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I think the headspace was leveled up when I took THC with N,N-DPT. I still notice some effects from that combination of chemicals.

LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! I have not known what LOVE is. This much LOVE is insane. There has always been LOVE. I was missing this my whole life. Self-generating LOVE.

@Breathe, I started with about 15 mg. I don't feel quite confident about the first measurement.

#1 At the first few moments, my heart started to beat very fast. I thought maybe my body would stop working. It was scary. I felt wanting to scream. But in retrospect, I think it was about not knowing how to react to what was happening. I have never experienced clarity that intense. The main theme was the acceptance of everything and basking in it. Being. My hands looked very weird to me, as if I were looking for the first time. I couldn't stop my eyes from tearing up. I sensed unconditional love towards everything. There were mild visual patterns. The dose was about 15 mg.

What movie have you recently watched, or are you now watching? I have yet to finish watching the movie "The Irishmen".

I wasn't expecting the whole thing from a tiny dose. I just wanted to at least try one of the remaining ones and have a light experience. But I'm glad it happened. A nice way to end my testing.

The trip was so healing. Everything is created by love. I can't describe it. It showed me that I panicked on my last trip because I lacked love. It showed me that I don't love myself enough, but I'm being loved anyways! In the beginning of the trip, it was intense in terms of understanding my feelings. Literally, it was being untangled. It gave me space to express my feelings from childhood. It was also a bit sexual. I noticed that I'm still afraid to be feminine, even though I prefer it. I'm harsh on myself and don't want to face my feelings often. You cannot not cry when you understand that God is trying to make itself aware of love by loving.

I orally consumed about 10 mg of 4-HO-MET.

I AM GOD! I AM CREATING EVERYTHING! ABSOLUTELY TOTAL! ABSOLUTELY SOVEREIGN! ABSOLUTE INSANITY! God is loving this reality. God doesn't care whether the human dies or not. However, suicide is a deception. God wants to experience and it designed the human experience. I'm hallucinating this human experience! I was able to awaken myself and go back to being human instantly. I tested that multiple times while tripping. Leo! I created you to remind me that I can wake up. God is a genius bastard. So much happened during the trip that I'm unable to write as of now! It was infinitely insane! I ate a cannabis gummy three hours after I consumed 150 mg N,N-DPT orally. It contained 5 mg THC, 5 mg CBD, and 5 mg CBG. My insane trip began 20-30 minutes after cannabis consumption. The peak lasted for two hours. But I'm still tripping. Almost all of my psychedelic experiences, although I've done very little before, are a joke compared to what I've experienced now. Ideas of psychedelic experiences are also a joke after you have an experience. Ideas of it will probably become an obstacle eventually without serious experience. Meditation will never, at least to me, be able to reveal something like that. My whole being wants to align with that experience. I feel a strong desire to emulate it.

@Butters is telling that he is located specifically behind the eyes. He is referring to a specific location in the visual field. "Behind the eyes" would not point to some specific location if the whole visual field is taken into account, but it would point to everything that appears, which in that case "eyes" just means visual field.

The thing that still remains is that I still see gradual shiny outlines around objects which have noticeable depth. When I was tripping, I was feeling a beam shooting out of my ears and mouth. It was quite pleasant.

You are not behind your eyes, because it's impossible. It doesn't matter if your eyes feel fixed at a certain location in your daily life. By "behind", you assume that you can see it. But you cannot see what's behind. There's no behind the eyes. Your eyes aren't more real and more you than some object, like a tree. They both exist as a visual thing.

Forgot to mention that the trip finally ended today. I'm officially in a sane human state now.

@Human Mint, you can save some money, travel, and test them. That's what I have been doing. So, managing your life comes into play here.

There are 3 ways that I know that you can obtain psychedelic compounds if you cannot get it safely: Extracting N,N-DMT Growing Psilocybe mushrooms Growing mescaline-contianing cactus. I have done the first one.

@Peo, the potency of shrooms is mostly about the amount of psilocin/psilocybin. The potency of the chemical depends on the dosage. Also, you may need less or more than other people to be potent, I don't know. Relative to other chemicals, psilocybin can be less or more potent per mg.

@Human Mint, if you feel like that you have to manage your life, then do that. Psychedelic trips are quite challenging.

God is a trickster because it creates deceptions so that it could stay human; otherwise God would stay as God. As a human, you may react that God will any second harm you. That reaction you get from that thought is a deception created by God to keep you human. God hallucinates things that humans can use to harm themselves.

Sorry guys, I cannot respond right now. I'm tripping. It has reactivated. This is taking longer than I thought.

Well, it's just 5 mg THC. However, what I think counts here is how you consume it. The bioavailability is way lower when you take it orally compared to smoking it. It means that if I smoke THC, I would have to weigh it much less.

@Leo Gura, I have read your post about THCa isolate. How do you even measure 1 mg of it? N,N-DPT effects me for a day or two. N,N-DPT and THC combo was superb with the dosage I've done. It wasn't too visual, but THC enhanced N,N-DPT to an insane level. Also, we have to take into account that I consumed THC orally. I'm still tripping, but I have control of my body. If I concentrate on survival, I stop tripping somehow. It's not insane like yesterday's peak. Right now the problem is that if I try another psychedelic, it may elongate the trip and I might reach a state more insane. I have two days for my flight. I feel that at this point it would be reckless to try the remaining ones.

I felt that 5mg of THC was too high a dose for me.

Leo and you are laughing. Why?

But doesn't it hit differently to be awakened as God beyond the human state? I felt an immense difference between the human state and the God state. All of the survival instincts came back when I came back to being human. The difference between sleepiness and wakefulness was so vastly different. Since yesterday, when I remind myself of the trip, I notice that I am reactivating the trip. However, suddenly I start to have a mild trips during the day, even without reminding myself and without taking a psychedelic today.