Oppositionless

more mundane dreams today. had a dream conversation with my roomate, moved around in my bed. this time I was 100% convinced that I was really awake I think conscious OBE is very close I took a break from doing dream yoga because of sickness but I’m excited to get back to it keeping it in my mind will manifest it the last time I got reallly into it I actually had an experience where I rolled out of bed and then I went back to smoking weed everyday and forgot about it

want to revise this because too much overgeneralization people’s experiences are what ever they need at the moment but still, I don’t think the brain releases as much dmt as can be consumed exogenously, thus producing different experiences and I’m pretty certain my own death will be a lot more chill than my trips have been most of the nde trip reports I’ve read are just extremely peaceful and serene

what’s so dark about it? lmao

I didn’t fully AP last night but I had some very mundane dreams where all I did was sit in my room I believe that would be considered a false awakening Sooo Close I believe this dream yoga as they call it can help to prevent bad dreams. as a side benefit what if you maintained lucidity the entire time you were asleep ?

seeing the futility of nonduality and no-self “Emptiness, Pt. 2” by Mount Eerie The feeling of being in the mountains Is a dream of self-negation To see the world without us How it churns and blossoms Without anyone looking on It's why I've gone on and on And why I've climbed up alone But actual negation When your person is gone And the bedroom door yawns There is nothing to learn Her absence is a scream Saying nothing Conceptual emptiness was cool to talk about Back before I knew my way around these hospitals I would like to forget and go back into imagining That snow shining permanently alone could say something to me true and comforting

intro to Focus 12

tonight I will astral project. tonight I will astral project. I fully believe dimethyltryptamine has opened my third eye and blessed me with psychic abilities

people who think DMT trip = Near Death Experience have not experienced either NDE is closer to astral projection

the real-life traumas people go through make dmt look tame in comparison it’s such a beautiful experience. It’s hard to believe it even exists. God loves me.

It’s been about 20ish hours I don’t like eating meat at all but I am also very lazy and don’t cook

fasting because of DMT near-breakthrough dose and reapeated watching simulation video and meditating on the experience

I want infinite love and infinite sex

5 meo cleans the crown chakra

to me the most curious aspect of 5 meo is the reactivation. different from a flashback, which can happen after any intense psychedelic experience. clearly 5 meo primes the user to have future breakthrough experiences, sober.

@Jowblob for sure consciousness affects the consensus world. there have been studies suggesting the ancient mind actually experienced supernatural entities talked about in folklore. look up the bicameral mind.

ketamine is definitely the most recreational drug I’ve taken, it’s even more recreational than weed imo

datura hallucinations are supposedly very realistic, think schizophrenia , having full on conversations with people before suddenly realizing they aren’t there. hence why a sitter is necessary

@billiesimon the geometry also tends to have an aliveness to it. geometry that are also alien entities. in my last trip I used a vape cart that I could keep hitting while already tripping hard and they would get excited and smile when I was gonna take another toke

that reminds me of this gem

that’s the one substance I personally would never do without a sitter. actual insanity for 6 hours

astral projection resources: intro to focus 10: helps to get in the mind awake body asleep mind state required. narrated by robert monroe who coined the out-of-body experience https://youtu.be/IeWH9u1-lD8 this is actually part two of the Gateway Experience tapes.

I nearly astral projected today as well. I could feel my astral body sit up out of my physical body after going into sleep paralysis during a nap. Man I wish I went deeper but fear got to me and I pulled myself out of it. a ringing sensation similar to the one I heard on DMT accompanies my sleep paralysis. makes me wonder about endogenous DMT and what happens “after” the body stops working.

one day I’ll have a proper breakthrough out of a bowl. one day I’ll get married. one day I’ll do everything.

think of a middle ages peasant going about their life. they live a brutal existence, but most of them don’t commit suicide. they instead create more humans who live in a slightly less brutal world. fast forward today, humans still deal with overwhelming amounts of suffering but most people don’t kill themselves and for the most part people who try to and fail are glad they failed. and I thought life was the problem. Lmao, fuck no. life is beautiful.

my previous experiences were extremely uncomfortable, tonight’s was joyous because I said YES to it and went deep yesterday’s trip I took a fat blinker followed by another big hit and got absolutely dickslapped. tonight I titrated, taking 3-4 second drags a few minutes apart for 10 - 15 ish minutes