eliasvelez

okay, thanks for the inputs

hello 1 today I was contemplating about my 5g shrroms trip from last year and I had an experience where while I was looking at my room (around the peak) suddenly I was for like 2 seconds the room, only the room. There was only the thing I was looking at, the experience. And it also felt like I was the room forever at that moment. I tought it was mabey a ego death but now im thinking that it could be an experience of oneness. The fear grow in this trip after this experience of being my room. -> How would you lable the experience? 2 also an experience whitch I had and I also can't it really lable : I became really happy and euphoric and couldnt understand how I could have had fear at the beginning of the trip, I knew that there was no reason for fear. I felt extremely thankful for my family and for my life. This joy became more and more intense and it felt like my selfdeceptions where falling quickly one after another and I became more and more joyful and happy and thankful. I felt if I understood everything and it seemed so obvious and I knew it wouldnt last forever but I also felt so silly that I wouldnt be like that forever. The universe seemed like an organic machine and dimensions seemed like they are side by side. It was joy beyond what I had ever felt. (this was like 1-2 hours after I took shrooms and lastet like 1-2 hours) Im not really shure how to lable thiese experiences ( 1 and 2) because im only reading alongside about nonduality, ego-death, etc because my main focus at the moment is finding life purpose and psychology. Im not very familliar with the definition for these two mystical experiences and would appriecheate if someone understand these or who knows what the definiton of these are or could explain them. I want to understand these experience better.

this is so sad

okay thanks!

@flowboy sounds like an interesting approach to heal trauma and do shadow work. did you do it yourself with a book? and when yes, whitch one?

Hello I had last september and october 4 Trips, 1st. 2.3 g shrooms, 2nd. 100ug LSD, 3d. 0.8 g shrooms and 4th. 5 g Shroms. The last trip was very intense for me and like 60% of the time really existential frightening. In 2 days I want to take 100 ug of LSD with the intention to contemplate about what I want to do of my life aka life purpose and also by the way diminish this fear of psychedelics. The thing is, I feel fear with the thought of taking psychedelics again, a lot of this fear comes from the experience wirth the 5 g shrooms. My question now is, can you give me an advice for reducing this anxiety? And do you think that one should only take Psychedelica when one is really comfortable for it, or is it okay to have some awe/anxiety? greetings

okay, thanks for the advices and inputs Btw, I didnt took the 5 g light and knew that if it would get bad, it would get really bad but I wantet to have a reference experience of a big dose of psychedelics no matter what. For the 5g trip I prepared me like in the 2 weeks before and oriented me on mckenna who said you should rather take too much than too little (I know, you should take these advices with a grain of salt). I had much fear before taking the 5g but because I had made up my mind to do it no mather what, I did it. And yes in retrospective it wasnt the wisest decision. (but I also had some really beautiful experiences and great insights). And yes, it will take some time before I will take again such a dose I decided that I gonna trip but also look how I feel on wednesday and make the absolut decision then. Again, thanks for all inputs!

it is not even 1/10 that dangerous in comparison to the far right. You are taking a orange/blue perspective on this topic. I had people of colour friends who always joked about "riding black" here in swizerland. Nobody knows the origin of this word but you dont need to be a genious to see what connections you could make with this word. There are bigger dangers to our society than changing a potentially offensive word to a new harmless word. you should think about why you are triggered so hard by pettiness. It is nowhere realistic in the near future, that there is a danger of an arise of a dictatorship or a hard cencorship from stage green progressives

From Michael Pollan I am thinking about to buy this book and read it in the context of having a better understanding about pyschedelics and my use of them, but I am not shure if it is worth it, has someone read it and when yes, can you recommend it?

Wich book if I may ask? I think it is a great idea! But I am afraid that it is to niche and wouldnt sell well. But who knows, meaby there are more people interestet in it that topic it first seems. And it also seems that in the future there will be more and more people open to that and interestet in psychedelics. You should mabey begin it parallel to your daily stuff and look where it is leading and then decide.

mhm, you cant put all democraties in one cup.... and in most cases the differences are much bigger than you suggestet it. a lot of things that you have listet simply arent true in a lot of democracies, shure we are in some things hypocritical but not in that extent that you are suggesting. I can promise you that you will feel if you are in a democracy or in a totaliaran regime, no democracy is perfect and a lot democracies have real and serious problems but dont take it for grantet and dont equate it with a regime....

okay thanks for the answers

Hello Leo Could you please turn on the function for the automatic subtitles on your videos on youtube. It helps me when im sometimes not understanding a word. My native Language is (Swiss)german. I would be grateful for a consideration !

If you take shrooms, there is no "before sleep"

that is someone criticising stage orange from a stage green perspective, not turquoise (Only because someone says the world is one, that does not mean that he is taking a turquoise perspective! That the world is one family, is a tipical green point of view) btw, kanye is nowhere near turquoise

It could also be that these attitudes could be a red shadow, a red part of themselfes that they disdain. That could mean that they havent fully integrated red but they are identifying with blue and their gravity point is blue but they also have some red parts in themselfs that are unhealthy and that they hate.

great, a lot of them make sense to me. But what is in some of your examples the difference between stage red behaviour and a blue shadow? For examlpe, or this example , seem to me, like this could go as red, rather than as a blue shadow

@SamC I think this is indipendent of wicht stage you are, after blue of course. But at the moment for me it seems like a lot of stage green people are missing positive aspects of blue that are relateive important (including me in some areas) I dont think so, blue is like any other a nessecary step of consiousness, of course only if you want to go beyond blue. You can be in blue and have the previous stages integrated healthy, thats not a contratiction. It is not a sign for a shadow of the previous stages. (This conclusion is the consequence of my interpretation of shadow in spyral dynamics) You are Blue when you are mostly stuck and limited in blue. You are blue when you are incapable of going further than your limitations that are in blue (thats the same on any other stage). A blue shadow has someone whose gravity point is beyond blue and also his identification but he hasnt integrated yet everything in blue and misses some important aspects of blue like for example discipline ( think meaby of a lazy hippie that smokes everyday pot and chills everyday. I know, its of course a stereotype) That are of course my interpretations, if someone has a different view, please let us know

Isnt the shadow more the things that you havent integrated? I think examples for a blue shadow are lazyness, poor work ethic, weak discipline. -> All the positive sides of blue that you havent yet integrated

https://www.arte.tv/de/videos/074567-011-A/grosse-reden-dominique-de-villepin/ One of my favorite speeches (watch with subtitles)

To know it and to really become conciouss of it, are to different things

If you need to acsess paypal, you meaby can try it with a VPN, you can search for free trials that go 1 day or so. With a VPN you should be able to by-pass the Turkish ban

Nice, this inspires me to do short meditation sessions during the day. Since now I only meditated in the morning and befor sleep.