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I don't know if you still stuggle with this but I went thourgh the same thing at pretty much the same time ( like 2 months ago). I know how it feels... the mirror soul, your reflektion choosing someone else. It feels like all hope is gone cause the one person who was meant for you don't love you. Here is the thing though, she is most likely not your twin flame ( if that even exsist). She is a karmic relationship. Your Ego is familiar with her energies from a past life. ( if that's what you want to belive atleast). Here is the solution; you need to take back your worth. SHE WON'T FULLFILL YOU. She is not your savior or your second half. You need to find someone who loves you, and if she don't love you for you, then she is garbage either way. Than she is not worth your time. Cut her out from your life ( I know you don't want too, but you need to take back your control). You have your life to live, don't sell it to someone who don't see the value in you. You got this man!

I want a girlfriend, not just sex lol. Porn is super toxic and a hooker is not the right answer. I hear what you're saying though - find a real relationship and find a way to deal with the cravings and prejudices til then. Thanks for your reply!

@Thestarguitarist14 Yeah for sure! The problem however is that my ego desires a girlfriend ( not only sex). It's like the hierarchy of needs. I know it wont fulfill me logically but if I disregard sex and getting a girlfriend my ego probably wont be able to transcend itself. My ego is probably not ready to let go. So the question is, should I spirituality purify myself to then feel more secure to get girls + go out and be social or should I skip the spiritual purification for right now and just focus on getting a girlfriend. What's your thoughts?@Leo Gura

@The0Self yeah lol

Thanks for the tip man!?I'll look it up!

@TripleFly Thanks a lot man for your words of encouragement. Very inspiring and I agree 100%. I will try mirror gazing for sure. ?

@hamedsf yeah, that's what I am thinking! But what if this leads to me fucking myself up cause if I am starting to do yoga aswell, I will go hardco into awaking work and I don't know if my ego is ready for it. I mean in many ways, I think it is but I ( my ego desperately want sex and therefor my ego wont fully let go). I don't wanna stagnate on a kudanlini awaking and get depressed you know lol. Thanks for your answer though!

@Recursoinominado yeah man! I strongly agree, and thank you. My plan is to socialize my ass of aswell, but I wanna become more authentic and attract girls by being myself. I wanna solve the root cause. I wanna fix the reason why I even need girls to then be able to get girls lol

@Username Thank you bro and yup, it's 100 % ego. But the problem is, if I don't solve this deep attatchment in me, my ego will crave sex and girls. I am obseesed ( I have a strong ego) and I want it, want it want it. The solution is therefoe either becoming less obseesed and than getting girls via conciousnnes work or getting girls via only focusing on getting girls so that I than burn the desire out of my system. The problem with alternativ 2 is however that if I am obseesed ( needy) getting girls becomes a bigger challange than if I become less needy. Which way is the smartest do you Think? Personaly I Think it's a combo of both.

@JosephKnecht I really hope so hahah. I wonder however if my ego can handle it going though it this way or if I ( as god, myself?) should start with Only focusing on getting girls and success via going ont. I wanna go the direct route via ego work and than become less needy via that and than get a girlfriend ( cause I know It wont fullfill me) but I don't know if it's that smart. What do you Think?