Nemra

I have heard people remembering their alien encounters, which definitely fueled my belief. The alien spacecraft incident in Brazil and the testimonies of some of the military were shocking. They just couldn't make that up. There isn't a religion about aliens, and even normal or religious people have seen them, so it couldn't just be brainwashing. The whole thing shocked me. It deconstructed my assumptions so much that I constructed a narrative upon it.

A few weeks ago, when I was dreaming at night, I saw an alien protecting me from another aliens. In the dream, I was sensing and seeing signs of an alien coming to me and then I found its spacecraft. It revealed itself and tried to warn me that other aliens are after me. But I didn't know why. Then I heard that someone is knocking at the door. I opened it and there were more than two aliens coming after me with guns. But the alien that was protecting me shot them, and we ran away. It was so real that I woke up thinking that an alien might be somehow manipulating my dream from afar. I was so frightened that I could hardly get out of bed, not wanting to find out whether or not an alien is in my house or outside. But eventually I did get up and I didn't find any alien. The weird thing was that I was having a mild psychedelic trip after a while. Maybe the panicking caused it, I don't know. To be honest, I started to dig about aliens a few weeks before the dream, listening and watching documentaries about them. Eventually, I started thinking that at any time they could visit me for any reason if they wanted to. I don't know why, but I thought that if they wanted to reveal themselves fully, then they had to visit me, because there's no other experience than mine. It was a hell of a night. What a belief can do!

Thanks for understanding. There is only my experience and for you your experience. You can understand that in your normal state. In my normal state, I'm somewhat lost in the human drama, so it affects me. Everyone is affected by something, no matter what. Perhaps, I can work on myself to not get effected by it. However, beyond the human state, those human dramas literally become meaningless.

@Ishanga, you are being so childish. Read my above explanations to you. That is wrong. That is right. But in your case, your's is only there. I tried to share a funny horror story, and you ruined it.

If you have the capability to read, I stated that I constructed a narrative for why they must have come to visit me. So, I was wrong. It wasn't emotionally easy to prove otherwise at that time. You don't understand how badly I wanted to prove myself wrong. My heart was pounding. However, if an alien is going to visit, only your experience with it will be profound. There's no such thing as "others' experience" in your experience. Actually, that doesn't make me feel good, because my ego wants others, even if I like being alone.

Maybe. But whatever it was, in retrospect, I find it funny because I really believed in it. I constructed a narrative in my mind and believed it to the core, like a Christian being afraid of the devil coming after him/her.

Your ego is too thick to understand what I tried to say. Lol.

Well, it's hard. I have suffered through painful injuries and a neurological disorder. I have some experience of going through difficult times. I just try to remain calm as much as I can while observing what's going on. When the trip starts, I start sensing that I can't run away from it, because it's total.

In this thread, I will share my DMT experience. The time has come!

@Leo Gura, have you seen song covers by AI?

It's not beneficial to them. It's relative. I have a hard time convincing myself with their way of living as I was raised in it. Once you get out of their circle, you start to see the nonsense if you want to. It's not only about nonsense, but also about their conformist mindset. If you aren't self-reflective, then everything you were taught is assumed as truth, doesn't it?

@Thought Art, because any construction can be deconstructed. If it assumes that it can't be deconstructed, then it's not self-reflective in the first place. How can you know if it's honest to itself if it doesn't let people deconstruct it, helping people see what lies beyond construction?

Christianity is problematic because it doesn't deconstruct itself nor does it have powerful tools to do that (prayer isn't really a tool). No Christian will dare to deconstruct because they have an emotional connection with the stories and such. It's too precious for them. Christians assume that people just know God without changing their state. Christians can talk about God confusing it with their beliefs, and they have a naive attitude towards believing.

I appreciate that.

Yeah. I will try to do that.

I don't know why I am posting each and every trip anymore. It seems like it's not of any use.

@Cubbage, cool!

What movie have you recently watched, or are you now watching? I have yet to finish watching the movie "The Irishmen".

#14 Reality is incredibly direct! When I was having an ego dissolution today, the ego tried every trick to limit me by trying to convince that I'm going mad and that the experience is negative. Although, the process was more gentle. It feels like dying because your worldview is literally collapsing. I am like a child who sees reality without taking responsibility for the totality of it, to become it; asleep and enjoying its drama, not noticing the mystical aspect and not wanting to be aware of it, because it is so direct with nothing that I can ground myself on. In such a state, when I direct my attention to a thing, it becomes a symbol of awareness, as if reality is a self-reflective mechanism trying to bring more awareness to itself.

#13 I tried to smoke today, however, I was starting to get panicked by the intensity. It was going towards the same insanity, i.e., losing all of my sense of humanity, like my last profound trips, with a very tiny dose in a short amount of time. Luckily, it didn't last long. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I must get mentally prepared and not smoke it casually, especially when I'm not in a good mood. When I start to lose my humanity, it feels like I might actually go insane this time and cause psychological harm to myself. It wasn't like this few month ago. I could smoke a high dose before. I guess, it has become deep.

Phonetics is based on speech. Can you speak Russian without hearing how Russians speak? Firstly, you have to expose yourself to Russian speech. I think you don't need phonetics if you aren't going to speak or listen to people speaking. However, I hear my voice or talk to myself when I think, so I don't want to think in English in my head based on other speech.

I think English phonetics are more useful to non-natives who want to learn English when they aren't surrounded with natives 24/7. Me too.

I think that as long as your belief system is dependent on Jesus or places huge importance on him then you are a Christian.

You spoke from my heart.

"John Lennox On God: How science buried God?" was interesting interview. He can't see the irony or the meta-dogmatism that he's engaging in, i.e., atheists and Christians are both believing, and it's merely about whose beliefs are true. He still clings to his Christian beliefs, but he seemed to me to be more open-minded than most Christians.