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Core issue I think of when seeing this post is that you dont know yourself well enough to build an authentic vision for your life. If I were in your position I would use that money to get training in areas that excite me , things I inherently want to do, skills or competencies that I am drawn to, while at the same time developing an understanding of my self by answering these questions and ones similar to them. What do I really want out of life? What would I regret not doing in life? What thing do I love to do that I can do for long periods of time without getting tired? What energizes me? if you sit down for an hour or two and really flesh out the answers, that will help a lot, do this 10-20 more times and you'll understand yourself and what to do much deeper.

Inspire them with a vision they believe in, so they come to work for themselves. Center everything in the business in that vision, that "Why"

Oh man... here's a list, not in any order Ate part of a pineapple skin on out of curiosity. really tore up my lips Peed on a sidewalk during a rainstorm Tore up my blinds and almost kicked out that window Asked some strangers if I could punch them Asked my roommate to rub my toes Peed my pants out of curiosity Woke up all my roommates by going in their rooms at 2 in the morning Man I was a fool.. lol, learned a lot about post trip acceptance/self-love.

One way of looking at it is that its intelligence is a mirror of the questions asked of it by humans.

other ways I am using it. Researching specific niches Researching societal impacts of my life-purpose researching whether or not my "purple cow" is actually remarkable shit testing my ideas Practice quizzes based on study guides for school

Branding Content ideas Articulating ways my vision will impact the world Planning Studying Broad overviews Skill building

Well, its the beginning of a new year, am I still on track? Yes! Aside from thanksgiving and a run in with a white chocolate bar and three uber processed "granola bars." I have continued to eat gluten free, dairy free, no added sugar, and no processed food. Energy levels are consistent and amazing. Today was day 1 of term two at school. Very excited to continue

Hi Actualizing crew! Context of solo retreat: Alone in an Airbnb in rural Idaho, no internet, no phone, laptop used as a word processer (commonplace book,) and my camera for recording insights. Here is a list of insights that I feel are important to communicate. Visioning. One of the reasons creating an authentic, emotionally compelling vision for my Life has been so difficult is because I haven't had the life experience to know what is meaningful to me, what is emotionally compelling, or what I really want. On top of that, never before have I spend so much time reflecting, thinking, compiling and stitching together so many diverse threads into one "cohesive" vision. For my vision to be authentic, it has to be mine and no one else's, yes there may be parts of it similar to others, or even direct copies IF it is in alignment with my values and my authentic self. One of the reasons it hasn’t felt emotional is because up until this articulation, it has just been "a" vision, not MY vision. The more specific I am with what I want in life, the more motivated I become to put in the effort to actualize it. All parts welcome. During the retreat there were 3 different DMT sessions, one of which, I was reflecting on a mistake I had made, and a part said, "we'll just keep some parts hidden," another part spoke up and said, "why not let them all out?" As soon as I said that, I felt this part of me that felt 4 maybe 5 years old, and raging mad, he was so full of the rage that he wasn’t allowed to be mad as a kid, and was surprised to be out in the open, loved and welcomed as a part of the whole. My Why. I love Simon Sinek, his perspective on branding, a just cause, life purpose and a WHY, really resonates with me. It's been almost exactly 4 years since I started the life purpose course for the first time (LOL.) During those years, I have taken it 4 maybe 5 more times and have yet to finish it. Each time however I gained more clarity, and more understanding of WHY I am alive, and what I really believe the world needs. Somewhere during this retreat it clicked, my why is a vision of the future, "I imagine a world full of people that love themselves unconditionally, and make choices to live in alignment with their values and Vision." my mission statement then becomes, "To Play music that articulates the wisdom of Self-Love and Authenticity." I fully recognize this isn't something I will see fully actualized in my human lifetime, there's a lot more people in the world then I can impact in one life, that’s okay. There will be further iterations of both this vision and my mission statement, and that is awesome! For now, this is the most authentic it has ever been. I think much too small. (Yet I am still worthy of love.) During this retreat there were moments when it felt like my mind was getting blown up like a balloon, expanding, allowing bigger, more expansive thoughts into my consciousness. It doesn't feel like "I" was having these ideas, it felt like it was happening, and I was witnessing it.. So maybe I was having these thoughts… unclear An example of this is the impact I want to have on the world. Much too small. I have been thinking of the impact I want to have on people in my generation, boys and girls raised Christian, born between '97 and '04, trained to be closed minded, etc.. Now I am realizing that if I actualize my life purpose to the degree I am capable of, the ones directly impact by my work will go on to mature, live authentic lives and learn to love themselves unconditionally, AND have children of their own, that they will raise with those values, these children will go on to be world changers and evolutionaries, imagine the second, third, fourth generation! The ripple effect of my life purpose is limited only by me and my mind. Realizing this and writing it out during the retreat was stream of consciousness, my mind was thinking, "holy shit, that is so cool, imagine that, IMAGINE THAT!!!" and Reality is sitting there with a cosmic grin. I love ME. I have been denying who I am for most of my life, which is why I value Authenticity and Self-Love so fucking much. I spent so much of my life from 7/8-20 rejecting myself, being inauthentic, people pleasing, sacrificing my own values and vision to make others "happy." During this retreat there was a deep connection between Paul, the identity, and whatever is "with" that identity, being with it, watching and observing, always close. And it was beautiful to see, and be. I love being myself, I am tired of needing be different to love myself, fuck that, I love myself now, as I am, from the size of my nose to my beautiful crooked smile, to my eyes and my ears, to my personality and my weaknesses, the parts still hidden in shadow, the unconsciousness and consciousness. All of it, worthy of love as is. "I AM with you, as YOU are" Spiritual cleansing. I got a palpable sense of how much cleansing my ego must go through to access deeper levels of reality. It's not that they aren't there now, it's more that my mind is too rigid to fathom it, my mind is too locked up to allow it in. This is not a judgement of myself, I am here now, I am supposed to be here now, if I was meant to be fully awakened now, I would be, I am not. Which is heartbreaking and super exciting. Time alone means… Time to think about my life, where it is going, where it has been, what I have done well, what I can improve, vision, and dream. Puzzle pieces to fall into place and connect: It feels like so many little nuggets fell into place this retreat. Reminded me of Leo's 6th Blog post. "Sometimes learning a fact is enough to make an entire series of corroborating details, previously unrecognized, fall into place." — Jorge Luis Borges Being bored, detaching from stimulus Growth Falling off track. I already know there will be an ego backlash when I re-enter my normal life, and I am aware that I will probably lose touch with the concentrated, focused state I am in now, and that is okay, to me this was the second bite of a delicious appetizer. The full meal will be in 3-5 years when I can take 2-4 of these a year. I realize that the habits I do have in place, are the baseline I will fall to, so even when I do "fall off the horse," there is "padding" to stop me from hitting ground bottom. All in all, fuck being inauthentic, Be True.

Love this analysis, This is my first exposure to him, and watched his video "I would not like to get into a fight with this person" "Is it necessary to be so aggressive, loud, and "over the top?" As I listened though, I am hearing a wisdom in his words built though challenging experience, I also see a level of inspiration in him, motivation to actualize his purpose, that inspires me. Very interesting character, Now I wanna watch more

interesting.. Prompt: write a song using nature principles to articulate the journey of someone healing from childhood trauma from the perspective of an unconditionally loving older version of that person. Verse 1: I used to be broken, my heart filled with pain I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders, it was all that remained But now I stand tall, my roots deep in the earth I've learned to let go, and let my wounds give birth Chorus: I am the wind, blowing free and wild I am the fire, burning bright and strong I am the water, flowing endlessly I am the earth, grounded and at peace Verse 2: I used to be lost, searching for my way I held onto anger, it seemed to be all that I could say But now I see clearly, the light shining in my eyes I've learned to forgive, and embrace my life Chorus: I am the wind, blowing free and wild I am the fire, burning bright and strong I am the water, flowing endlessly I am the earth, grounded and at peace Bridge: I've learned to trust the journey, and let go of control I've found my strength in surrender, and let my heart unfold I am healing, I am whole I am love, and I am free Chorus: I am the wind, blowing free and wild I am the fire, burning bright and strong I am the water, flowing endlessly I am the earth, grounded and at peace

@spiritual memes Reframed your question Prompt: Explain how to solve the hard problem of consciousness? The problem of consciousness, or the question of how and why we have subjective experiences, is one of the most challenging and enigmatic issues in philosophy and science. It is not yet fully understood, and there is ongoing debate and research in this area. One approach to understanding consciousness is through the study of neuroscience, which investigates the brain and its functions. Researchers in this field have made significant progress in understanding the brain mechanisms that underlie various mental states, such as perception, attention, and memory. However, it is not yet clear how these brain mechanisms give rise to subjective experiences, and the relationship between brain activity and consciousness remains an open question. Another approach to understanding consciousness is through the study of philosophy and metaphysics, which involve theoretical and abstract thinking about the nature of reality. Philosophers have proposed a variety of theories about consciousness, including dualism, which posits that consciousness is a separate entity from the physical body, and materialism, which argues that consciousness is a product of the brain and its functions. Ultimately, the problem of consciousness is a complex and multifaceted issue, and it may take a combination of approaches from various fields of study to fully understand it. While we may not yet have all the answers, the study of consciousness is an active and vibrant area of research that continues to generate new insights and ideas.

Holy fuck... Prompt: Explain how authentic music sharing wisdom about reality could impact people Music that shares wisdom about reality can have a powerful impact on people, as it can help them to understand and connect with their own experiences and emotions in a deeper way. Authentic music that speaks to the truth of the human experience can help people to feel seen and understood, and can provide a sense of comfort and validation. Music that shares wisdom about reality can also inspire people to think more deeply about their own lives and the world around them. It can stimulate critical thinking and encourage people to reflect on their own values, beliefs, and actions. By offering a different perspective on the world, music that shares wisdom about reality can inspire people to make positive changes in their lives and to be more mindful and aware of the impact they have on others and the world around them. Overall, authentic music that shares wisdom about reality has the potential to be a transformative and empowering force in people's lives, helping them to better understand themselves and the world around them and inspiring them to live more meaningful and fulfilling lives.

Prompt: Explain how to be a remarkable human Being Being a remarkable human involves consistently demonstrating qualities that set you apart in a positive way. Here are a few ways to strive for remarkability: Be kind and compassionate: Show empathy towards others and strive to make a positive impact on their lives. Work hard and be diligent: Set high standards for yourself and strive to achieve them through hard work and dedication. Be authentic and genuine: Be true to yourself and genuine in your interactions with others. Cultivate a growth mindset: Seek out new challenges and learning opportunities, and be open to feedback and self-improvement. Be a good listener: Pay attention to others and truly listen to what they have to say. Practice gratitude: Take time to appreciate the good things in your life and express gratitude to others. Be proactive and take initiative: Don't wait for things to happen, take charge and make things happen. By consistently demonstrating these qualities, you can strive to be a remarkable human and make a positive impact on the world around you.

Prompt: Explain how to build an emotionally compelling, authentic vision for my life. Building an emotionally compelling and authentic vision for your life involves identifying your values, goals, and passions and aligning them with your actions and behaviors. Here are some steps you can follow to help you build a vision for your life: Reflect on your values: Start by taking some time to reflect on what's important to you. What do you value most in life? What do you believe in? Your values will serve as the foundation for your vision and guide your decisions and actions. Identify your goals: Next, think about what you want to achieve in your life. What do you want to accomplish? What do you want to experience? Make a list of your goals and prioritize them based on what's most important to you. Find your passion: What do you love to do? What makes you feel alive and fulfilled? Identifying your passions and incorporating them into your vision can help you create a life that's meaningful and fulfilling. Align your actions with your vision: Once you have a clear sense of your values, goals, and passions, it's important to align your actions with your vision. This means making choices and taking actions that are in line with what you want to achieve and who you want to be. Stay true to yourself: Building an authentic and emotionally compelling vision for your life means staying true to yourself and not letting external pressures or expectations dictate your choices. Don't be afraid to take risks and pursue your passions, even if they're unconventional or outside the norm.

Song #7: As I Am: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1F27Lgxl2xEn6021tgOh8bDc1PogFkKoW/view?usp=share_link Realizing that Love, means loving myself as I am, whether I behave consciously or not, warts and all. This is how it feels to Love your self, Enjoy. Listen Deep.

Welcome to the unreleased catalog of (Rough finished) music of Waking Authenticity. One medium of The life purpose of me (Paul Wyatt.) While I am in LMT School, I will not have the time to properly release/build a fanbase, so this will do until the time comes to strategically give these sonic gifts of love, to the world. The purpose of releasing them is to help me overcome my perfectionism, fear of rejection via creative output, as well as to share them with you, as they may impact you, help you, inspire you, and lead to breakthroughs of love. Rough finished = not mixed or mastered.

Hi, Actualizing crew, Lately I have noticed my mind really looking for and finding ways to distract myself, with shallow pointless YouTube videos, porn, watching more movies, and generally speaking, feeling drawn to keep my mind busy. I am looking for perspective, higher level wisdom or personal experience to shed light on what could be happening, why my mind is trying to distract me, and what mindset shifts may need to happen to pass through this. For context I am Working 26-28 hours a week Going to school around 23-26 hours a week, (18 hours of class, 5-8 hours of study/homework.) Investing around 50-70 minutes into meditation, stretching, and going for walks as my morning routine Playing music around 3-6 hours a week There are a few different perspectives I am recognizing/actions I could take. To accept what I am doing, the behavior, and try to exhaust it. To force myself to quit them all To cut back on my time with those distractions and make more time for other, more productive and fulfilling things. Judgment for not living up to my ideals, of filling my time 100% with productive and life purpose related things, meditating more, playing more music, etc.. Seeing it as a phase I am going through on my journey, not to freak out or take any drastic action, but to experience it and try to learn from it. Question deeply why I am distracting myself, this one is scary and seems like a lot of work (especially in contrast to the high pleasure activities my mind is filling with.) Look for the needs these behaviors are fulfilling, try and meet those needs in more conscious ways. Big picture, its all good, I intuit that over the course of 5-20 years, it will become clear what stage this is, what to do or not do, and I will continue with my routines, and this path, curious to hear what you have to say!

Thank you for sharing, since posting this thread I am slowly noticing a similar trend. Though still distracting myself, awareness of it is increasing during. I have force stopped in the past, and it works! short term at least but for me it also uses a lot of willpower, and can be draining. I want to see if there is another, more balanced way. @flowboy Hey, thank you for this thoughtful reply! I resonate a lot with those fears you described, one I would add is fear of succeeding, in school I have been doing better then I ever did in highschool, and its scary, it feels like resistance to doing the work to continue excelling. As for the approach, making time to be away from distraction intentionally, I love that, recently booked an 8 day solo retreat, that being one of the purposes of it. something tells me a solution is more likely to come through introspection and solitude. I find myself mostly distracting myself from playing music, writing songs, mixing or mastering already finished songs. That and studying, I do my homework, but I dont really study more then necessary to ace the test... If past solo retreats are a barometer of how this one will go, I am excited for the clarity to come. Tried it, here's what happened. Sitting, consciously let of of any details about myself that I could think of. Then asked the question, "What am I distracting myself from?" A few random thoughts, then... "Love." and with it came a visual of an orb with a prickly pointed surface, it was black and pulsating. A slight fear was oozing out of it. Thoughts then come "What if it is too much for me to handle, what if its too big, what if I get crushed, what if I die if I let it in, what if its edges cut me, what if its as horrific and terrible as life can be.. etc.. very interesting. "What is that fear?" "Fear of changing, I am afraid because I am changing so fast, what if nothing of my old self remans? What if I cant recognize myself any more?" Very very interesting.. Thank you

Why is it important for you to know?

Big picture, taking a gap year may be a huge positive, if you work towards moving out, you will learn so much about yourself, you will become more independent and start to experience more of life. Graduating at 23 is still very young. It sounds like there is a lot more going on then just failing the exam, I would say, at 18, start building a clear vision of what you want in life. First practical step? make the decision to move out, then work towards it, if that means getting a job, saving money, etc.. do that. You have no idea how big the world is when you live with your parents. I moved out at 18, and it was one of the best decisions I have ever made.

Only danger I can think of is increasing doses over time into actual mini-moderate doses could hinder the day to day.

Don’t be toxic to eachother. Do your best to understand where they are coming from, it does not need to be an argument.

I had a similar question, here’s the thread, great stuff on here.

Hi Actualizing crew, I am starting to burn out, and I dont know why or what to do. I am finding myself more and more drawn to distracting myself, procrastination, and unfulfilling activities when I do have any "free"/in between time, and it is leaving me drained, emotionally, physically and creatively. I am also noticing my sleep schedule as being off, sleeping less then necessary to perform the way I want to at school and work and in my personal life. Context: (where I am at/What I am doing) 24, decently fit, eating decently healthy Working 35 hours a week as a cook. Going to school full time for massage therapy, now 4 weeks in. (18 hours of class, 10-16 hours study/homework.) Continuing to meditate at least 15 minutes in busy days, up to 30 on others. Taking a walk in the morning 4 times a week. Creating music around 2-3 hours a week Meal prepping around 2 hours a week Biking to school 3 days a week (around 2 hours of biking) Reading (outside of textbooks) around 2 hours a week. YouTube, Averaging 2-3 hours a week Phone, averaging 1.2 hours a day Watching about 1 movie a week Jerking off 3-7 times a week Context: (Why I am doing it) I am working full time to pay my bills, and going to massage school to become a LMT. My long term vision is to be an independent Music artist, to play music that expands peoples consciousness of their self by expressing Authenticity with Music. I want a stable, low hour, high impact, well paying job as the next chapter of my career, allowing me to invest 20-25 hours into my Life purpose (Music.) I want to impact people with massage, I see it as a manual/physical way to bring awareness back to their self, for them to experience themselves from new perspectives and understand why they are the way they are. I want to be financially free, stable, and have a healthy psychology of money. I want to meet my basic needs so I can Self-Actualize on a new level. I see this chapter as setting up the foundation to build my life into my Zone of genius (Songwriting) I am feeling overwhelmed, unsure whether I can keep it up for the 15 months of school, scared of what would happen if I burn out, excited for school, sad I am not out in nature more, I miss playing music every day, I miss having more free time, I feel my mind is breaking itself trying to figure out what is going on, I feel myself changing, I feel ego Backlashes like I haven't felt before. And I am not sure what to do. I am really trying to accept myself through this, love myself through this, remove the NEED to perform or be perfect through this, to allow myself to express my feelings and love all of that. I know that I will be okay, maybe this is just a transition period, or not, I dont know, either way, I know in the end I will be fine. What do you see in this? What perspective/wisdom would you add? What would you do differently? What resources have helped you with burnout? Thanks for considering replying, All the best, I send to you desire to be authentic, and love <3