Nemra

@Girzo, do you know?

How can I convert the dosage between rectal and oral administration for N,N-DPT?

My mind is still very open since yesterday when I started tripping. It's like if I focus on reality, I have to be careful not to go insane. I notice that there are subtle changes in how I perceive anything. It's like everything is inverted. I have a hard time fooling myself into thinking that reality exists outside, like I used to. The nature of everything is like transparent.

I don't feel like the trip has ended. Lol. There are mild visual patterns.

Amazing.

The trip made me aware that my life is like an extremely filtered-down psychedelic trip. Life feels like an escape from taking up full responsibility of your mind.

I forgot about that. I already feel sick just by imagining drinking alcoholic beverages while tripping.

@OBEler, experiencing eyes open is great. However, 5-MeO-DMT greatly affected how I felt. And there isn't an "eyelid" to stop feeling it.

5-MeO-DMT had transparent visual patterns, however, they weren't dynamic like the visuals of N,N-DMT and N,N-DPT.

Three hours in, and I'm still tripping. It suddenly reactivates when I think it's probably ended, though it's not that intense right now.

I don't close my eyes.

Yeah, that's too much for now. I don't know what will happen if I add 2 or 3 mg more.

70 mg is mind-blowing! Amazing! I'm melting on different levels. I cannot describe it. The visual geometry is insane.

#2 I plugged 20 mg. My mind was reacting negatively towards what was happening in the beginning because I was becoming doubtful whether I could handle the experience. What was making me depressed in the beginning was that I was noticing the ways that I had been avoiding truth in my life. I was unconsciously constructing negative meanings/scenarios, and it literally was becoming true. However, at some moment I realized it was being constructed just by becoming aware of it. I'm doing it. I couldn't differentiate between my mind and the experience. It was dreamy. So direct. Serious as hell. It was very energetic. People's lives and jobs seemed like little specks.

The come up is very gradual than 5-MeO-DMT. I like that.

True. I've plugged 60 mg and I cannot imagine what 70 mg will be!

Now, I plugged 60 mg, and yeah, it's very different than 30 mg. The headspace is weird, like N,N-DMT. 10 minutes feels like more than an hour. I'm surprised that it stings significantly less than 5-MeO-DMT when it's plugged.

Sure. I have to be more careful because I'm not at home, and won't be staying long there. I wish I had easy access to it. Gosh. The headspace was intense. These substances surprise me every time. Never thought that it could be intense without visuals that I get on N,N-DMT.

@Leo Gura, will it sound more academic?

I received 4-HO-MET instead of N,N-MET. I guess the vendor got confused about what I meant by MET. Now, I have to pick between 4-HO-MET and 4-HO-MiPT. Got them all. I'll start testing tomorrow morning. I can't believe that this is happening. TBH, I'm a bit afraid of how I would react to the experience, because I might snap out of my life in a very unexpected way or maybe more intensely. Not doing this at home makes me more anxious.

I can be an economical clean freak for certain things. Ordered them.

I hope Dutch pharmacies sell that type of syringe, especially in batches.

Should a new syringe be used for every trip, or can the old one be reused after cleaning it?

Identifying only with your body is illogical.

It also implies that without being able to be conscious, that thing isn't there. The distinction dissolves.