Hulia

THis is what my father could better than me. I always ended in arguing with my mother because I did listen.

If you are able to help - help! If you notice, it´s a waste of time - stop trying to help. I don´t know, if cruelty is inspired by love. But even if it is, it doesn´t change anything on the nature of cruelty. It´s still cruelty.

You are already God, Infinity, Love. You don´t need a teacher! Besides he is shy like a doe, he won´t show up. I thought the most men are perfectly skilled in pretending of being listening. The survival instinct

People always want general rules appliable for every situation. But life is nuanced. Help kind and helpful people. Don´t help cruel and unhelpful people. It´s not that dificult, is it? But you have to make a choice and a decision every time you confront a person and a situation.

I had a wise teacher, a kind of show-man I didn´t understand the question. But no, I am not bothered

I dont understand this issue with listenning. I have never had an impression that there there is something important to say or listen to, something that would change the relationship radically. It´s just mutual accusation. Or mostly one-side accusation I know it because my mother treated me and my farther in the same way. SO I learned to understand a husband´s perspective in the early age When I became older she wanted me to take her side out of a women´s solidarity. But how could I, if she herself tought me to associate with my father?

I´ve changed my mind. You don´t need to hunt. Otherwise you´ll get tired and fall asleep without revealing you manhood under shiny Brazian moon. Don´t need all that conquered crocodiles and snakes Do you have a big long river in Serbia?

@Zeroguy Somehow I guessed that you love roses. I knew once a turkish guy, and he also loved roses. And Turkey is not so far away from Serbia.

I envy you. I like these games. When a guy suddenly begins to use a perfume or put on weird t-shirts The occasional glances - mmm... ? The germans are not so good in playing, you need subtlety, intuition. I´s prefer you struggling with crocodiles and snakes than with the locals. Cannot we be friend with the locals? The gangsters are cool. And maybe they even let me test my first psychodelic, the gangsters.

Chopping an onion should be a relationship test Onions are extreeemely important for bon cuisin. And garlic! Zero, will you allow me to eat garlic during our trip through Brazil? And squidge ants with my fingers? If they come to our room with the sight of the river? I heard, there is a lot of them in Brazil.

This image flashed so vividly in my mind and I cringed. It must be a terrible combination. I even know how his appartment would look like and the whole life-style. I would prefer a guy with a cat who likes cooking and growing vegetables. @Zeroguy Zero, you have to put off your leather jacket, it´s impractical for the work in the garden ?

goddamn Don´t beleive that guys, if they tell it God but without "o" ? it´s goddamn

Easiest and lowest??? For me it´s the most difficult part - almost impossible - to let that GD "me" go. Like holding an imgainary rope over the abyss. And though I know, it´s not fixed anywhere - that rope makes no sense, I cannot let it loose. Because... abyss!

@Zeroguy Now I cannot stop imaginning you walking like Ramana and must lough out loudly every now and then :)))) Zero with a humble look under big umbrella, his balls packed well in a piece of white fabric ? @Preety_India He is studying psycology

googled Ramana Maharashi But I wouldn´t object if you have something from Jiddu Krishnamurti, love him. THough Ramana is also fun , say what you want

:)))) Yes, want estimate. You guy are lucky. You can be interested in a woman just by her looks. It´s enough to see how she moves, how she loooks. YOu can be charmed by a grace of a woman. I know it, because I like to observe charming women too. And there is a lot of them! Want to be a man for a while. You have a lot of choice. But it´s not the same with the men from our perspective. We usually don´t fall for grace in a man. And if you do - see a gracefull man - you´d better keep away from him ? We need more to be interested in a man. Difficult.

That makes a lot of sense. A woman would let a guy get her , if he really would want her. Want HER. And not just abstract sex. With anybody who lets him in. This is a difference. I tried to tell them on that section. But they don´t want to listen to a woman. Because we women play our own game and dont understand the game of them. We also don´t understand how we are got by them.

Tell the snake in your wallet to calm down. We are in the middle of the jungle! No expenses. Only mood swings! And I want you to catch real snakes for me out of the river. We will fry and eat them. Come to Germany. We share here always. It´s so much more convenient. I am ashamed of myself, when I recall how I expected the guys to pay for everything. They were just stundents like me. Silly indoctrination.

yes, everything will be proper with the sight of the river outside of our window, passing by and by and by...

How many evenings can you spend like that? 1? 2? Then it will be too much. Of noise. Of people. But you know what? Brazil doesn´t look dangerous at all. No shooting, no drug-traffic. It looks like Ukraine but with ocean and jungle. Maybe I go there on my own. You are unreliable. I dreamed so often of the wide sand beeches and the soviet-style-buildings in the background. But in amlost every dream I had issues with police (not even with the gangsters)

What? Why not? Don´t make me nervous. I have already promised. But of course I am afraid of resposibipity for the next 20 years. Besides I am going to let her out, every time she wants. She will have a bit of freedom.

@Zeroguy Zero, if you have a magical power and help all your gf´s, can you repair my tooth nerve? Oh wait.. just let it die, let it rest in piece. I don´t need nerves to chew the things, teeth are enough. Or should I let them pull all my teeth away? No teeth - no nerves. I am so done with the nerves. Will you follow me to Brazil without teeth?

Nice I thought, they hate you, because you told, they turn into firing squad when they see you.

You should show more remorse. Recognize your fault. Thta´s all. Is it so difficult? They´ve spent their best years on you.

Paradoxes is my craddle. I think, it´s a reason for my misfortune with the men. I have simalteneously strong masculine and feminine traits in me. So one part of men finds me too masculine and another too feminine, I think. Not exactly the right one for anybody. And I have no particular favourite types of men. If you sort my ex´s in a line, you´ll be amazed, how differents they are in every aspect. P.S: Just read that "In fact, Mr Trump is the first US leader in 118 years to not own a dog while in office https://www.abc.net.au/news/2019-11-03/why-is-there-no-first-dog-in-the-white-house/11661460 Maybe Trump is not as bad as I thought?