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@snowyowl The thing is that those who say things like "happiness comes from within" and "you don't need anyone if you just love yourself" aren't as lonely as I am. So they are just talking shit, imo. It's extra ridiculous when Leo says it. Because he's a freaking celebrity, with hundreds of thousands of worshippers and a million women who want to marry him etc. etc. Some music can make me cry a bit. And women can make me cry a lot, but that's only during online chatting, and it was a long time ago when it happened last time, because I haven't chatted seriously with anyone in a long time. I don't meet people so I don't know if I could cry infront of people.

@Alysssa Because it's true that I will be alone, because I'm worthless. I would have to somehow lie to myself that I wont be alone. I don't think I can do that. Yes.

I care about your problems, but unfortunately I probably can't help you because I lack the required skills. I don't know about that. We'll never find out whether your hypothesis is true or not since I will be alone as long as I live, and then I might also be alone after death. But I've heard that everyone gets a spirit guide helper when one dies, but it's just a temporary helper who helps during the death process. Yes you're probably right about the thing about selfishness.

@Preety_India I'm sorry to hear about your problem. You're not unworthy. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@Matthi I'm sorry to hear about your problem. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@PepperBlossoms I'm sorry to hear about your problem. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@Travisty I'm sorry to hear about your problem. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@4201 I understand.

People only like the fancy stuff. The Consciousness/Nothingness gets ignored. They go for nice experiences..

Well.. yeah. But.. let's calm down.

@DIDego I'm from Sweden too if you didn't know.

I forced myself to watch 36 minutes of it. I think it's probably just wishful thinking feel good stuff. But thanks anyway.

I see.

The torture thing was a example or analogy. Sometimes it's not possible to make changes or end suffering by accepting the situation. For example if you are getting tortured. Or in my case: my situation. And stop hating me so much.

Elaborate?

No I'm not torturing myself, stop putting the blame on me. I know therapy don't help me.

Nope. What Eckhart Tolle says isn't automatically true. Try to end suffering by accepting being tortured, not gonna work, no matter how fancy "suffering stops when you accept the situation" sounds. In reality it doesn't work. And btw, there's also a 2nd choice left: leave the situation (suicide). Which I nowdays think about quite a lot. But I don't want to kill myself because it would cause immense suffering to my parents.

I have tried to help myself etc.

Rupert Spira's answer from 5:10:

Is it wrong to want impossible things? There's many impossible things that I want, for example win 5 million $ on lottery, walk on mars, and get a gf.

None of them. A shortened version of #1: "There are no changes you can make to improve your situation." In the same way like there's no change you can do to become 50 ft tall.

Albert Einstein never said that. It's not that I'm not responding well to advice, it's that no advice can help me. Advice aren't miraculous things you know. For example advice can't make you 50 feet tall. I'm not expecting different results. I expect everything to be exactly the same until my death. So I'm not insane. And what change could I even do?

@snowyowl Yes I'm sad because I'm completely alone 24/7. No there's no intellectual type pursuit which could give me a platform to meet people. I don't know what more to say.

That's correct. Even if I would want a friend, it's not possible because no one likes me. Why would I want a friend? There's nothing that I would like to do with a friend. Maybe get drunk would be fun. Or maybe trip balls on psychedelics or other drugs. But other than that I don't know.

I think I don't want friends. Just a girl to love, or maybe friend with benefits. How could I spontaneously not be alone? It's not that easy. Whatever.. I'm really sad. I'm a defeated dead soul who don't want to exist anymore.