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God is just consciousness... wrong ?

It gave me the impression that death is the end of illusion because it's the end of the ego. And that the only non illusory state is the highest state . I'm not confident what that entails in terms of fine details, like duration or what comes "'next"

Okay, but that's not deep sleep . Deep sleep is from the animal body, it's not ultimate . Buddhism has niroda samapatti which is complete loss of consciousness Whatever the highest state of consciousness is is what happens after death; not the lowest, sleep, looking to the physical world ,

Yes . That's what my 5 meo dmt experiences have indicated. And some, but not all, NDEs culminate in infinite consciousness. But it's not you being conscious of infinity, it's more like infinity's self-recognition. It could be different , obviously I haven't physically died, but that’s how these experiences (5 meo, some NDEs) are often interpreted phenomenologically, and how I interpreted my two breakthroughs on 5 meo.

Not a ghost. God / infinity. Another way of saying it is, yes the ego dissolves in both deep sleep and death , but in sleep that dissolution is accompanied by zero consciousness while at deaths it's accompanied by infinite consciousness.

TL:DR Math helps you understand the manifest world , but not the unmanifest source. -------------------------- This is somewhat tangential, but have you noticed that when people argue for idealism it's usually to explain some of the parts of reality that materialism cant seem to explain? Such as consciousness , or remote viewing, or near death experiences, or the observer effect in quantum mechanics. Those are all valid reasons to be an idealist but I think another equally valid reason is that idealism explains basic physics better than materialism . Physics doesn't really describe matter , it describes math, and math comes from mind . Math is a different kind of experience than sensation. It's internally generated. It can provide insight into the physical world, almost like reverse engineering how God constructs the world. But it can be a source of delusion too. Because reality and intelligibility are infinite , illusion is also infinite . There's a place for intellectual understanding, but peace and absolute truth are found in non coneptual being. If math can teach you about the Saguna Brahman , God with qualities, pure being can teach you about Nirguna Brahman, God without qualities.

If anything, you might be able to plug the liquid if the nasal route doesn't work. I ended up doing that, but it seemed to have made my butt dry for awhile , ymmv.

I think deep sleep is actually the complete opposite of death. In deep sleep the filter is at max power, in death the filter goes away. And in waking life the filter is at like 50% power.

Deep sleep is so weird to me. If everything is God / consciousness I'm not sure how deep sleep or anasthesia could even exist, so I thought what if there's really just an unbroken chain of experience from falling asleep to waking up . Death could be the same, although I don't exactly see why it should necessarily be anything like sleep, sleep occurs while the brain is still active. Comparing death to sleep is natural but not really grounded in anything but assumption.

Oh yeah dude my first purchase of 5 meo was nasal spray and it ended up being a big waste of time in terms of having a breakthrough dose ... if you try to take a full release dose in that form you're in for a bad time, I came very close to puking , absolutely foul liquid . But I can see how it wouldn't be too bad if you legitimately just wanted to microdose . Probably even better for microdosing than a cartridge.

Also I don't see the Absolute as a moral agent in itself . Rather, the absolute contains both good and evil , and good is actualized when an individual realizes the absolute.

Idk if God has free will, I don't think all-powerful necessarily implies it. Maybe God doesn't choose what he creates? Or he can choose either to create this, seemingly flawed world, or nothing at all.

At least you're not a wild animal.

https://nhmu.utah.edu/articles/experts-explore-new-mushroom-which-causes-fairytale-hallucinations Completely different from shrooms / psilocybin. Not similar to any known psychedelic. Also completely different from deliriants like datura, this mushroom could represent an entirely new class of hallucinogen: little-people-delics (Lilliputianogens). To me it seems they most resemble deliriants , but lack the downsides . "When outsiders first embarked into the Western Highlands of Papua New Guinea in 1934, they encountered a perplexing sight: after consuming a type of wild mushroom which they called “nonda,” the local people would appear to go temporarily insane, exhibiting a sudden and striking change in mood and behavior ...Specifically, it was reported that those affected would experience lilliputian hallucinations — a rare, clinically defined psychiatric syndrome (named after the tiny people in Gulliver's Travels) characterized by the perception of numerous little people autonomously moving about and interacting in the real-world environment. One elder tribesman in Papua New Guinea describes this effect, explaining how “he saw tiny people with mushrooms around their faces. They were teasing him, and he was trying to chase them away.” "A professor in Yunnan recounted how one evening during dinner (Jian shou qing is openly sold in markets and restaurants), he began seeing swirling shapes and colors after eating stir-fried mushrooms. Since the psychoactive effects are familiar to most locals, he began looking for xiao ren ren but was disappointed to find none — until he lifted the tablecloth and peeked underneath, seeing “hundreds of xiao ren ren, marching like soldiers.”

I actually think meditation and self enquiry can be really powerful when paired with a hardcore philosophical inquiry into God. The problem is no one does that .

I propose 1) partial kappa opioid modulation 2) partial cholinergic modulation As mechanisms

No can you reach a level of understanding god without 5 meo dmt absolutely how much? Depends on the person . How much do you want to understand God? 5 meo dmt causing real purging , not ayahusca bullshit poisoning purging

I don't know why but astral projection is a little spooky. I enjoy it but it definitely exposes me to trickster spirits .

I remember I was doing the Gateway Process for a few months but it seemed like NN DMT was the thing that made it so I could finally have astral projections. So I'm curios if I'll start having more sober astral projections when I do dmt again.

No it doesn't come easy to me and psychedelics are readily available. But it sometimes happens randomly and it's quite nice.

I've astral projected . I saw floated through my ceiling and saw my mom and deceased dog sitting on the couch. I've felt the presence of hostile energies while astral projecting . And I heard the same tones as on my dmt breakthrough .

Solipsism. Others might exist but they independently generate their own physical universe . Mind at large , the nondual belief of Bernardo Kastrup, is an illusion. Only your mind exists , you can't combine two perspectives into an amorphous blob, you can only realize that you're already one.

So I actually was a really impressionable 19 year old, and I don't like to talk about this because it's embarassing, but i did attempt to become a breatharian. I think I went 5 days without food or water . If I recall correctly, the big breatharian teachers say the "transition" only takes three dry days. Well, I did 5 (or maybe 4.5) and nothing happened . I'm just glad I didn't die . I did it because I hate capitalism and wanted to not work and live in a cave.

People said Ramakrishna , maybe Ramana maharshi too, both would go long periods without breathing while in samadhi. Godarianism 😂 I don't think you can be a "high functioning" Godarian.

Purging can take many forms , it isn't just puking. Wriggling around on the floor and making guttural animal noises can be purging .