PurpleTree

Purple means counter-productive as in creating more anxiety and feeling out of it, aka creating more suffering

How many people were killed/died during the great leap forward and the cultural revolution alone? How many Tibetans were killed? over a million and thousands of monasteries destroyed? Exaggerated i think not Also obviously a lot of people were led out of poverty (which is great), but for what price?

there is no "the highest" or "the best" imo

see the funny thing is i don't really defend my government or country if it does dirt around the world. we should call that stuff out and bring it to light. on the other hand we should also aknowledge the good things from each region. also tibetans etc. aren't westerners so they're not looking at it from a western perspective, i know quite a few of them. If you feel the need to defend your countrys and governemts dirt, well maybe then you're kind of "brainwashed"

Well then that's the problem of your "ego" then what i'm doing now is trying to be aware or awareness a lot of times during the day without sitting down meditation and i really like that. Purple has done it on and off for like 5,6 years so it's not like he's totally new. The longest i've done it consistently was about 10 months or so everyday 20-60 minutes but didn't really feel "good" in the end and stopped doing it. Also i've read online that meditation makes some people feel worse after i googled it, so i'm not the only one but i wanted to see how it is in this forum.

That's what PurpleTree generally does, thanks though I find statements like "never" a bit dangerous

Ok you convinced me, the "concentration camps", throwing people in jail for criticising the government, tibet, persecution of falun gong, christians etc. not allowing artistic freedom and freedom of speech are actually a good thing. not

well he seems very "brainwashed" regarding the subject imo i'm not saying i'm not brainwashed either in some ways btw. we probably all are in some form or another

^^why are you defending china and the ccp so much?

Are you Chinese if you don't mind me asking?

Think i'll start a 4-7 day water fast tomorrow. Did a 10 day water fast once earlier this year. i got into it because i tend to have some stomach/gut issues but fasting is kind of a spiritual experience in itself.

congrats man

where's that list?

Trump is you and you are him

Will they just let you live there if you don't spend real money? You need some kind of tourist Visa etc. for Vietnam nah?

that's why i don't eat lunch anymore i eat a breakfast which includes protein and then i eat a big dinner during the day i eat some fruits here and there, maybe some dark chocolate, nuts and olives as snack. not me, if i eat a bowl of vegan pasta etc. for lunch i still feel tired afterwards

Hi there Through some books, videos, meditation etc. i can be conscious of (my) consciousness or aware of my awareness. Kind of put the focus on my awareness or that "space" I've been in and out of spirituality but have been practicing this for the last two weeks as much as i can in daily life. And it's a nice kind of subtle "feeling". It's also enjoyable because i get lost in thought/feelings etc. pretty easily and if i put the focus on consciousness much less thoughts etc. pop up My question is, during activities like jogging, meeting people etc. should one also try to stay conscious of consciousness as much as he/she can. Or if i'm jogging in the forest should i move my focus mostly to nature and the surroundings etc. and if i'm meeting somebody put the focus mostly on them etc.? (obviously if i'm jogging in the forest for example there is quite some focus on the surroundings too, even if i try to stay conscious, or else i'd just trip and fall etc.) Also we're all not on exactly the same path, we all have our own practices etc. but since i never had a teacher and learned mostly through books and internet etc. i wonder if i'm on the right path with this. So i'm just looking for some insights.

Alright thank you for your answer. I'm trying to do it quite often right now because i'd like to make it a habit and form some neural pathways to make it easier. this is from google "Time to create a new habit Research from the University College of London (alma mater shout-out!) has shown that the average time for an action to become automatic is 66 days. Of course there's a wide range (from 18 to 254 days) and where that number falls depends on a few factors." https://jenriggs.com/change/how-long-will-change-take/ How often/how long more or less do you put most of the focus on awareness during daily life?

"existential crisis" sounds a bit negative in my opinion. Something like 8 years ago i've watched some Eckhart Tolle videos which made me see reality a bit different. Not really sure exactly which video it was.