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@Hello world So have you even tried professional help? The society really doesn't want you to committ suicide. You can try to take advantage of that. Interesting things happen as soon as you tell them that you're suicidal. If you just call 911 they'll break your door and take you to hospital. For example they gave me a woman who I could meet once a week. I could choose that they would give me a woman who I would meet once a week. She was working voluntarily. Of course it wasn't sexual and it didn't lead to anything with her but still, I could be social and do things with a woman. Normal stuff like go out on walks, cinema, go to coffeehouse, hang out at my place, etc.

I'm venting because I'm completely alone. Yawn.

No idea from where you got the idea that maybe it doesn't hurt to die. I'm sure you can find videos for example here https://theync.com/ where they scream out their pain the moment before they die.

Mic drop.

You don't know about his life situation, emotional state, etc. Mind your own business, not every life is the same.

But yes girls are brutal. Beyond brutal. They have made me cry more than anything else in life. I've done that clubbing alone thing a billion times with zero success. But you might have better luck.

Whatever happens, it will be just another passing experience on the screen of consciousness.

Genetics+childhood. Maybe better luck in next life.

? Good one.

But don't you think the principle is same? Forcing yourself to do something difficult and/or dangerous, and then being happy that you managed to do it?

You know what.. When I finally force myself to become drunk, and when I'm finally drunk, then I'm happy that I forced myself to become drunk. Because being drunk is awesome. Maybe it's like that with psychedelics. I still have many years left to force myself to take psychedelics again.

Depending on how you die, yes it can hurt. I don't think you can choose who you get reborn as.

Thanks, gonna watch it, now I will get all the girls. Btw, I don't understand why your problem is a problem, you basically got what you wished for.

The only possible explanation for how I can still be alive is that I actually did committ suicide, but after I did it I simply got teleported into a different universe inside the multiverse where I didn't committ suicide. It's called quantum immortality.

This is accurate for me:

Every day, especially every weekend I get a strong feeling that this shit must stop, that it can't go on anymore, not a single day more. But it does, it keeps on going, day after day, on and on it goes. People say that time goes faster as they get older, for me it goes slower. Every day of being alive is one day too much.

There's no words to describe how much I have had enough of my life. It's remarkable that the marvelous universe managed to create something so ugly and shitty. It's like the world's best piano player would just randomly smash the piano keys with his/her fists. I'm like.. "no, why are you doing that?"

Food for thought: why do you people accept Love experiences as the Truth, but dismiss non-Love experiences as untruth. Could it be because of wishful thinking ? I'm not sure about the answer..

@justfortoday Just empty words which are unconfirmable to me. So not worth anything. I'm not saying that what you say isn't true. I'm just saying that I don't know if it's true.

@Leo Gura You're on fire lately. Straight to the point. I like it.

Reality/life is nothing but a huge huge disappointment. Everything, everything in this existence is deeply disappointing and unsatisfactory. There's nothing here that is truly amazing, nothing that makes me say: "this is worth living for, this makes all the other suffering worth it." One of the biggest disappointments, if not the biggest, is other people. I have more and more realized that everyone are selfish motherfuckers. They only care about themselves. They wont hesitate to hurt you if they don't get what they want from you. They don't care about you, they only care about themselves. Being alone hurts, and other people hurt you too. Everything in this existence hurts. It's all hopeless. My life is the biggest joke ever. I strongly suspect that people make themselves believe in nonduality stuff (that you are God, that everything is Love, etc.) simply because they can't accept how much reality/life sucks. Those beliefs makes everything seem so much nicer and it makes them more happy. Yet I can't stop myself from reading about nonduality stuff, but it's a complete waste of time, but what else could I do on my spare time? Everyone say all kind of radical things but for me all those things are unverifiable, so their words are worth basically nothing.

Paths are dream-content..

@Hello world I'm sorry about your (and mine, I'm a incel too) pain. Life/reality is ruthlessly brutal.

Or if that doesn't work, here's solution #2: Recognize that you're the most intelligent animal known in all of existence. Think about how low the odds are for that.

The solution: stop giving a fuck.