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@Schizophonia, is there a specific reason for using that one? Why not other 4-HOs or 4-AcOs?

I fear of absolute infinity because of losing my humanity, even if I got a little taste of it. However, I am starting to see how love has a part in this. Loving what the truth is, beyond human. By "absolute infinity", I mean the infinite possibility of endless actualizations.

#10 (A bit of taste of the infinite) While on DMT, I started focusing on what all of this is, and suddenly I was being reminded that I have to return to the absolute Infinite. It was extremely unbearable what my potential actually is. I thought, "How would I come back and live my life with that realization? It's extremely radical." I knew that that was my potential, but I didn't go all the way. It was just a taste. Honestly, this shit is getting very serious.

What about non-Scandinavian countries, like the Netherlands? That one's prevalent in mine too. Boys are too macho for that.

Lol. And the Asians are too pragmatic not to accept the offer, right?

Yeah. It's a bit easy for me because I don't desire having friends that much and I don't try to befriend anyone because I understand the consequences. I prefer being alone. Interesting. Is that exclusive to Swedes?

@UnbornTao, don't eat food, and you will understand the power and the directness of the chemicals. Finally, are you enlightened?

The thing is, women also play into that behavior. Some of them don't know better and think that they are being womanly by reinforcing it. It's nauseating to hear about both of their lives. Imagine people around you expecting you to marry someone of their liking and have babies, just so your family and extended family would be happy and proud that you are continuing their "genes". It's difficult to stand up for yourself when your survival depends on them and there's no easy way to escape from it.

The other option is the "nice", family man whose relationship decisions are based on his family and friends. He would gaslight his wife and would rather blame her than go against his family. There are lots of them.

@vibv, I'm reading the above part again, and now I see that the story creator must fabricate each character's will in the story. Each character's will is the will of the story creator.

Has anyone had the feeling that thinking about or everyday interaction with people is somehow an intelligent way to make or keep you asleep?

@vibv, my trip lasts about maybe 10-20 minutes; I can't keep track of the exact time yet. Though, it depends on how I smoke. I'm still not sure about the dose. Sometimes 10-20mg starts to affect me, and sometimes not. I fill up the pipe and smoke it multiple times to get the most out of it. After the trip, my experience stays more lucid than my normal state for some time. DMT is wild when I smoke it effectively. I feel my hands melting into each other. My visual field sometimes looks like infinite transparent layers of sheets, sometimes infinite recursive holes appear at multiple points, etc. I can't order other psychedelics to my country because it's too risky. I extract DMT.

@vibv, by the way, how long does your DMT trip last? How much do you take? Also, do you smoke it multiple times?

I haven't seen pro-Palestinian politicians in the US that have enough political power to be able to make the government biased against Israel and support Palestine, ignoring how the Palestinians are using that support against other countries and also their citizenry.

@vibv, after the DMT experience, I started to contemplate what anything is made of, which led me to question who I am, which led me to the realization that I must be everything. It's easy to say that, however, what's assuring is that you feel it in your bones at that moment. I was staring at the chair, and it was too obvious that it is me. But I still don't know what I am, beyond the identification of everything. There must be more. Although, I know what you and others might say. I'm in a state of not-knowingness and it is getting profound.

@theoneandnone, the will of a character in a story is limited by the story, isn't it?

#9 It was so clear that my life is a literal story when I took DMT today. I was seeing how it was being constructed, and I was in shock. It was beyond just being aware of being lost in beliefs here and there. There was no ground that I could stand on, and I couldn't care less if my reality were to be constructed in a totally different way, beyond human. People who willy-nilly, without psychedelic experience, tell others that life is a story do not understand the gravity of it. Like, literally, you see how absolutely your reality is being constructed.

@Leo Gura, I cannot imagine that in my normal state, because I cannot escape familiarity entirely. However, on DMT, things get quite alien. Though, I haven't had a big enough dose to go fully alien. By the way, I was trying to say that people are inclined to think of the word "alien" as a creature and not as an unfamiliar experience. I wasn't saying that you are using it wrong.

People mostly associate the word "alien" with possible non-earthly creatures instead of foreign, strange, weird, bizarre, unusual, etc., experiences. Did you pick the word "alien" because it sounds better with the word "consciousness"?

I ate 15g fresh truffles (2-3g dried mushrooms) in one fell swoop. It was tasty. My mind was royally fucked. Now, it's a memory that shakes me up often.

Like housing crisis.

You might not want to go back home after visiting. Psychedelic laws, building and city architecture, tram system. Although, they also have their own issues.

The best place to order psychedelics. @Leo Gura, have you been there?

You can't be a Christian without practicing Christianity. Practice doesn't mean praying on Sundays. There are different denominations of Christianity, and yet everyone of them believes they are more Christian than the other, not knowing that they are all lost in their dogma. Lol. The core of Christianity is belief in Jesus, and the remaining beliefs are built on top of it.

Christians literally believe that there are demons that test people and stray them away from the Christian way of life. Maybe there are Christians who also can think in terms of projection, but they have the lingering fear of demons.