Oppositionless

This damn profile picture bro. Everyone thinks it's cringe , that I'm misleading people, but that's literally the point, it's supposed to be cringe . I told myself one month but if I make it three weeks I'll be proud. Anoher thing that makes me feel cringe ; talking to my friends about how I've been doing yoga. Not referring to the kriya , but the sweaty somewhat feminine yoga at the studio . Yoga yoga yoga yoga . Activating kundalini makes me feel like how I imagine a woman feels during sex. Sometimes I wonder if I really am a woman but that's just my intrusive thoughts. Soon I'm going to start really working my humiliation practice . I don't know what I'm going to do yet but I'm going intentionally trigger nightmare levels of cringe .

This channel has a certain type of wisdom, not awakening wisdom but street wisdom .

At the risk of derailing this journal I'll say that, for me, physical exercise and in particular pushing my body to its absolute limit is a spiritual practice. I find lifting weights in the normal "body builder" way really boring and not very challenging . Im not consistent, not because it's too hard but because its too easy. Makes sense as my background is high school cross country , track (800, 400) and wrestling. When I started doing hatha yoga , particularly vinayasa, I got like 80% of the burn I got from my high school sports , in addition to boosting my meditation. Hardcore meditation retreats, such as vipassana or zen sesshin, are another way , a different type of physical exhaustion but exhaustion nonetheless. I like doing things in a group because it's so easy to chicken out by myself . I intend to return to the monastery sometime this year for another sesshin. I would say, for physical practices it's good to push through discomfort (not sharp pain). For energy practices don't push through discomfort , it'll fuck you up.

This is where I'm going to catalogue my spiritual practice disciplines.

Until I know for sure that I'm awake I'm going to assume I'm not. I've previously said I know I'm God, which is true , but that doesn't mean I'm awake, awakening is way deeper than just realizing you're God at some level, it's the total embodiment of that realization and the end of identifying with the body or the mind .

If you experience dizziness or strong kundalini activity (ie uncomfortable jolts up the spine) , take a break . Pushing through discomfort is associated with destabilization , anxiety and rebound depression , in my experience.

@Oppositionless this is a two to three day a week practice for me. I'm super sensitive to breathwork and kriya so I don't do it nearly as much as Leo advocates . On off days I'm just doing basic vipassana and hatha yoga, maybe just like 6 rounds of pranayama before meditating.

Awakening is contingent on material conditions, that ruffles a lot of feathers but it's true. Reality isn't dependent but understanding reality certainly is.

@Happy Lizard I don't think he was able to fully let go in is 5 meo trip, he talks about it in his book. It's honestly so strange to me that he even tried it at all lol, I would never have done 5 meo if I wasn't highly experienced with psychedelics / meditation . Even though it wasn't super deep, I thoroughly enjoyed How to Change Your Mind , it was very comforting.

I distinctly remember being a socially outcast (in my head , really wasn't quite true) 13 year old and experiencing the purest joy playing halo 4 (I was really good, unlike at COD which I played with friends).

Well not everyone considers Smash a fighting game but... yes

Nondual Breathwork Routine Stage 1) Charging ⚡️ (Energize and Cleanse) Holotropic Breathing (10-12) minutes laying down. Rest (10-12) minutes in shivasana. Stage 2) Directing 🌟 (Raise Prana) Kriya Pranayama 6-12-16 rounds Meditation 10-20 minutes "Do Nothing / Absorption " Stage 3) Balancing ⚖️ Nadi Shodhana (Alternate nostril breathing) ~6 minutes Go for a walk

Damn all these cool games you guys mentioned and I've been stuck playing smash bros since like 2019. It started with Ultimate but has migrated to Project Plus.

I thought this video had to be a parody until I looked at the rest of the channel. I feel like if you wanted to give yourself schizophrenia you could just watch all the videos on this channel.

@Magnanimous The might not raise state but psychedelics boost neruoplasticity, so I bet your state raising practices (such as kriya) would raise your state more for a few days to a couple weeks after tripping. To me psychedelics are a bit like ploughing a field, and my kriya practice is like planting seeds and watering them.

@Inliytened1 I aspire to your level of consciousness , I've been saying for awhile now that 90% of these teachers aren't really in Sahaja Samadhi.

Two days ago I had a "big experience" with kriya and since then my obsessions have been going crazy . When something is good I want to overdo it and then it becomes bad.

One time in a dream I smoked dmt and may have had an awakening but it was so brief that it's really hard to say .

Yep. It's where the 1% are from.

I know of two . Martin Ball and David Carse. But then again permanent enlightenment in general is also quite rare, I don't think 10% of spiritual teachers are really enlightened.

Sure but a little more awareness can reduce the amount drastically . You could have 15 years of normal up and down or 15 years of cancer.

So you're defining attractive as Victoria secret model and complaining that no attractive women are developed. Do you see the self deception going on? To me attractive is about how my body feels around them, that's all that matters .

You can get a deep Kensho in a week of hardcore practice the only flex is if it's permanent , 99% of people who say they've permanently dissolved the self are wrong it only happens by grace. Most people wouldn't benefit from permanently dissolving the self they would go crazy .

People with moral scrupulousity ocd (like me) often have a fundamental feeling that they are bad, flawed or undeserving. But when a helpful person tries to really drill into WHY they're bad, the person with ocd often can't give a straight answer. They might say something like "I just have a bad personality" or "I'm just bad." This is NOT consistent with *just* low self esteem hence why positivity often does NOT WORK for moral scrupulosity. For so long I thought that I was bad. All day every day you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad you're bad its complete bullshit .