Oppositionless

Damn I really thought I cooked with that one.

Anyone know if Portland is too progressive to do pickup? I love the natural beauty of the Pacific Northwest, and I actually enjoy overcast weather . None of the big "party cities" appeal to me in ways beyond pickup.

I hear women in NYC will approach you. Can anyone confirm? The angel on my shoulder wants to move somewhere with natural beauty and spirituality, the devil wants to move somewhere it's easy to pickup women.

What do you mean by more? Deeper levels of experience? Better understanding of reality? IMO both can always increase .

That's what everyone on this forum says but how many have actually realized? Seems like a lot of us just parrot Leo without actually becoming conscious.

Yeah . But Sugarcoat made a point that made me re-evaluate a bit. The part I forgot and left out was, my thinking was influenced by Bernardo Kastrup . In an interview he was asked about the afterlife and he compared it to being a total amnesiac in a sensory deprivation tank. That to me would be what I wouldn't want. An experience of nothing for eternity rather than simply not existing .

Father : the absolute Son : consciousness Holy Spirit : divine intelligence what do you think about that breakdown?

My life has been suffering but I feel like that's about to change. I'm moving to Oregon from the Bible Belt . I'm focusing on spirituality again, after a long time obsessed with pickup .

That's actually a really good point. Nonexistence would, in certain sense , be a lot better than life. I think I had a subtle belief that there would be an experience of nothingness, kinda like being in a k hole for eternity. But true nothingness wouldn't entail an experiencer.

I watched a YouTube video about the papaua New Guinea tribes. The interviewer asked what one of the men thought about gays, and he said that if his son was gay he'd kill him. I say this to try to dispel the progressive idolization of stage purple.

Gotcha, I thought you were a no self person. Because of the previous thread where you said consciousness was not the same as the absolute , I guess assumed that meant no continuity and total memory wipe after death. I'm glad you clarified . I feel like you're onto something , but for now it's just a belief, not an experience for me. I want it to become an experience.

I feel like you're on to something. The story of Jesus resonates with me. I'm not a Christian, but it still resonates. I believe he resurrected .

Maybe Jesus really rose from the dead. Still not gonna worship him .

Yes there's a sense that being human is a burden. I can't be satisfied , I have a strong dislike for myself sometimes. I want to open myself to something bigger. I sometimes thought I found it, but it's all belief, it's not experience. Psychedelics haven't worked on me as well as I would like, and I think that's because of my fears and resistance . I love the Christian narrative because there's no identity loss . Being human is a burden but I still crave an afterlife where I can see my mother's face, talk to my friends, still be human but it not be a burden .

No I was indoctrinated by Christianity growing up. Christianity doesn't care if you sin, all they care about is whether you accept Jesus Christ as your lord and savior. If you don't, straight to hell.

Do you think psychedelics and 5 meo dmt in particular can permanently erase the fear of losing the human identity?

I'm more afraid of being memory wiped than anything else . That just doesn't sound fun. When I'm dead I don't care no more. I think fear of death is really just a sign that something is wrong with the way I'm living.

How could consciousness (mind) be a construction of mind? so you think when you die that's it? Just the absolute without consciousness? How do you deal with that? Does it scare you? I got into spirituality because I'm afraid .

@Breakingthewall Do you agree guys with Leo that Death is Infinite Love? Stay conscious forever? Be in bliss ?

Maybe it's just my upbringing, I didn't think about Hell much after I left the church or even while I was in it, but it's been coming up seemingly out of nowhere lately. Yes more realistic is what I can see and interact with, consciousness.

I'm also, recently, afraid Christianity is true. The resurrection of Jesus may have actually happened and that freaks me out. Don't wanna go to hell when I die.

Good.

I'm in a cycle that feels unbreakable without a full blown death and rebirth experience. I can't stop making the wrong decisions constantly, so I've decided it's time to do 5 meo dmt. I'm ready, I need a new operating system.

I'm not sure I value truth . For example, if absolute truth was materialism and nihilism, I can't say for sure I would still value it. The fact that truth coincides with unconditional love and immortality , makes me question my motives . Maybe I don't value truth , maybe I just value immortality . I'm not sure. Then again, the materialist worldview doesn't actually seem that bad. Eternal sleep, no existential responsibility , no more drama . It's certainly better than the fear of going to hell, or kissing some dictator-god's ass for eternity . But if that was absolute truth, I don't think I'd value truth at all. Or I would, but only to the extent that it prevents punishment in hell.

I'm gonna be tripping soon, now I know what intention to set. To realize myself as God by transcending any form of reductionism. I wish I understood what you meant but working for it will be worth it. I guess my trouble is that I don't see how emptiness is God. Because it seems... dead. I can see how form is God, because it is self-organizing, but emptiness, that's a tough one. I think I'm attached to form ,because I don't want to die.