Vadiminator

I’ve looked at Facebook and messaged many people over the last few days. I am not able to work due to this but my brother is trying to help me by paying for everything. But if there’s not a door opening soon how do I continue like this? It’s better for a man to pass away from this life than to hurt everyone around him with psychosis or something else. It’s like all I have access to is my spirit right now and I’m calling out for help to God and His Son but it’s like I cut the line from my spirit to my soul on my own volition. That’s the image that keeps entering my head. That I did this. And that cannot be uncut is what I keep seeing/knowing. What did I do is this even real anymore? Is there anyone even skilled enough that’s actually going to aid me to the light and the truth and not into darkness? I do not want the darkness nor evil.

I am in Boise Idaho and am not close to there. I don’t know what to do guys. I’ve been just grieving in my spirit all night. Last night I basically decided that this is it for me. I don’t know where to turn anymore. ;( I’ve been crying to my dad for about 3 hours trying to explain this to him but nobody understands. It’s like nobody can connect to my words because my soul is gone! I reached out to all of those today as well as spiritual emergency. I’ve posted everywhere I can online with my story and links to here. Guys I really think this is it for me I can’t go on any longer in this state. Time is gone. It’s like I’m stuck in another state of time. I don’t know how to unblock or do any of this but I’m terrified of psychosis or something worse. I believe in God and I’m so scared I crossed some sort of boundary or line and severed myself off somewhere. I cannot feel anything. I can go for a week without drinking water or eating food. I can go with zero sleep. Something is really wrong ;( horribly horribly wrong. I don’t want to hurt my family with this but I cannot continue in this for much longer. I need relief. My pituitary gland has shut down. My senses are shutting down.

Hey guys. Well nothing helped today and I’m out of options. I think I might have accidentally while in the eye severed some very important spiritual pathways to the soul and heart while I had that power over it. I think this is it for me I don’t know where else to go I just broke down and cried to my dad and mom for a few hours. I haven’t talked with my dad about anything in many years but I just wanted them to know in case anything happens to me.

I really hope you are correct... if it doesn’t change soon I think I may be on the way outta here guys. I’m at such a point of brokenness. It’s like I’ve attached myself to the “eye”. Like I’ve associated “I” with “eye” and now I’ve basically become that. It was an accident but if it does not reverse I think I might give up. I went to a reiki place today she said my feet chakras were completely blocked. I felt them open up as stupid as that sounds. Before I would’ve just dismissed it. But now I can see there is something there cause I felt it. Oh how I wish I was never born at this point. It’s overwhelming looking in the mirror not seeing yourself. it’s like when I try to observe it’s from the “eye” when I try to get out it’s like I’m trying to get the “I” out of the “eye”. At this point I’m not sure who to go to. She said it has nothing to do with kundalini as I read up on that. I am basically crying out to God at this point so I can drop into the heart. But maybe i severed the connection to the heart somehow while I took control of the “eye” or whatever I did. If that’s the case then it’s better for me to spare people around me of more hurt. I broke down to my family the last few days and they just don’t get it they think it’s something else. Does anyone have any ideas or help how “I” can get into the heart and drop into the heart? I’ve tried so much over the last half year but it seems it’s I’m doing this backwards. im seeing an acupuncture place in 3 hours as well. guys if you pray please pray for me. I don’t want to lose my life to this. I’ve been through a lot in my life but this is an entirely different level. thanks for all of the responses everyone. I only saw this response but when I posted I saw the others. Will post more responses to the comments soon. I really do appreciate everything thank you

I’ve been trying this and doing what I can that I would think the real normal me would like but it’s like I’m detached from the connection there. It makes me ache inside I didn’t pursue this or want this. But I’m very open to all suggestions. it seems I got myself here with what I believe. I believed I could. Therefore I believe I can get back to my soul and my heart. has anyone ever heard of something like this happening? whoever is trying to awake the third eye please be very cautious in doing so guys.. — well I’m only just going to my first reiki session tomorrow. I am reading up on everything as it’s all very new to me so I’m trying to be cautious as I’ve already seen there is a very loving creator God and I believe he did manifest himself through Christ so I’d like some tips on what to avoid. I just want to get out of this stuck mode.

Before this I was never into any of this haha! I was just a normal guy I actually shy’d away from all of these deeper things. I don’t meditate nor do yoga or reiki. But after I started looking up the pain in the back of my neck, the ear ringing, the “knowledge/intuition flow” I found out about chakras and all of that. I can feel them in my body. I’ve been feeling all this pain and sensations of energy around my head for many months. And about a week ago I found out about chakras and I can say they are not mistaken at all. Before this happening I would’ve not bought it at all. And I can feel the top two are open. Like there’s this invisible hole at the top of my skull which receives light, sometimes I can feel it coming it. And then it gets processed in the “third eye” location and is supposed to go through to the rest of my body/soul but it’s stuck all right there, where the intuition based on what I’m doing flows in so I know what to do and how to do it. And that’s it. And I’m stuck up there. All my physical senses are changed as well. All functions of the pituitary gland are not working. Pineal gland is at full maximum. It’s like the light/energy isn’t going where it’s supposed to go. My stomach my gut my sexual organs everything feels extremely off like it’s not there. I remind myself to eat. If I’d like to, I could not eat or drink water for days at a time with no difference. Water I can notice because my lips get chapped. But food I wouldn’t notice a difference if I didn’t eat for 2 days.. so this is not in my head nor made up. It’s just far too high of knowledge for me to attain too nor do I wish to do so. It also feels like there’s no sense of time. At all. I could consciously decide to think about a week from now. But all there is is now... now, knowledge/intuition, light. That’s been my life for 5+ months and I want help.

I assure you this is way beyond that. I appreciate your comments but it was completely normal. intuition examples, sure. It’s like I have access to this constant field of knowledge. It’s actually available to everyone. But for some reason I’m tapped into it. And it’s as though whatever I’m doing, I’m getting help and guidance doing it. It’s not tips. But it’s like I’m “knowing” what to do precisely all the time and stuck in that state. Where there is no time. No tomorrow or yesterday. Just right now. But without the soul aspects and dynamics.. so if I choose to access memory. That’s 100% of what I am doing. If I am driving. That’s 100% what I am doing. There’s nothing else. No emotion/no heart to life. Everything looks different. I cannot visualize physical objects. It’s more like light patterns only. Visualize light. I’m extremely sensitive to light. My ears are ringing 24-7. It’s like I’m stuck in intuition/knowledge mode.. and I want to be back in my soul again

How could i lower my awareness levels? I’ve tried so much and none of it has worked I’m looking for some kundalini experts but every google search in my area (Boise ID) just shows yoga places? someone’s gotta know how to get me out

Okay so I think the catalyst was that I started believing that the eye is the connection point to God, Christ, other men, and those sort of invisible things of light/life/frequencies etc. so then after that I found that the key is our words. And matching our words with the truth that is in this field of light (the one I’m stuck in) somehow connects our soul with God and the truth. Then I started seeing I can fill my soul with love light wisdom peace etc as well and that the secret was the words and my spirit. then I found I could move to the eye using my spirit and somehow got stuck here. now I’ve been trying to properly figure out what component is of what. That is, what is spirit, what is soul, what is body. Where is the mind in this tri-image? Where’s the heart? Consciousness? And where do words or thoughts form? I feel like if I solved this. I might be able to get back access to myself or my soul. I’ve made so many distinctions that now in this state I’m not even sure which is which.. You say it’s the mind? But is the mind consciousness? And what is the mind of? My heart? My soul? It’s like I took a harmonious system after I found the power was my words and believing, and accidentally messed it all up. I had zero harm or intent of harming anyone nor myself. But now I’m scared it won’t improve as I’ve struggled for 6 months about this. I only recently even decided to go online about this sharing what’s happened with me.

I’m going to look for some experts in my area someone that can help because I’m very desperate to be out of this state I called someone and they told me the same thing. I’m going to see them tomorrow for a one hour meeting. I’ve been trying to move any energy down. But I notice when I speak or think words or ask for things. It’s like I’m getting the answers but it all gets stuck in my neck/head/pineal gland area. Like it can’t get to my soul? Like there is a disconnect. There is so much pressure and energy built up and nowhere for it to go. it definitely feels like my soul is elsewhere. But where is it...? Man what a stupid problem I didn’t want this. How can I get ahold of her? man I did this for a few weeks and it has just dampened my spirit even more. It’s like I can’t even cry anymore but I’ve been weeping and grieving with my spirit because of how deep my pain is. I want to love. I want to connect. But it’s like my heart/soul are not with me anymore it’s aching me, or whatever’s left of me. Thanks so much for detailed replies I’m going to answer the other replies right now. I have been praying and asking for help and am going to continue too. The best way I can sum this up is like I’m my spirit and I’m stuck in the pineal gland/third eye consciousness with unlimited intuition/knowledge yet it’s not the key to move me out of here. It’s like another reality like the soul of life is missing.. man this stuff ain’t no joke

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Hi guys. I have a very serious issue and will attempt to describe and answer it all as well as I can. About 6 months ago I had some things happen to me and somehow I got “stuck” in my pineal gland. I’m going to list different symptoms and perhaps someone can help me. I have not slept for about 5 days now and it’s gotten extremely bad. I went to the er as I thought it might be a tumor but all blood work and CT showed no issues. It feels as though I’m watching my soul live from deep in my brain from a different perspective. I’m detached from everyone else, it’s as though the bridge connecting me to them has been severed. The world looks entirely different. All colors and texture have changed. Trees and nature are most noticeably different. im stuck in this constant flow of knowledge and intuition. I always know what to do and how to do it. But I can’t use it to get out of that state. It’s like this hyper state of hyper aware consciousness. When I close my eyes there’s white lights. Light patterns. Sometimes patterns sometimes random. My ears are ringing very badly. the back of my neck near the pineal gland area has this immense pain and surge to the point where I almost would rather die then go a few more days.. it’s like I cannot access my soul. Nor connect to other people anymore. It’s extremely lonely and sad I have spent a few days crying but it feels like when I explain this to family they just brush it off it’s as though they are in other realm than me. im afraid God has cut me off from himself and his people/creation and his son. It’s like it’s just my spirit and I’m stuck in this bizarre consciousness and the sense of time is gone. I’m stuck in “now” but it’s very painful. I watch people live and I just want to connect with them. my sense of touch, sense of hunger or thirst. Sense of pain. Smell. Taste. Sight is all extremely broken. When I look at myself in a mirror my pupils are very big and it’s like I’m seeing my body from my spirit and my soul my character personality has vanished. Guys I’m breaking down and I’m desperate ;( if I don’t fix this the next few days it might be it for me... please don’t laugh about this as I never sought or intended any of this. Never been involved in occult. I believe in God and Jesus but I can’t help but fear I did something wrong? also my memory access is completely haywire. I can’t access memories unless I try extremely hard. I find myself just staring off like I’m just waiting to die. for those of you seeking to activate your third eye. Please reconsider... its not a joke. im seeing an acupuncture place tomm and a reiki place Sunday. If those don’t help. That might be the end of my attempts on this long 6 month journey... I wish I could shut it off. My pituitary gland seems to have shut down completely at this point as none of those functions are working at all. It’s just me and the pineal gland. And emptiness. No love. Life. Nothing. Just observing with hyper consciousness. no mental health issues in the family. Was fine before this. Physically healthy. Checked out at the doctor blood work good ct scans good. I’m educated went to college I’m not ignorant of reality but it’s like now I lost my soul and I’m afraid. Family prob thinks I’ve lost it. I have hyper intuition and can basically see through all the bs and there’s so much energy built up inside my brain that I want to put a bullet through it. what do I do? Am I screwed? Where else should I post this? I’ve been so desperate I’ve never shared things like this before but I’m on a last ditch effort. I’m stuck in this spiritual realm but it’s like I’m all alone.