SamC

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  1. Yup I get it mate. A couple of months ago I thought I had meet my twin flame. Our connection was amazing.. like so fucking good, we knew eachother so well and could just sit in eachothers presence in order to gain energy and understanding about how we both felt. She friendzoned me though big time and I was heartbroken and cried rivers 3 days in a row.. It doesn't matter, she is not as good as you think she is. She won't fulfill you at all, even if you think she would. 1: there are 100000 girls who are 10000 times far better than her and who will love you for your authentic personality.Go out and fucking find them 2: Realize and try to become directly aware that you don't need anyone to be fulfilled. That you as a man is already everything you need to be.
  2. Been there, done that and it sucks. What has helped me is to realize that there are an abundance of girls out there and that this girl is not as amazing as you think. I get that it feels like no one will be as good as her but thats bullshit. If she don't like you - then you don't want her anyway. This channel and video has helped me a lot. There are a lot of guys who have experienced similar things like you mate. You have the power to go out there and learn how to attract even better girls than her. Good luck!
  3. The first few months of my journy was awsome, then I hit my first ego backlash. After this my mood and life started fluctuate a lot more. Now my life in general consist of a couple of weeks feeling happy followed by a couple of days of an ego backlash ( down). Sometimes it can even be more up and down than that - where I can experience bliss and peace one day to then feel super anxious the next day ( spells of depression/ mood swings) My question is therefor, How often does ego backlash generally happen? What is your experience with ego backlashes? How do you guys motivate yourself when you experience mood swings going from high conciousness to low conciousness? P.s I meditate 40 min everyday + wim hof method.
  4. Last week or so, I came to the realization of something interesting. I was meditating and then it somehow hit that I am not the body or the mind - but the layer behind it. I am the awarness aka everything which is just experiencing itself. This was not enlightenment or a mystical experience in that sense though, it was just an insight but I think I am onto a start of atleast being able to see a tiny tiny glimpse of what is ahead of my journey. I understand I don't know the truth, I comprehend that I am not even close to enlightenment but it makes me wonder. What do I get, and how close am I to really get it? What is your experience with these insights that are not mystical in that sense? Have anyone realized or experienced anything similar? I am trying to figure out some sort of a road map on where I am on this spiritual journey - so all help, tips and thoughts are greatly appreciated. (: All love @Leo Gura
  5. Interesting @electroBeam . Is it the same type of thoughts that come back when you experience ego backlashes or have you let go of some the neurosis that you started with. ( have your ego backlashes changed or is it the same stuff that mer på coming back) True
  6. I feel peaceful and unbothered by my thoughts, emotions and life and that I am the awarness. Everything feels perfect as it is and then the next hour or day baam, I am dragged back to low conciousness and my old self (anxiety, fear, temptations, cravings, judging, old beliefs ect)
  7. I am sorry that you had to go thourgh that preety. I don't know anything about you or your situation but I belive that one of the reasons why you struggle to forgive him is because you struggle to forgive yourself. I belive that you still deep down inside is still angry, frustrerad and judgeing at yourself and that you theirfor project your anger towards him. ( not saying that he isn't an asshole, but you feel like a victim because of what he did) If you hate others you hate yourself... If you judge others you are judgeing yourself ect and I believe that here is the starting point. To be able to love yourself, forgive yourself and not judge yourself for who you are and accept the moment ( life as it is) I am working this out myself, and I see the same patterns in myself. Tryng to live more in the now, self compassion and experincing my emotions through mindfulness + journaling about them have helped me a lot, I think It might help you aswell all love (:
  8. That's the real paradox
  9. I seek understanding because I fear being incapable Here is an article that explains what I mean.(: https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-5
  10. My psychologist said 2 weeks ago that the reason why I try to understand life ia to find a solution to my problems and that I therefor should stop to overanalyze everything cause it creates more anxiety. This led me to an existential crisis, cause trying to understand is basically my bread and butter in life. My whole life purpose, my values and identity revolves around UNDERSTANDING... I am so confused. I can't just throw out my whole identity.. or well I can but I dont think I am ready for that. I understand that I later need to question everything in order to get to the truth, but why then even try to understand anything at all. Why actualized.org? Why try to understand science? Why to do anything? And even more, if I then instead just should live in the present and let go of trying to understand... what's up with my life purpose of trying to understand? What's up with the meaning that I created in life? I don't have anything to anquer my life too.. which is fine, but am I really ready to let go of all meaning? If I don't try to understand I feel like I repress my identity. Wow, I am so confused.. but I kinda like the mindfuck aswell. I would love some guidence though.. What is your take on this? @Leo Gura
  11. Ahh lol. Well it drives me forward but it's self destructive so it's better to let it go and be more in the moment I think. It serves me in many ways
  12. Yes, but that's equivalent to raising your conciousness right? ( a shift from thinking to being). Then my psychologist is pointing me in the right direction counterintuitively anyway while still being wrong about the seeking for metaphysicial understanding. ( cause that's a different desire) I probably have both then. Both ego desire for understanding and an authentic desire for truth and understanding which I only can get from letting go of the ego desire anyway. He is pointing at the ego/ fear side of overthinking which is hindering me - but neglect the nuances
  13. Some examples. 1:How female attraction works. 2: How a certain thing is 3: which people like me and which people don't. In all of the 3 exampels above I get stability in knowing how a certain thing works and therefor I can manipulate the world to make sure I am safe and uphold my identity as being special for knowing stuff and being " smart". Awareness alone is something different though. It's more being in the know and from there not knowing anything but at the same time knowing everything cause you are the thing. In other words, I overthink - but that doesn't mean I shouldn't seak understanding - just be in the present moment more instead of in my head cause it's limited anyway.
  14. Yes By trying to understand in order to create a sense of stability, meaning and control.
  15. I agree but maybe it's not black and White. Maybe he is right in one perspective but right in another