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Nonsense. You even have a freaking family. You are just mentally masturbating. Spoiled with being loved by many bodies. Your love isn't worth anything until you actually fucking talk with me in private. These public forum replies aren't worth a rat's ass. Oh now when you have to talk to me in private it's suddenly not possible to write to me at all? Haha, so much for "I love you". Very genuine love you got going on there.. not.

No, no one loves me. No I don't feel it. Easy for you to say who are loved by a million people. So I guess stay in your nice bubble. Good for you.

Hahahah another girl who crushed my heart in SL (Second Life). Fuck all you females. Just.. fuck you. I'm completely fucking dead. Maybe I should put that snare around my neck now. Go laughing into death.

There is no solution to my hopeless problem. The only solution would be suicide, but it's not yet time for that, I don't want to hurt my parents, and I'm also still too chicken to kill myself. I don't want friends, and I hate my family. I don't think anyone would like my parents. My mom is completely crazy with her conspiracy theories etc. which she is constantly trying to convince me of.

@Ananta Forget it. Get rid of your whole family and all friends, and no more sexual or romantic contact ever again. Then let's see how happy you would be and how easily you could get rid of the desire. I give it 6 months, and then you would kill yourself.

@Ananta Can't let go of the desire. I'm not a robot who can remove desires at will. I don't think you are either.

Karma is just some shit you have heard and read about. At the end of the day, the only rational reason to not committ suicide is that it would hurt others.

You are (relative). And you aren't (absolute). The end.

It totally makes me understand (and believe in it) when Leo says that state is everything.

Alcohol gives me social super powers. I can make anyone like me when I have taken alcohol. (I'm mostly talking about online now.)

@silene I don't know if I'm a materialist or what I am. I know nothing.

@Ananta And because some random John W. Gardner guy said it it's true? Interesting. He's just another fool. When I can see my reality and the truth then it's just victim mindset and self-pity? You know what separates someone from reality most? Wishful thinking and emotional bias. You always believe any false crap that makes you feel good. You close your eyes to the harsh truth/reality. This entire forum is all about that, all the shit about "you are God", "everything is Love", etc.

No amount of work on myself can make me loveable.

Yeah I know that no one can love me.

I want her to love me.

Why do you say that? Why would I want a mail order bride? Is it wrong to want a partner?

No. Nothing has ever helped me. The idea of "help" is a myth. Ok you don't hate me, great, but still no female likes me romantically. As long as I don't have a partner I will be miserable, simple as that. I am helpless.

You actually do think that I suck and that I'm worthless. You just want to look good in others eyes by not saying that you hate me. You need to maintain your reputation of being nice and loving and all that stuff. You are all those latter things, but just not with me, I'm hated even by nice people, that's how much I suck.

No you didn't hit a nerve. Ah the usual "professional help always fixes everything". Repeat it like a brain dead mantra. Just accept the fact that you people are completely wrong.

It's true. You people are just too unsmart to understand that some people are beyond help and self improvement.

I have tried help. It's a waste of time and energy. Thanks, you too. I have tried to improve. Only 1 of them is from this forum.

It has been years, and it has only got worse because I can't improve. I have never asked for advice, read my first post: "I'm not really looking for advice, but if you want to give advice then you can do that. But it wont help me." And also read the title of this thread: "Venting". Anyway, see how much Ananta hates me, notice how angry she is. I think I'll contact 3 more haters who can tell you guys how much I suck. Then maybe finally you people can stop saying that I don't suck.

@Jacob Morres Ffs.. How can I prove to you guys that women don't like me, that I'm never good enough, and that my brain sucks? It's weird that you refuse to accept what I'm saying. I have talked to a few women in this forum, and they all hate me. So maybe they can write here and let everyone know how much they hate me. I should collect all my haters and fill this thread with them, maybe then you would believe me. This thing should get settled once and for all, enough is enough. Everyone needs to know how much I suck and how worthless I am.

Yes I always have a difficulty with finding things to say. I think that's the main reason why no one likes me. But I also have other problems, like jealousy, camera-shyness, phone-shyness, etc. Yes that's what I mean with not having a good brain. All problems are neurological. No nervous system= no problems. Our entire psyche is emergent from physical stuff. So psychological= physical. Same thing. No I'm not looking for a diagnosis. "'women dislike me', 'my brain sucks', 'I'm never good enough'" are all facts.

Covid will never disappear.. Sooner or later everyone will get it. That means my unvaccinated mom will get it sooner or later