Nemra

I don't know, man. Just don't know. The way you have been talking about God seemed to me that to experience God, I had to reach God through contemplation, even when taking psychedelics. But it's like turning the lights on via the light switch. I'm not against contemplation, though. It's most likely I interpreted it wrong.

@Leo Gura, the truth is that I just stumbled into it. It wasn't intentional. Though in that state, I wanted to know what was reality. The imposter syndrome in me wants to doubt it.

@Leo Gura, thanks. After three days, I won't be able to take any of the psychedelics that I tried. I don't know if I can handle the rest of the psychedelics that I haven't tried before going home. Do you think experiencing God could be achieved by adjusting the dose? It seems to me that that is true.

I only understand that it wants to. But I don't know why it's creating the way it does. It's so specific.

Why would God be anxious to itself? I think anxiety comes from defending ideas instead of experiencing God. But still, you will get anxious if you are a beginner like me. Waking up felt so beyond from my normal life that I thought I had gone crazy. My life and the experience of God seemed separated in the beginning. However, I understood that God wouldn't create the human life if it didn't want to. It loves being human so deeply.

I tried 30 mg of N,N-DPT today; however, the effects were mild. Minor visual effects: When I moved my eyes, I was noticing yellow/blue outlines around objects. There were some mild visual patterns. I was more alert.

That makes sense. This whole thing was unexpected. I just wanted to trip a little with cannabis. I ate them a few days ago and it didn't show me this kind of stuff; although, I ate the second half maybe an hour after the first. I thought after the peak of N,N-DPT, I would just have an interesting trip. In the beginning, I was extremely anxious, but eventually I started accepting the truth. It was even laughable when I started noticing that I was deceiving myself into reacting negatively.

My heartbeat sounded like galloping hooves. Eventually, I accepted that if I died from a heart attack or something, it didn't matter. Nothing mattered because everything is loved. People think they can taste what awakening is while staying human. Good luck with that. I could literally feel what it's like to awaken and also go back to being human.

Gosh, 150 mg is more intense, but not as intense as 70 mg rectally. It has affected the visual, auditory, and tactile sensations. The visual field is multi-dimensional. It's absurd to even write it here. Who am I writing to? It's funny.

YES! These 2 days, I was feeling like tripping after the peak.

@Girzo, will it have a cumulative effect if I orally dose another 100 mg after like an hour?

I took 100 mg orally. It feels like a 60-70 mg rectal dosage. I'm surprised. Though, I could have been affected from the last trip, so that maybe it feels like it's more.

@Girzo, do you know?

How can I convert the dosage between rectal and oral administration for N,N-DPT?

My mind is still very open since yesterday when I started tripping. It's like if I focus on reality, I have to be careful not to go insane. I notice that there are subtle changes in how I perceive anything. It's like everything is inverted. I have a hard time fooling myself into thinking that reality exists outside, like I used to. The nature of everything is like transparent.

I don't feel like the trip has ended. Lol. There are mild visual patterns.

Amazing.

The trip made me aware that my life is like an extremely filtered-down psychedelic trip. Life feels like an escape from taking up full responsibility of your mind.

I forgot about that. I already feel sick just by imagining drinking alcoholic beverages while tripping.

@OBEler, experiencing eyes open is great. However, 5-MeO-DMT greatly affected how I felt. And there isn't an "eyelid" to stop feeling it.

5-MeO-DMT had transparent visual patterns, however, they weren't dynamic like the visuals of N,N-DMT and N,N-DPT.

Three hours in, and I'm still tripping. It suddenly reactivates when I think it's probably ended, though it's not that intense right now.

I don't close my eyes.

Yeah, that's too much for now. I don't know what will happen if I add 2 or 3 mg more.

70 mg is mind-blowing! Amazing! I'm melting on different levels. I cannot describe it. The visual geometry is insane.