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@Javfly33 What about a DMT comedown? Is it rough? How does it feel? Also, if I start with a super low dose, can I increase the dose the same day again?

"Others" are absolute truth. So they don't distract you at all. Given your can deconstruct others as what they really are: just consciousness. OR you just take enough psychedelics, so "otherness" deconstructs itself into: just consciousness. You are your best facilitator. If you need a "other" facilitator don't take much psychedelics. I've had trips where friends helped me to stay positive, whereas other trips when they just annoyed me. Both scenarios are not likely anymore, because I've learned to trip myself. If others are with me fine. If not, fine.

This is the classical pre/post conventional conflation. South American tribes are pre-conventional, whereas Leo for example is post-conventional. I want to live with post-conventional people.

Sorry for my egoic outburst.

Have you ever had an awakening? And if you had, did kindness and "people pleasing" - energy guided you there? My experience was, that the straight forward "no bullshit" vibe could destruct my delusions way better than any other method could. I think it's super subjective, but don't conflate egoic arrogance with a precise, no-bullshit, "deconstruction" tone.

My comment will probably only enforce your latter opinion on Leo, but speaking about absolute Truth-stuff is not easy. Imagine yourself awaken and noticing, that every "opinion" someone had about what awakening is, was completely carbage. See yourself noticing all the heavy bullshit your ego told you, what is right and wrong in this world, was nothing but a hot toxic cloud. You are shocked to the bone and disgusted by your capacity to lie to yourself. How do you communicate this radical shift in consciousness to others? If you are just nice people will never be ready for the radicalness of Truth. Albert Einstein could have also said: "Hey guys I know it will destroy your Newtonian non-relativistic worldview, but actually space and time might be correlated and relative. And maybe, just maybe energy and matter is correlated as well. But I can be wrong. Sorry for this inconvenience. Bye bye." I think you get my point. Radical Truth cannot pierce egoic deception if it's communicated in some "nice" way.

The main reason I can't trip that so often is because my only psychedelic so far has been LSD, which is super draining on my energy and does give me intense ego backlashes in the following days of a "high dosage" trip. So I expect similar effects from an even stronger psychedelic like 5-meo. Although, this might has something to do with the duration of a LSD trip (for me up to 16h). Let me hear your opinion on this comparison.

How about ego backlash? What does your selfishness has to say about infinite selflessness?

There is certainly a form of marketing that is necessary for personal growth. I would never have started my journey of actualization without fancy thumbnails, speeches, insta posts and stories from friends. all of this is marketing. The best marketing is marketing, that is not so concerned about it's survival. Rare to find.

Sometimes I notice how the other is noticing my inauthentic or robotic behavior and speech. I even feel sorry for him/her, when the other is genuine to me, and doesn't get the same authenticity back. I know what causes this in me and also know how to dissolve this, but in the moment of inauthentic behavior, I don't see any way to do better. I can be neutral and present, by mere observation. But I don't want to just observe my entire life. I want to make others happy, I want to share insights with them, and want to make them feel good in my proximity. All this seems impossible, when I'm in this state of "unsureness" or robotic like state. I could communicate what I'm communicating here to the other, but that would sound also robotic and somehow not authentic. Edit: I think I know what to do. I just had to think through this via this post.

Yeah it seems like there is a mechanism in dissociatives, which prevents your ego mind to mentally abstract what this is (reality). Which is why you cannot be conscious of something for long, without interpreting or ignoring it. Its still a mystery for me how 1 (LSD) + 1 (nitrous) = 100000000. This potentiating effect is just unbelievable.

So after giving this advice in another thread here, i wanted to bring this to a main post. For me to combination of LSD-25, 1P-LSD and 1CP-LSD (150-350 mcg) with the inhalation of nitrous oxide was the always the straightest way to God realization and infinite love. It will just take some seconds, but this experience will change you for ever. This experience is so intense and profound, that even at the start of "it happening" i have always sworn myself to invest my entire life to find out what this "it happening" is. Even at low dose trips, your soul just melts from love when you experience this level of consciousness. And only after taking much higher doses of psychedelics I found out it was God in me, which came into my direct consciousness during these nitrous inhalations. So no wonder why this feeling of wanting to "find it out" was so strong. Its a finite part of God (me, you, us) wanting to find its infinite nature. So for everyone, who isn't sure about taking higher doses of LSD or mushrooms, try this combination out. You can't really mess it up, because your need to breath again will save you from overdoing it. It also takes just about 30 seconds. The whole experience. It will completely destroy your ego. It will completely destroy your "materialistic world". It will completely destroy everything you thought was true. I'm also curios what other say to this, who have tried it. Please share here. EDIT: As @The0Self explained below, it's highly important that you won't do nitrous on a regular basis. My advice was aiming to do it at most once per trip - and never more than once a month, since nitrous can screw with your neurology. After all it's a powerful anesthesia.

100-200ug can be enough. However, if you increase the lsd dosages (In combo with nitrous), your experience of Infinite will be longer, more intensive, clearer and reality destructive. I have had this combo with 600-800ug and finally realized the complete structure to reality. This will completely change the way you look at reality forever. Im super grateful to have found this combo.

Thank God! This is exactly what almost everybody needs to hear in political and socio-economical discussions. Please make a video about why people are pessimistic about the future and why there are infinite reasons that reality is ultimately steering towards infinite good. But lemme guess: you don't even want to make content about it, because pessimistic people don't even want to watch a video that threatens their stable, "coherent" worldview. Either way, I cannot wait for reality to dissolve the pathological dooms day mind of "political concerned" people.

In this video you can see swinging pendulum-orbs synchronizing and randomizing again. Although sometimes you can see the order in the chaos, until you can't see it, and so on. The metaphor is, that consciousness works similar to these orbs. Perfect union fractalizes into so many parts, that you can't see the infinite beauty and order in this moment right here. Although, its there, right in front of you. Your consciousness will rise again and realize that it was right here all the time. Part of infinite perfection. But keep in mind, that actual Oneness and God realization is far, far, far crazier than any visual approach I could give you here.

According to Andrew D. Huberman:

I'm into Andrew Hubermans podcasts lately, but this one especially struck my nerve on fitness in relation to non-dual wellbeing. The guest Ido even talks about infinity, and how infinity lives in us as constant change and movement. https://open.spotify.com/episode/0kdURtng94cmE1cm48otKW?si=fctj2g2nTKWU0wW6Ex2LNQ&utm_source=copy-link

Treat self-esteem like a plant, which has to be watered everyday with uncomfortable situations and challenges. Don't be nihilistic about the fact, that the plant needs water everyday, and that you will never watered it enough for ever. It will grow, just as much as you water it. And growth will never be "done". Also what counts as "uncomfortable and challenging" is what you perceive as such. Don't fool yourself, with some challenges "others" might find hard. Do your personal painful stuff, whatever that is.

It's meaningful to measure the greatness of a book or a teacher by the amount of practical "real life" changes that happened in the direct aftermath of the learning. So, I want to know from you, what teacher or work has influenced you the most in this practical sense. For example Leo's videos about spiral dynamics have massively influenced how I perceive people and myself. So even if the book is boring or trivial, share it anyways, if it could change your life on a daily basis. Thank you

Where did you get that perspective? Suffering is only the consequence of you being attached to your specific form of living. And living itself. No life form could maintain itself, without fear and suffering. So its foolish to wish suffering away. You will drop dead without suffering. There would be absolutely no point in development, if you did not suffer.

Suffering is absolutely necessary for growth, wisdom and authenticity. Without suffering you would have stayed a slobbering toddler.

This thread could easily be placed in Personal Development or in the Spirituality section, so someone might move it, if a discussion becomes too meta-physical. So what I noticed in my last awakening was, that consciousness does not need food to survive. Food is completely imaginary. Its completely irrelevant what you put in your mouth for your consciousness to be. Consciousness could just as easily construct a reality, where food is not needed. Plants for example do not choose, what to eat, they just absord light energy. So they are not pressured with the responsebility of eating the right or wrong stuff. However, as you noticed food is a pretty big deal in ones life. The impact of food onto your health, mood, energy, sleep, strength and even social interations and business is tremendous. TREMENDOUS. And not only what you eat. Its also HOW you eat, and how long you do NOT eat. Also, what you do while eating, and with whom you eat. And also what body type and blood type you have. So many more variables and aspects, I can't list them all. But, essentially the role of food is, to test you, how loving you already are to yourself. If you are not loving reality, you just eat to not be hungry. But if you already care about yourself/reality, than food is this major opportunity, to integrate the aspects of the "outer world" with your "inner system". This love than snowballs into health and energy. Not loving food and your "inner system" snowballs into depression and anger. And ultimately both sets of states lead you to more consciousness and love.

Not appreciating other forms of development or even no development. Resentment towards non-spiritual people is non-spiritual.

Notes before reading: Just skip to Trip report, if you are already experienced with tripping together. I never bothered to write here about awakenings, mainly because Leo does this job quite well, and just talking about it really contradicts my goal of becoming more conscious. Talking and writing is contrary to being conscious. Especially in regards to non-dual topics, because you can get this false sense of spiritual improvement with knowing and talking about it. Also no amount of trip reports and ever describe what the essence of a trip really was. But since I have not seen many trip reports about simultaneous awakenings with a partner or a friend, I thought someone would be interested in reading about that. In this report I want to focus on the quality of being together in a trip, not how tripping itself feels or what awakening is. First of, I’m super unsensitive to psychedelics, so I and my friend Jordan both took 700 micrograms of 1V-LSD, which directly metabolizes into LSD (without weakening or adding the usual LSD effect), once it’s in your body. Its completely the same. !! Please find your personal dose and don’t mess around with other people. There are not your toys to fulfill some fantasie while tripping. We planned this long ahead and have both had awakenings by our own, which is super important for tripping together. !! You should not be bothering about the well being of others, while you still have to deconstruct reality by your own. Clarify this with your partner beforehand. Dont expect anything from each other. Talk about about the probability, that you both will want to be alone during the trip. Trip report: We were at my home and had wonderful weather and mood conditions. Nothing unordinary to say about that. 20 minutes after taking the substance, I withdrew myself from our living room to focus on my body, which felt quite nauseous. It was also important to not speak or communicate with each other during this fragile comeup of a trip, because intellectual activity has a deadening and corrupting effect on consciousness. I dived into “deconstruction mode” and saw bit by bit how direct experience was made up by God-mind, right in front of me, including my friend Jordan. God consciousness was happening. The beauty and infinite intelligence of consciousness was graspable in any form. So I treated Jordan the same as every other figment of consciousness, with love and presence. No talking or human bullshitting. Jordan seemed happy and in Love as well. It looked like, he as a part of my consciousness directly adapted my state. If I felt love, he felt it. If I was confused, he was confused. We really were just the same being. We also played like children again. Which we, stripped away of our egos, are. Just children playing. Holding and touching another human body can be such an intelligent way of communicating. Words cannot hold up to this "super-communication" during a trip. It was crazy how good we understood what the other felt, with direct body contact. Then something happened, which completely took me of guard. I saw myself in him! I saw every part of me in him. I saw the connection between infinity and love in his face. His face has parts, which my ego would call “beautiful” and “not beautiful”. But in God-consciousness, these duality collapse and form SUPER-BEAUTIFUL. UNIVERSAL-ALL-INCOMPASSING-BEAUTIFULLNESS. The sudden burst of infinite love was not bearable. I had to stop looking in his face, because this love felt like I would lose my body and “myself-ness”. Defintely something I want to try and bear for longer. Also, in this moment I decided to have a “together-trip” with a female, just to see what levels of love and beauty might rise from opposite sex trip experiences. Important note at last: Please don’t share your experience with words and mental abstractions to the other. Let the other be! If he/she wants to talk, just be present, and invite him/her to be present with you. Don’t talk with words. Hold him/her as a sign of peace and good-will. If he/she has a hard time with the trip, words will not help. Peacefulness and presence will. Talking and thinking will stop God-consciousness as the trip goes on. And usually you wont come back to it, when your ego has established itself again. That’s it, thanks for reading ?

I never saw him so joyful and happy, as he was during his awakening. But, to be honest, he has far less experience with god conscious states. So it was really difficult for him to integrate the trip, as his ego mind came back on board. This was suuuper interesting for me to witness. I could relate so much with his struggle to regain his sense making abilities. His thinking corrupted his state so much, that he seemed depressed as ordinary consciousness came back. He clinged to the freedom of no ego, while clinging to thinking about how this all works. Which is a battle you can't win. It was probably his realisation how little he cared about the beauty of god and reality, and how his life decisions were not aligned with love and consciousness in many points. This was shocking for him. His ego had to run many extra miles that day. I would be interested in his POV now. But you know how hard it is to talk to an ego about the problem with the ego. But in general he is on a good path. Probably the only one of my friends, who could handle such a trip at all.