (definitely an obscure concept). Therefore, my question can be rephrased as: "How do I raise my baseline level of consciousness to that state which I experience off just a small dose of acid? Is it even possible? Surely it must be.. Thank you all for your time [insert big heart emoji]

@Sugarcoat Yes, there is definitely less insecurity. In the state that I am talking about, my charisma and sense of humor and overall social aptitude is through the roof. At work, I close every deal. At a party, I'll attract everyone. My presence is magnifying. I get high off laughing at myself. My grasp of language is utterly profound, and it comes out in riddles and cosmic jokes that play on words. My gaze is grounded. I feel unperturbed. In sobriety, when talking with someone, it feels as if my mental-emotional gets "tossed around" with them. I will enter a whirlpool of feelings in synch with whoever I am communicating with, plus my own mental baggage. In the state that I am talking about, however, it is as if when listening or speaking to someone, I am able to remain utterly unperturbed by how they are behaving, what they are saying, etc. I still intellectually comprehend the meaning of their words, but because I am so unreactive and do not take their words to mean more than they do, I am able to respond with such composure, confidence, clarity, etc.

Lol, this is funny. I was just contemplating today about the Value of Money What is the value of 5 Dollars?: the Million Dollar Question... Obviously, money aint worth shite independent of our collective consensus, value-making, blah blah blah — it's an illusion, isn't it? But intellectually understanding that is ALSO not worth shite if, when push comes to shove, and u drop $400 cash info the fucking ocean that u just made after slinging fish in the rain, or — somehow worse — you lose your LIFE SAVINGS bc of a market crash thing whayever, and YOU GET UPSET ABT IT! So, you have only transcended the illusion of money (which is a parriculary nasty bastard of an illusion) if u truly dont care or differentiate between the value of $5 and $92828×8×9×88 dollars... REALLY understanding this illusion would restore your dignity & make u infinitely aware of the reality that u are not only worth more than 80 million dollars, bur all the gdp of nations combined. That is because money is worth just as much as the wart on my fat toe that im looking at right now Prove me wrong!

All of yall talking about garbage and trash, vulgar this, vulgar that. That's fucking disgusting! Why don't we talk about rainbow unicorns dancing in the motherfucking spotlight?

What ur doing seems good. If ur going slowly, digesting and absorbing the material, it means u care abt comprehending and embodying it There is no need or rush or goal to "finish the book" Much better to understand & implement the significance of just one sentence in a given book than to read the whole thing and move on to the next one This ain't laying bricks, man Check out this video for how learning works.

Your most recent quote, "What was the most intelligent thing that has ever lived, and what did it understand?" Is the answer simply "You" or "Me?" Just like that? Simple? Or are you entertaining the notion of some three-eyed species in a galaxy far far away that somehow understands more than us? And about what?? Thank you

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If this is true, then I'll be damned. If I'm not damned, then I must be asleep! Yawwwwnnnnn, good morning! NOW WHERE'S MY FUCKING COFFEE??

Dear Mr. Jim Well, I am incredibly astonished, amazed, surprised, impressed, and sorry for everything you have been through. You are a true warrior of ambition, a man of passion and balls of steel. First, let's talk about the man who poisons dogs. Call the cops, man. That guy should get fucked himself! You nor your neighbors should not have to worry about some madman poisoning the neighborhood pets. That's despicable, that is! I wouldn't take matters into your own hands since that could end in a poisonous doom. As for Japan, it does seem like you are HELL-bent on going there; and if that's really true, I am sure you will find a way. There has to be a way. As per the dark voodoo nonsense, black magic, hocus-pocus shmagiggy shtuff — look at this way: Circumstance is the Enemy of your goals, ambitions, and desires. But not in such a way where Circumstance is an Evil Entity out to get you, a dark energy deliberately sabotaging your efforts, or whatever else you might imagine as that which is pitted against you, committed to shitting on your day. No such thing is true! In fact, blaming some dark energy sauce whatever is just going to make shit worse, for the worse. Not better. Better be more inventive and find different way to get Japan, and do it cool, calm, and collected like ninja. Also, take care of the man who poisons dogs first. Gotta get your shit in order 1st Priority = Safety 2nd Priority = Get to Japan THEN the real problems will begin! In all seriousness (of which there is none), I am incredibly sorry for what you have been through and extend any compassion in my heart to you, Mr. Jim Peace, Love, and Mighty Wherewithal!

Just sit & relax Like after you just milked the cows, tended to the livestock, brought wood up the mountain for tonight's fire... whatever What do you do? All tired and shit... YOU SIT ON THE COUCH! (Plump!) "Goddamn, that feels NICCEEE!" No method or reason is involved here. You sit and then you relax. Doing the same thing intentionally can be called meditation, minus the TV, popcorn, beer, youtube video, etc. The goal of meditation is not to try to achieve a certain state. You are not aiming for a cessation of anything. Try as you might, you will castrate yourself further. So, just sit. Do not follow a method. Thoughts will arise, and you will let go. Detached. Calm, present, awareness. I say this: unless you have a specific goal such as having set out to complete a retreat, if your meditation session becomes uncomfortable, unbearable, or otherwise a burden, stop it, change your position, of fuck off and do something else Meditation is the antithesis of Masochism It is just selfless enjoyment — ahhh, doesn't it feel nice to be Alive...!

I just watched a relevant interview/dialouge between Sadhguru and some hardnosed scientist. Will link it here. But I never realized how deep this problem goes. The scientists guy in the video was so obviously entrenched in a clever belief system with pre-made tactics to defend and justify himself in circles. Astounding. And with such arrogance, he comes across as quite retarted — flailing at windmills, if you will And when you listen to this scientists dude speak about the brain as the source of consciousness and all this shit, you feel the anxious, rushing energy behind his words, and it all sounds like zombie drivel — the ramblings of a true epistemic scoundrel Versus when Sadhguru speaks it is clear, calming, etc. No fluff. Man knows what he's talking about (even tho that's nothing) Anyways, just wanted to post this here to provide another example of this epistemic poverty, this epistemilpgical bankruptcy, and the "flailing at windmills" dynamic that keeps these gears churning in motion. https://youtu.be/pCGDQPZYmQM?si=K9W9i_nOeLuG6Q9K

I have always intuited that Sanity & Sobriety are connected for what it's worth. I mean both with capital "S," so you can be Sober and still use whatever substance whatever time and be Sane but have a mind most would consider insane Both of the words seem to be pointing to, ultimately, the same thing: God, Oneness, Clarity, Realized Mind, or whatever This sanity business is definitely not some obscure domain or facet of consciousness divorced from the Whole Bastard Himself.

@Natasha Tori Maru Your proof is sexy. I think it looks nice. Just like a dancing apparition! Mmmmm, show me your moves, baby! But, still, it does not hold muster against the Great Girth of God's Mighty IllusionPlower! And so, just like the snowplower (will attach picture to be sure), so God is tilling the fields night and day, ridding them of the proofs of concept that actually stand in the way of getting closer to.... TO WHAT? Didn't Leo just make a video about this?! Still don't get it!?

@Natasha Tori Maru I can disprove your entire argument easily. Watch this: Close your eyes, take a deep breath in, and slowly open your eyes as you exhale (blow out the candle), and watch as your "argument" (or whatever) disintegrates into nothing, just as the shit disappears from the bowl of the toilet once you flush it, and reveals that You have no argument Case closed.

@Natasha Tori Maru Что? Are we doing mathematics now? In that case, I have a theorem: Feelings = emotions = some more shit that you have thought of and GOD IS STILL WAITING FOR YOU...

It's just that feelings and emotions are not Truth. They are transient. They pass. Reminds me of this quote: "Nothing is more short-lived than the erection; like the crocus of Spring, it is there for a moment, then it is gone." — William Irwin Thompson

Dear Fabled Folk of Actualized.Org You are all Lovely, Beautiful Women and Strong, Masculine Men. Now Get Over Your Identities and Let's Get to The Fucking!

I think the truth is that I Am a Child I am a Fool I am a Blabbering Mouth, just like the WaterFall Insert waterfall gif

Everyday, every moment, I am uncovering the remnants of yet more shit that I unwittingly believed. We ARE dealing with an infinite jungle of self-deception... One of the hurdles to my enlightenment that I believe to have recently overcome is that I am more enlightened and awake than, in the very least, most other people, but soon thereafter it dawned on me that I was dreaming all of "you" up in my imaginary imagination, and so: ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST! Just pondering the qualificatory enterprise of delineating tiers and levels and categories of awakeness/enlightenment, I realized that it just might be the case that Leo Gura is not more enlightened than that fucking dickhead at the gym yesterday that was blabbering about some utter bullshit... Nor am I more mature or intelligent than Donald Trump or the majority of humans otherwise who seem to be full of hatred, delusion, and more. So, I would like y'alls input on this. I know you wonderful folk of Actualized.org do not really exist but, somehow, at a certain point, anyways, refreshing my page lends to the comments of avatars that I DID NOT CREATE (but of course I did), so anyways before this gets out of hand and turns into a "I did not say what I just said" kind of game, I will, indeed, shut the fuck up.

Careful as Ever! Salute, Cheers, Namaste, HALLELUJAH!

Sidenote: I am bubbling with Love, Gratitude, and Sweet, Joyous Tears of Positivity for, specifically, the wonderful community of this forum (that is, to be sure, Actualized.org). All of you people don't exist, obviously, so this is a message made JUST FOR THE ONE READING THESE VERY WORDS: I love you, I really do. Thank you for everything you have done. You have done enough!