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People fascinate me. I lose a lot of productivity time just bouncing ideas off people . I want to be a coach because I can indulge in that while still advancing myself. Part of it is the helping them, but there's also a science experiment aspect to it.

I get tension headaches sometimes while meditating . It's very frustrating.

This was a loving kindness retreat so all day we were doing metta meditation. The first meditation on the first day was guided, the rest were silent. AFAIK this is pretty un-typical, Zen practice is usually just sitting with no technique, or koan practice. I honestly think I got more out of it being focused on metta however. I had two profound awakenings (well, one, it happened all at once) to unconditional love and to intelligent design, on the second to last day. But I didn't realize God until 5 meo. I mean it's very standard stuff with 5 meo. I realized God, that I was God, that consciousness is equal to nothing and to love, that the separate self is an appearance within consciousness not the source of consciousness, and that it's impossible to die. I don't credit the molecule the realization, the molecule just raised my consciousness so I could realize what I've always known.

I wonder if it would help to lean into it. Consciously clench even harder, and then release.

@Davino this year I added two to my list . 5 meo dmt and 2-fdck. I pretty much never talk about 2-fdck but in some ways it was just as profound, more so in the emotional and healing domain than the nondual one. What do you think about tai chi / qigong? I find it's the best counterweight to kriya yoga. If I'm ever feeling wired after pranyama I can do 10 minutes of microcosmic orbit work and I'll feel much better. It doesn't take away the befits of pranyama either, just the negatives.

@Leo Gura yeah but you also don't strike me as an influencer type . I'm referring to people who care more about clout than value.

What we need is not more influencers, I agree with you on that, but more people helping others one on one. People want to make a bunch of YouTube videos , they end up being shallow and highly generalized much of the time , because they want fame, when they could help more by learning to do one on one work. That's my two cents.

@Davino I've definitely been guilty of being a know it all. Especially pre awakening, when I was just obsessively thinking about metaphysics all day rather than doing practices. I would try more different chemicals if I wasn't so paranoid about buying stuff online.

I somewhat bypassed spiral dynamics stage orange, I think because my parents spoiled me excessively growing up . As a teenager I wanted to become a monk the second I graduated high school. I wanted to become enlightened. At 26 I feel I'm finally starting to reintegrate. Actually it involved first experiencing a glimpse of turquoise through hardcore psychedelics, which gave me the clarity to approach a career and success in a way integrated with my higher values. The biggest thing in the next 8 months is saving money becuse I'll be funneling most of my spending money into the life coach training. In other words, I'll need to cut my addiction expenses down. In that sense I'll actually be integrating blue alongside orange. It's very very exciting.

This is where I'm going to catalogue my spiritual practice disciplines.

Ironically the shaman is probably more dangerous, because he only gets to see you once, he's not gonna titrate you responsibly. Also he very likely is using inferior methods (ie toad venom) and serving it to you in a crack pipe, instead of synthetic in a vape cartridge.

@Alexop I've noticed myself censoring myself spiritually around my Green friends. I express maybe 20% of the insights I've had into reality and keep the rest to myself. A lot of my closest friends seemed worried when I told them about 5 meo. One of them told me I should really only do that with a shaman .

@Alexop Yeah I think I get some of what you mean. I've been involved in different types of green communities over the years. The rave scene, the meditation scene, the yoga scene, the kava bar scene (this is pretty big in Florida where I'm from). I've met people I could disagree with and people I couldn't , it just depends. @Leo Gura Do you think though that they could benefit from incorporating some of the lessons of green while still trying to master orange? I see this in the new age / manifestation community. People using green to get to orange (which of course is backward of how the model predicts but that's what it looks like to me). Dr K seems to do this, he'll teach someone some yoga technique that'll help them make a million dollars.

@Alexop @Leo Gura Yeah it's just the zeitgeist of the moment . No stopping it. I don't know what the solution is. But probably a good starting would be trying to find a community rather than an echo chamber. I've been rewatching the SD series , basically the solution is Green Of course that assumes willingness .

Seems like there's very little consensus here so it's hard to answer such a question, but... I strongly disagree with the red pill / manosphere / incel elements I see on this forum , and I'm basically certain that stuff will prevent both healthy relationships and serious consciousness work.

Doing Kriya I've noticed . If my entire back presses against a chair it's hard to feel the kundalini (as jc Stevens states). However, if just the bottommost part of my back presses a chair and the rest of the back doesn't, I feel the kundalini even more than if my whole back wasn't touching.

Yeah over on r/nonduality I see them practicing a lot of spiritual bypassing around the Epstein files. "This is just maya ignore it" type silliness. I'm also shocked by how many far right people are into this type of work, smh. Not that I'm against a far right person being interested in awakening, maybe if they take it seriously it'll cure them of being far right.

ChatGPT: When you imagine pausing all intense energy work and pranyama for a month do you feel: A: relief B: fear of losing progress C: something else me: 😅😅😅😅😅 also, I've fully decided (actually , it was revealed to me) that I'm going to be a life coach. My speciality will be men going through spiritual awakening. And men who want to improve their relationship with themself (and by extension their feminine), and men wanting psychedelic experience integration. I'm going to get my life coach certification from a 6 month program, as well as psychedelic integration training and potentially yoga teacher training . I want to give people actual spiritual practices that address their goals, not just a lot of talking. As an ENTP with a wealth of spiritual knowledge and nondual experience , I know I will kill it. But not *quite* yet, it's going to take a year or two of further practice. So that's my long term vision but for now I'm gonna keep building servers (maybe moving into software engineering like my degree? Seems unlikely given the market) and working on my awakening. And practicing using this forum and irl friends .

I do a lot of spiritual practices but some of them are closer to hobbies than others . Like tai chi and yoga. Duolingo, smash bros.

I wonder what would happen if you combined this with kriya yoga. I know from Ingram FK is super powerful, and I've verified myself the power of kriya. I was doing holotropic breathwork before my main kriya practice for a short time and that was ridiculously powerful . Too powerful , actually.

🌿 Tai Chi Kriya – Grounding Practice (Revised) A personal fusion drawing from tai chi, qigong, and kriya yoga. Not a formal or traditional system — offered as a practical daily grounding sequence. 1️⃣ Grounding Chi (Arc & Press) Purpose: Connect crown to earth, regulate energy, settle the nervous system. Posture • Feet hip-width apart • Knees soft • Spine tall • Awareness at the crown (Brahmarandhra) Movement • Inhale: Sweep arms out and up in a wide arc to overhead. • Exhale: Unfocus on crown. Turn palms down and press slowly down the midline, fingers extended as if smoothing a wall of air. • Feel the energy descend into the belly and feet. Repetitions: 6–12 slow breaths. 2️⃣ Heart Tapping with Sound (Revised) Purpose: Clear and activate the heart center, balance emotional energy. Posture • Stand or sit upright • Shoulders relaxed • Hands lightly cupped 🔹 Phase 1 – Left / “Ha” • Continuously tap the left upper chest with the right hand. • Keep a steady, rhythmic tapping. • Simultaneously vocalize “Haaaa” continuously for about 1 minute or whatever is comfortable. • Breath releases through the sound. • Let it feel cleansing and clearing. 🔹 Phase 2 – Right / “Yam” • Switch sides. • Continuously tap the right upper chest with the left hand. • Vocalize “Yammm” continuously for about 1 minute or whatever is comfortable. • Let the sound resonate and vibrate in the chest. • Feel expansion and coherence. Repeat the two phases as many times as needed (2–5 rounds). 3️⃣ Archer’s Pose (Dynamic Stability) Purpose: Grounded power, direction, embodied confidence. Posture • Step into a bow stance • Front knee bent, back leg strong • Hips square Arms replacement: • The arm matching the front foot is the bow arm — it extends to the side (left if left foot forward, right if right foot forward), not straight ahead. • The opposite arm draws back at shoulder height as if pulling the bowstring. • Gaze steady over the bow hand. • On the exhale, release — envision an energy arrow of positive intention shooting forward. Breath • Inhale to draw • Exhale to settle and ground Hold 3–5 breaths per side. Alternate 3–6 times. 🌎 Suggested Closing Stand quietly with hands resting on the lower belly. Breathe naturally. Feel weight in the feet and spaciousness in the chest. Tips: “Ha” often ties to heart/lung clearing in sound healing/Qigong traditions; “Yam” is the seed mantra (bija) for the heart chakra in yoga/Kriya. Keep taps gentle—more vibration than force. Stop if any discomfort arises.

@Lazarus93 interesting point about losing the fear of death. I believe this also leads to losing the fear of life, they're one and the same fear, in a sense. Biologically all fear is rooted in the fear of death , so dealing with that helps to remove other fears (although not in a simplistic or all-encompassing way). One of the coolest awakenings I've had was awakening to intelligent design, for me this actually happened on a 7 day meditation retreat, not while on psychedelics. It was really beautiful , the Zen center was in a gorgeous region of northern Oregon, I was looking at the trees and the sky and realized how it was all masterfully constructed by God / universal consciousness.

Omg . Ive never heard it said so bluntly. It makes so much sense . I think it's also about "purity" even though I'm not catholic anymore my ocd still thinks sex is a little dirty.

😊. Right. Who am I to argue with destiny? lol. It's allll goood :).

I did lsd and mushrooms pretty extensively before 5 meo, they definitely motivated me but it was temporary . It has as much to do with where you are in life as the psychedelic. I think any psychedelic would work , depending on the person. Ram Dass began looking for his guru after doing lsd, for example . A hardcore meditation retreat could also work. Anything that gives you a substantial experience of awakening could work to motivate you to commit yourself to practice , in my opinion. I guess the advantage of 5 meo is you can take it more often than other psychedelics ... but that's also the downside, it's very easy to destabilize yourself (as I experienced, I wouldn't reccomend tripping as much as I did). Maybe it was more motivating for me because it more closely mimics the effects of spiritual practices, lsd and shrooms produce something visionary most practices don't, but it depends on the person.