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So I actually was a really impressionable 19 year old, and I don't like to talk about this because it's embarassing, but i did attempt to become a breatharian. I think I went 5 days without food or water . If I recall correctly, the big breatharian teachers say the "transition" only takes three dry days. Well, I did 5 (or maybe 4.5) and nothing happened . I'm just glad I didn't die . I did it because I hate capitalism and wanted to not work and live in a cave.

People said Ramakrishna , maybe Ramana maharshi too, both would go long periods without breathing while in samadhi. Godarianism 😂 I don't think you can be a "high functioning" Godarian.

Purging can take many forms , it isn't just puking. Wriggling around on the floor and making guttural animal noises can be purging .

Faith means trust in something you aren't sure of, to me the use of faith in the spiritual path is having faith that truth can be realized.

I'm actually really jealous of you, because we're close to the same age I'm 26 and despite following this content for years I feel as if I haven't done shit with my life. Can't hit on anyone for shit when I go out. Gave up on music. Gave up on poetry. Haven't started a business . So you're doing good shit. Ive had an anxiety disorder that's more or less taken over my life just in the last couple months, seemingly out of nowhere. I am not sure what's caused it, all I know is 5 meo dmt seems to help more than anything else, but still it's very hard. Shit happens, I can't explain it, but it's still Good, at least, I trust it is, I have some limited experience that it is.

I just plugged 20 mg and , don't get me wrong I had a beautiful experience with lots of healing and felt my body drop a ton of anxiety I was holding, but I was a bit dissapointed there wasn't a profound God realization. Next time I will do 30. Actually looking back, NN dmt absolutely gave me God realization so maybe my nervous system is built to awaken on that molecule .

I just want one woman to marry but ego wants to feel like it earned it so it wants to rack up the numbers despite the heart not being in it.

All that from only 10 mg? Damn ! Good job.

You think you wouldn't suffer if you weren't born as a human ? For all you know you would incarnate as something worse if not human .

Because it's uncomfortable . Our entire judicial system is based on free will. All of morality assumes a doer. Society would have to change radically.

Very powerful psychedelic and more habit forming than others. You could end up living in another world for weeks on end if you're sensitive to it and not careful.

You don't know why you would create this. It's horrible . That's something you have to keep asking yourself .

I wish I could do it by will but it just happens. I got frustrated trying to practice it . It started happening after my first dmt trip.

I like 4 ho met a lot .

The emptiness has persisted... I did a number on my brain over the years, but trying to restart my meditation practice, tripping, and microdosing 4 ho met has been beneficial.

Psychonaut wiki tends not to have dosage information for plugging... is it , say, generally 10-15% more than instranasal?

My advice is if you start going out a lot and still can't break through the mental hurdle and approach, find a pickup guru (wingman) to transmit the vibe.

My experience is that exactly . The love aspect is something I had to get clean to start to see. 5 meo and NN help too.

People are fools if they say it that bluntly. The less foolish , but still incorrect in my experience , is that psychedelics don't permanently raise consciousness. Being addicted to weed made me conscious of solipsism. I'm still conscious of it 40 days sober.

I have this . I thought maybe it would be too hot for DMT.

I relate to you , meditation also works really well for me, I'm fortunate. I did a solo retreat when I was a teenager where I dissolved the sensory field into vibrating energy after just a few days. I'm just pretty undisciplined lol, hence the desire for the monastery. @Joshe my dominant function is extroverted , not introverted, intuition, I'm an ENTP.

How long have you been meditating , how consistently and what would you say your daily average has been. I don't care much for daily practice but you make me reconsider... still if I'm doing daily practice I feel it should be minimum 4 hours (that's the amount they do at the Zen monastery an hour from me, during not retreat weeks). I meditate for like 20 minutes to an hour , one to three times a week. But I want to go to the monastery, once I make save up enough money to not work for 6 months +, and stay there until I achieve permanent awakening, smoking 5 meo dmt in my apartment on my days off(tues and wed during non retreat weeks are free) ,

I'm gonna do like 8 mg nasal , so four sprays, and when that peaks I'm gonna hit the cartridge, next time. Yeah it just seems like the safest way for me to get it at the moment , there are reasons mostly related to my addiction history for why I don't use other avenues. My roommate doesn't have an e mesh, but he has a specialized pipe (idk what it's called) made for smoking dmt .

I have a nasal spray that is two mg of 5 meo dmt per spray . I was wondering if , to have a full release, I need to do my entire dose (say, 16-20 mg) at once, or if I can ease into a break through by taking one to two pumps every couple minutes. From what I understand nasal lasts around 45 minutes , and there is no tolerance, so theoretically a breakthrough could be achieved gradually.