Realms of Wonder

Great questions! Hmm, I dont feel mature hahaha. But relatively speaking, I am more than that 19 year old. I would probably tell him. Choosing an Authentic Life is an option. Its okay that you dont know what you want and that you feel behind. It is going to work out. The challenges you are facing are preparing you. Love yourself more. Enjoy being unconscious, they are good times too. To the second question, I dont know man... For me, I can tell a marked difference between how I could think at 18-21 and now. Its like my mental vision was nearsighted at those ages (Prefrontal cortex not yet fully developed I'd imagine.) But, I think its a factor, but not inherently. If I would have done nothing with my last 7.5 years, I would be the same age but less wise. 7.5 years can be used to gain experience, make mistakes, choices and solve problems. Or it can be used on a video game world and no real world change. In the end I think the maturity difference is really because I am 7.5 years more experienced. But hey, maybe in 7.5 years I will disagree with what I just wrote, lets find out Warmly, Paul

Thanks Its been really messy, still is to some degree, but is are the cliff-notes version of the last 7 years. Don't forget to sprinkle a few kg of uncertainty, fear, loneliness, overwhelm, and emotional discomfort on top of this pile. I'll keep it as big picture as I can. LIMBO I dropped out of college, was introduced to Psychedelics and actualized.org at 19. I tripped a lot, investing in the life purpose course that new year. Around my 20th birthday, I realized I needed to move if I was going to actualize my potential, so I got a second job and started saving. 7 months later I moved to Portland Oregon. Chose inauthenticity by joining a MLM Cult for 9 months, (was in denial about the cult mechanics for a long time,) but chose authenticity, leaving to explore life and try and build this life purpose thing. Started building habits: meditation, Humor Practice, going for a walk. Got a job in a new career (Barista work,) and went on my first Solo Retreat around new years of 2020 (I was 21.) Coming out of the solo retreat with clarity and commitment to my life purpose (still super fuzzy at the time.) THE BEGINNING Started producing music as COVID hit (Life purpose at the time was to create music that connects people the beauty and wonder of reality.) During the next year I faced a lot of social anxiety as a barista, started dating, kept creating music. Took another Solo retreat the next new year, (Got COVID, used it strategically.) Got a second job to save money, then quit both to work at a gym, then quit the gym because it went against my values. Moved to Pennsylvania to work at a summer camp for the summer of 2021. (Met my current GF there.) When I returned to Portland I got a job as a cook (again,) and started releasing music and posting on Instagram. (Life purpose at the time was to Create music that gives people the courage to face their self.) I did that for 6 months, then decided to quit all social media (Including YT) and just face myself deeply. Leading to a pretty deep existential crisis. (I was doing a LOT of DMT at the time.) During this "dark time, I realized that I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, not really, and that my current path wasn't going to lead me to living my life purpose. (At the time called "Waking Authenticity," with a vision to make the world more authentic) I also wrote my first album during this time. Coming out of that slump, I made a strategic choice to become a Licensed Massage therapist, aligning my day job more with my values, and giving me more free time to work on my LP. I went to school for 1.25 years, then passed the licensing exam, and got two jobs as a massage therapist. THE BEGINNING OF THE MIDDLE After a few months of transition period, 6 months ago I started releasing videos on YouTube and writing music again. Kept it up until today, learning, growing in both quality, value and excitement. Whew! This is not concise, but let me know if you have any questions Warmly, Paul

Impressive. how detailed are your outlines? basic points, examples, rebuttals? or is it scripted word for word.. what’s the balance between structure and ‘lettin’ her rip?’

Floor to ceiling windows in my master bedroom, I dream of waking to rain rivulets running down the window. Washer and Dryer Accessible from Master bathroom, so I can dry off and put on fresh, warm clothes right from the dryer. A big lawn to mow and when I have kids (in 10-15 years,) they have room to run around and play, sports, get dirty, etc.. Be close to a stream or source of water. A Large Garden out back. 20-30 minutes from the closest city. Aesthetic lighting in all rooms Lighting that automatically changes color to fit my sleep cycle. A Music Studio in the center of the house, All the equipment I need. Wood Floors and soft carpets

I do the majority of my creative work in the morning because… same! Waking up at 5 means I can get 1-2 hours of high quality work done before I head out for my job.

is it important for your work to also make an impact?

I have a job and a ton of creative work to focus on. At the right time, the next solo retreat will happen. I hope you time is profound

Like what? What specifically? and did you do the action steps in the Life Purpose course?

what small, practical step can you take today?

Any specific domain to ask questions within?

I want to understand. your zone of genius is to ask the right questions?

just a perspective here, question it and me. Talent does exist, but talent is not usually the defining factor in success. Talent is often like starting 100-200 feet ahead, in an ultra marathon (50k or more.) in most cases what matters more is practice, investment into that thing over the course of 5-20 years. In the case of looks, often, even an "ugly guy" can work on his body and build his mind into something extremely attractive. By investing into it over the course of 5-10 years. You need to pop this bubble that things just are the way they are and cant change. Warmly, Paul

Great direction to head! Everyone sucks to some degree when they start. My perspective would be to make crappy videos! why would your first 1-20 be good? Try reading from a script, try it without, try writing cliff notes, post the videos, move on, keep learning. Practically though, if I am reading from a script it usually takes 4-6 recordings before I land on one that is good enough. momentum is gained, the articulation becomes easier, looking at the script less necessary. Have you released any videos yet? All the best! Paul

What do you create?

Thanks for sharing these! I've never had projects to apply these ideas/techniques to till now, its amazing.

Well done by starting and continuing on with YouTube, it is quite a journey! Best Resources I have come across are... https://www.youtube.com/@ThatNateBlack Down to earth, fun, wise, unique perspectives. https://www.youtube.com/@makeartnotcontent Original Ideas on making Art https://www.youtube.com/@YCImaging Startup, gear, cinematography https://www.youtube.com/@aliabdaal Specific videos for YouTube. All the best to you! Warmly, Paul

How do you think you can help the world by playing poker?

Love this move! and Viggo Mortenson! Another great movie with him in it inspired by true events. Amazing to see this characters growth and expansion of concern for others. Funny, heavy and profound at times, and great acting.

https://www.youtube.com/@Batgap Buddha at the Gas Pump, could be interesting! Tagline from the YT Channel "Conversations with Spiritually Awakening People..." Also from the YT channel. "To suggest a guest, refer to our website: https://batgap.com/future-interviews/suggest-guest/. Please do not email your suggestions."

Why not? The biggest thing that comes to mind is the power dynamic. Similar to why its illegal for therapists to have sex with their clients until two years after the termination of the therapeutic relationship.

I love that it is sung live, the guitar playing is consistent and solid, well done, I admire the effort you put into this. for feedback, if I were to work on this song... I would create new lyrics to a similar or slightly different melody for the second and third verse. I would look up some song structures to get an idea of how to make it engaging and non-repetitive. The part "I, always love you, etc.." would be awesome leading into a bridge with different chords. it could be just the word "I" sung longer, more space to let the guitar stand out, if possible, find new strumming/picking styles for the chorus so it stands out more experiment with different levels of energy. the beginning could be strummed chords and slower the first chorus could break into a more upbeat picking pattern and a bit faster continue picking pattern and speed for second chorus etc.. make it dynamic. overall, great job for creating and sharing, I am proud of you! Warmly, Paul

Cripps Pink Apples. though, sadly I cant eat them right now, SIBO/Fodmaps I miss them dearly. hopefully soon I can enjoy the crispy, tart and sweet bites of heaven with some peanut butter <3

I met my current girlfriend while exploring my life purpose. I wasn't looking for it, I had basically decided I was done trying to date, and was just going to focus on my work, and we met, stayed friends long distance for a year, then she came to visit after a year of us deepening our connection, and I asked her to be my girlfriend, that was 1.8 years ago. Its incredible having someone that supports and believe in me. in my vision, in my art, in my life purpose.

You're wrong.. I am actually 6% as productive as I could be