Realms of Wonder

'The way we see a problem, IS the problem.' - Stephan covey

Leaning deeper into those practices, good advice. That's quite a song, and that picture is spectacular. Thank you

Use the Forum Facetime my parents Read Go for walks Cook food Play Music Listen to Music Sit Meditate Ask myself questions Watch movies that inspire me, motivate me, or have a great message OR great Music. Eat food Text

Google it. Or you can buy Leo's booklist and read the 5 star ones. https://actualized.org/books

Generally, yes. Interesting to see. I could be wrong, but I like to think of psychedelics as a sort of elevator through the spiral, not for many, but for some, it can give a view of the vista of a new level/stage. Not for many though.

Oh heart, why did I doubt you? Oh song, why did I silence you? Oh Mind, Why did I believe you? Oh well, I'll die soon. My heart yearns to express itself in new ways, ways that others and myself cant even imagine. I see myself living in a way that no one understands but me, not needing anyone to care. Because I care. I care about Authenticity. I care about Beauty I care about Wisdom and Love, and Purpose and health, Truth, and God. I care about what I CARE ABOUT. And nothing else matters. Its okay if I die alone. Because I am already dead, and always alone. Its okay if people shit on my music, its not mine, I just play it. Its fine if others dont like me, because I am learning to love myself as I am. So what if they hate me, I love myself. So what if they doubt me, I doubt me too! So what if this life is just pointless, that's fine, I'll keep creating, playing music till I die.

Very interesting questions. At work, I am constantly bombarded with the "right" way to do things. The people around me are very experienced, and I am still learning to trust myself, quite a combo. Lately I have been intentionally verifying what they say, so I know for myself that it is true. I live alone now, and that is partially where this question comes from, the solitude and space brings a sense that who I am is changing, and what I think is groundless, and that I have not questioned or verified 99% of my life. The thing is.. I dont mind others giving advice, but at my core, I want to do things a new way. An authentic way. My way, maybe I use others advice to help that happen, maybe not. I dont want to be a complete fool, just enough to figure out what works for ME. Thanks for asking! very thought provoking.

Haha, that's an amazing connection. 'Music =/= Psychedelics' Music is very similar to psychedelics to me as well! and from a certain perspective, there IS no difference between music and anything else. Glad to hear that music has helped you through your journey What kind of music has impacted you the most?

Thank you! another great resource. (I see now where you get your profile photo from )

Thank you for your comment, I feel the pain of YouTube withdrawals right there with you. Why do you want to quit? That is true, I often forget how far I have come. Its been nearly 5 years exactly since I dropped out of college and accepted the first call. its been a long road to here, and a longer one ahead. thank you for your kind words! Strength and love, for your journey and path.

It's like you're in my mind, reading the thoughts I cant yet put words too. great perspective, thank you again.

On reflection. This is very accurate, thanks for sharing.

Articulated well, thank you. I can't depend on anyone to give me Truth, just me, all there is. There's a feeling like I am on the precipice of a breakthrough, in the breaking, before the through. What is your perspective on integration of sadness/melancholy?

Only the first half of my day is routine, meaning, I do it 98% of the time. 1. soon after waking up, go for a 20-30 minute walk, and drink a whole hydro flask of water (40 oz.) As I do so, thinking of the day I want to have, letting my thoughts wander, contemplating. 2. Music: 30-45 minutes, I can always do more but that's the minimum I have chosen for myself. 3. Meditate: 30-45 minutes on my couch. 4. Read: Right now I am writing notes on a book, using OneNote. The order may change, but those things happen almost every day. Other things. 1. Gym, I work out 2-4 times a week. 2. Work, I work 40-45 hours a week. 3. sit and think, write down thoughts, write down questions on notepads. 4. Make DMT. 5. Process difficult emotions that arise. 6. Psychedelics, other than DMT. I dont trip more than once every two weeks. 7. Peruse The forum/Ask: questions/for advice Lately, the thing that has been helping the most is self acceptance, I am changing a lot right now, its painful and I feel loss. I am learning to accept that, its normal, I am growing. Also, writing down questions, and making time to answer the ones that feel important.

Thank you ❤️ It feels like I’m dying a slow death, I’m changing, parts of me are falling away. There’s a feeling of melancholy, the passing away. Thank you for your perspective

Those are all awesome, I especially like the bold ones. Thanks for your perspective!

Interesting! I know you made your point already, but I want to understand completely. Is there any part of your desire to listen to music that is driven by anything other than stimulation? Or is that all? what about music designed to for mystical experience? Would that still be lumped in with everything else?

I love that! Music is always there isn't it? When we have a rough day, or a great day, or any type of moment, music is always there when we need it. It really IS a friend, constant, supportive, giving, it listens, gives advice, its everything. Thanks for that, Music that... Is a friend. may make this list

Is there a combination/synthesis of the two you're not seeing?

Right on. That could be an explanation. I do fill my time pretty well, maybe too much, I often feel rushed and resistance to my habits, leading me to procrastinate, sleep in, jump on the forum, or something similar. However on days off, I dont fill all my time and it gets very difficult. thanks for the perspective

Thank you for this, a gentler approach may be what is needed.

@Carl-Richard Would you clarify what you mean by this?

Thank you for that.. reading this brought a mist of tears to my eyes. You're articulating what I am feeling. Love that last bit.

Good question, I hadn't thought to ask it from that perspective. I dont know.... The way I have used them in the past has led me to believe they dont have a place in my life, for now. but I could be wrong, maybe a deeper solution would be to ask.. Why do I want to waste time scrolling on youtube/instagram? What feelings am I avoiding by using social media? What would a healthy relationship with social media be? Can I change my habits with social media? I see/feel the tension in my mind and body just thinking about it, its like digging in an open wound.

Hello. This struggle, of growing myself, of learning to be ME. It feels different than I thought it would when I Started. It feels a lot more scary. But That's okay, I chose this path, and I will walk it till my feet fall off and I have to crawl, until my body quits and then just my consciousness will press on. I had an insight into my life purpose on my way home from work. To play Music, Connecting people to breakthrough experiences of Authenticity. When I first wrote it out in Onenote, as I thought about it, my eyes misted over, its the first time a mission statement (and I have written literally hundreds,) has ever lead me to FEEL something deeply. its closer to my Life-Purpose, but I feel that it goes much deeper, who knows? not me I guess I will find out when I find out, and not a moment sooner or later. Goodnight, enjoy your moment, give it love. Paul.