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During the last days I got little glimpses into ego deconstruction aka unconditional love and acceptance with the help of body awareness. Mostly during day to day activities. I felt myself the most when I walked down the street or when I felt any kind of uneasiness, which suggested "feel into your body" rather than thinking more into the uneasiness. I trained to „be“ in my body, and to be as silent as possible, that I wouldn’t miss anything in my body. My focus was mainly in my hands and feet, which can easily be felt in most situations. More nuanced sensations like feelings in my neck, legs or bottom could be felt when I sat down or laid in bed for example. This practice in combination with not thinking about it as practice really got me into peacefulness and satisfaction without an object, which has to satisfy me. I was just happy for no reason at all. I want to point a little more awareness to the fact, that thinking about this as „practice“ hinders you from being peaceful and happy for its own sake. Because thinking about anything moves you away from your body and this present moment. Which is, regardless of the content of your thought, always a process of more uneasiness and feeling that this moment is somehow „not complete“ or „not enough“. So forget about all the theory like speeches from Eckhart Tolle, books, this post and everything you might „know“ about unconditional happiness. All this is, as a thought form, which it always is, a 180 degree turn away from unconditional happiness. Just let sensations be. As silent as possible. Not to miss anything in your body. Notice this. Whatever is.

Hey guys, I'm currently traveling a lot so I'm looking for part time remote jobs, which can be done from anywhere worldwide. English or german preferably. Please share some suggestions or experiences, if you can. Appreciate it a lot!

Depends on the girl. I once had a girl who couldn't stop herself laughing for that question. Reading body language is way more telling than verbal communication.

wow, she does have a unique voice then The major task would be to create somehow an art medium, which displays the "collapse of form" while also collapsing itself. As if you would crush a canvas, which displays the crushing of a canvas In that sense the art could never be stable, it has to move in some form - always collapsing. Thanks for the nudge, I definitely will think about it

Looks great! Especially the first stages are quite representative. What he does not describe is the "visually ordinary state" in which reality collapses into nothingness. It's super hard to make a picture from this, but he could've mentioned it as the last state.

As quantum physics, non-dual teachings and, of course, you in your awakened state have figured out: reality is one thing connected to the center of your direct experience. Everything, even the slightest arbitrary bit of consciousness. And as I'm figuring this out bit by bit I feel helpless. What kills me the most is to see others "bad attitude" as a reflection of my lack of love and selflessness. On the other hand, others seem to be in paradise when I'm loving and selfless. But it always starts with my state. This gets so radical sometimes, that it's laughable. I hate to say it but: How can this feel fair? How am I supposed to bear the burden of being responsible for every consciousness in this entire planet. Most people seem bitter and depressed. (Because I am - of course). I don't have so much love for this massive pile of depression everywhere I look. I don't know how to tackle this. Especially if this direct consciousness gets even less ignorant. What way is there to gain so much love for this loveless life around me?

Sorry, I really thought Actualization was all about that. I'm really confused right now. I thought having a net positive impact onto reality is all God cares about and so should I. Now, I have no clue what reality is. Again. I was at this point so many times. I never really got it in my ordinary states.

@Judy2 This can get soooo radical haha To a point where even a reply in this forum is only so informative or valuable in direct relation to my inner state. @lxlichael @Judy2 appreciate your empathy

@Leo Gura By the way, could you love the insanity? Could you love this part of consciousness as you would love logical consciousness? Would be interesting to know. And did this love turn the insanity upside down to sanity?

@Leo Gura isn't insanity just the absence of all logic and stability? When I'm sane I experience reality to have a logical structure. The structure can be twisted and paradoxical, but you can intuit a meaning in all that. I would assume insanity is just the infinite opposite to that.

Wow. I experienced something quite similar on the street. I was also naked. But in the awakening nothing bothers you even the slightest about how it would look like to others. But careful with psychedelics nonetheless. Awakening states are not easily integrated into everyday normal NPC life

I guess this is your spirit searching for balance in between all the knowing and wisdom.

@Asayake Cool If you have similar "vibey" music, feel free to share it here. I'm always on the hunt for undiscovered gems like this one.

@amanen wow impressive you are some awake boi

When ever I picture this trick in my mind, my ability to lift more weight with better form increases significantly. Especially when I don't want to go into a heavy set. Just picture yourself doing only two reps. That's it. And when you finished the two, you picture yourself doing two more reps. Two reps are not scary for the mind and it easy for you to focus on the exercise itself. In that way your entire workout feels easier and more enjoyable.

Believing in scales for consciousness is some interesting state of consciousness hehe

@Leo Gura I have played the first three acts now, and I love the idea, that you explore a giant organism, like a single cell of yours exploring the entire body.

I know this might sound controversial and has already been discussed to some degree. But still. Nitrous oxide works 100% for awakening and enlightenment! In my experience you can see and achieve states of consciousness similar to 800ug of LSD. It lasts super short but you have all the ingredients for awakening: ultimate and absolute CONSCIOUSNESS. There are some medical concern to it. Don't do it more like once a months, to be on the save side. Likewise to any other "absolute consciousness inducing psychedelic" is not possible for me to describe the experience to you, so you gotta try it out for yourself. One thing at the end: My first experiences with it some years ago were orderinary and could not compare to psychedelic states. However as my consciousness became more awake this substance hits me like nothing else. But careful and SEE ;))

@The0Self Thanks for your clarification. I wasn't aware how serious this issue is, when I originally posted. I think I won't promote the use of nitrous oxide again so easily. Again, thank you.

Yeah, your baseline consciousness has to be already quite high for it to work without any psychedelics. When I had my first experiences with nitrous some years ago, there was nothing special about it. But after having tripped a few dozen times, it takes me to infinity every time.

Its definitely short lived, but the quality and insight into the nature of infinite is completely there. Devine bliss afterwards. Interesting. I notice a similar quality to nitrous oxide when I hit a super cold shower. No breakthrough, but the quality is similar.

Super short - about 40 seconds.

It comes it legally optainable capsules. One is enough. You need a "capsule crusher" to inflate a balloon with the gas. Then, breath in and out the balloon as long as you can. You will awakening before you run out of air - only to find out that air and breath is imaginary ;)) It's completely irrelevant what you do beforehand. Although meditation is always nice to calm yourself. It's super super super potent with LSD. You will have the cleanest most absolute awakenings with LSD and nitrous oxide.

It's funny because I actually have pissed around my bed room laughing in ecstasy of realizing the point of the universe. Love. But realizing Love in absolute states of consciousness doesn't make it obvious here and now. Spiritual teachings are another trap, where you believe you can feel and think love everywhere. Bullshit.