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I don't close my eyes.

Yeah, that's too much for now. I don't know what will happen if I add 2 or 3 mg more.

70 mg is mind-blowing! Amazing! I'm melting on different levels. I cannot describe it. The visual geometry is insane.

#2 I plugged 20 mg. My mind was reacting negatively towards what was happening in the beginning because I was becoming doubtful whether I could handle the experience. What was making me depressed in the beginning was that I was noticing the ways that I had been avoiding truth in my life. I was unconsciously constructing negative meanings/scenarios, and it literally was becoming true. However, at some moment I realized it was being constructed just by becoming aware of it. I'm doing it. I couldn't differentiate between my mind and the experience. It was dreamy. So direct. Serious as hell. It was very energetic. People's lives and jobs seemed like little specks.

The come up is very gradual than 5-MeO-DMT. I like that.

True. I've plugged 60 mg and I cannot imagine what 70 mg will be!

Now, I plugged 60 mg, and yeah, it's very different than 30 mg. The headspace is weird, like N,N-DMT. 10 minutes feels like more than an hour. I'm surprised that it stings significantly less than 5-MeO-DMT when it's plugged.

Sure. I have to be more careful because I'm not at home, and won't be staying long there. I wish I had easy access to it. Gosh. The headspace was intense. These substances surprise me every time. Never thought that it could be intense without visuals that I get on N,N-DMT.

@Leo Gura, will it sound more academic?

I received 4-HO-MET instead of N,N-MET. I guess the vendor got confused about what I meant by MET. Now, I have to pick between 4-HO-MET and 4-HO-MiPT. Got them all. I'll start testing tomorrow morning. I can't believe that this is happening. TBH, I'm a bit afraid of how I would react to the experience, because I might snap out of my life in a very unexpected way or maybe more intensely. Not doing this at home makes me more anxious.

I don't want to pick a 4-sub and have a less than a profound experience and wait for a few days for tolerance and also cross-tolerance. I will be in the Netherlands soon for two weeks, and I can only get one chance every few months to find out. Does it matter which one I choose?

I can be an economical clean freak for certain things. Ordered them.

I hope Dutch pharmacies sell that type of syringe, especially in batches.

Should a new syringe be used for every trip, or can the old one be reused after cleaning it?

Identifying only with your body is illogical.

It also implies that without being able to be conscious, that thing isn't there. The distinction dissolves.

I even PM'd him, but he hasn't read yet.

In this thread, I will share my DMT experience. The time has come!

I shared a specific example about being conformist.

رياح الحياة Reyah El Hayah

Saying "thank you" and commenting on his clothes is being on topic in this thread, and what I shared is not? Come on. Please, let's not argue about this petty thing.

It was not random, and I am sure Leo can speak for himself for his thread.

Yeah, you're forced to be clever when you hardly can buy new clothes for yourself, but when you get a nice-paying job, your approach becomes an obstacle. The opposite can also be true. People can spend money on services out of habit just because they can afford it.

Once I got a job, I started asking myself: Why am I entitled to pirate and get software free? It is easy to think that stuff should be free when you don't have a job and cannot pay for anything. Sure, the prices of some services are BS and not fair, but that doesn't mean all services aren't worth paying for.

Thank you for trying to open my mind.