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@Leo Gura, back then, I couldn't make sense how a Christian or any religious person could have an awakening. I have been treating the cognitive dimension as a given, which made me assume that people at a very low cognitive level could not have an awakening, because their explanations weren't as deep and direct as your explanation, which is not to say that they know what they are talking about or actually have had awakenings. The self-limitation is astounding! This is really mind opening and is giving me goosebumps.

@Leo Gura, the level of your cognitive development will affect your awakenings and how you understand them, right? It seems that people who are unaware of their cognitive development don't see how much they are limiting their awakenings.

It seems like that the video on post-modernism was created with the assistance of AI. However, it is good.

I guess Japanese people would love me.

Well, it's hard. I have suffered through painful injuries and a neurological disorder. I have some experience of going through difficult times. I just try to remain calm as much as I can while observing what's going on. When the trip starts, I start sensing that I can't run away from it, because it's total.

@Leo Gura, have you seen song covers by AI?

It's not beneficial to them. It's relative. I have a hard time convincing myself with their way of living as I was raised in it. Once you get out of their circle, you start to see the nonsense if you want to. It's not only about nonsense, but also about their conformist mindset. If you aren't self-reflective, then everything you were taught is assumed as truth, doesn't it?

@Thought Art, because any construction can be deconstructed. If it assumes that it can't be deconstructed, then it's not self-reflective in the first place. How can you know if it's honest to itself if it doesn't let people deconstruct it, helping people see what lies beyond construction?

Christianity is problematic because it doesn't deconstruct itself nor does it have powerful tools to do that (prayer isn't really a tool). No Christian will dare to deconstruct because they have an emotional connection with the stories and such. It's too precious for them. Christians assume that people just know God without changing their state. Christians can talk about God confusing it with their beliefs, and they have a naive attitude towards believing.

I appreciate that.

Yeah. I will try to do that.

I don't know why I am posting each and every trip anymore. It seems like it's not of any use.

@Cubbage, cool!

#14 Reality is incredibly direct! When I was having an ego dissolution today, the ego tried every trick to limit me by trying to convince that I'm going mad and that the experience is negative. Although, the process was more gentle. It feels like dying because your worldview is literally collapsing. I am like a child who sees reality without taking responsibility for the totality of it, to become it; asleep and enjoying its drama, not noticing the mystical aspect and not wanting to be aware of it, because it is so direct with nothing that I can ground myself on. In such a state, when I direct my attention to a thing, it becomes a symbol of awareness, as if reality is a self-reflective mechanism trying to bring more awareness to itself.

#13 I tried to smoke today, however, I was starting to get panicked by the intensity. It was going towards the same insanity, i.e., losing all of my sense of humanity, like my last profound trips, with a very tiny dose in a short amount of time. Luckily, it didn't last long. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I must get mentally prepared and not smoke it casually, especially when I'm not in a good mood. When I start to lose my humanity, it feels like I might actually go insane this time and cause psychological harm to myself. It wasn't like this few month ago. I could smoke a high dose before. I guess, it has become deep.

Phonetics is based on speech. Can you speak Russian without hearing how Russians speak? Firstly, you have to expose yourself to Russian speech. I think you don't need phonetics if you aren't going to speak or listen to people speaking. However, I hear my voice or talk to myself when I think, so I don't want to think in English in my head based on other speech.

I think English phonetics are more useful to non-natives who want to learn English when they aren't surrounded with natives 24/7. Me too.

I think that as long as your belief system is dependent on Jesus or places huge importance on him then you are a Christian.

You spoke from my heart.

"John Lennox On God: How science buried God?" was interesting interview. He can't see the irony or the meta-dogmatism that he's engaging in, i.e., atheists and Christians are both believing, and it's merely about whose beliefs are true. He still clings to his Christian beliefs, but he seemed to me to be more open-minded than most Christians.

@ExploringReality, it didn't even cross my mind to do that. My trip was clear-headed but very energetic, i.e., my body's sensations were crazy, which nailed me to the bed. I don't understand how people could intentionally move in such states, especially symmetrically. But I can't. Maybe unintentionally, you may move while having some energetic release, I don't know. But I doubt it would be symmetrical.

I noticed that change before Leo started to post again. But the website overall isn't mobile-friendly, so I didn't bother to say it.

#12 Everything is looking at you, like human eyes. We think that only human eyes look or stare at us, but that's just an assumption based on practicality. However, I'm not equating the mechanism of human eyes with anything. When an alien comes to you, you'll assume its eyes are looking at you based on how it's responding to your movement, without basing it on how its eyes work. When you no longer identify only with the human body, since it is qualitatively the same as anything that appears, everything looks at you. Also, the unwavering aloneness and presence are quite astounding. I dosed less than before, like about or less than 5 mg, and it's very noticeable.

@Lyubov, your post fell on deaf ears. They didn't understand that you are talking about the attachment of hierarchies, which makes one close-minded.

John Vervaeke's "Awakening from the meaning crisis" is very admirable and illuminating. I wish I had a professor like that. They were either ideological or surface-level careerists.