Realms of Wonder

Excitement, action, new clarity, followed by uncertainty, distraction, low energy. THEN… Higher orders of excitement, action, more clarity, following by deeper levels of uncertainty, distraction etc.. The more I create, the more uncertainty I can tolerate. The more I uncertainty I can tolerate, the higher I can create.

As I research visual inspiration for an upcoming project, I stumbled upon Bioluminescence, here are some of the coolest pictures I have found so far.

I don’t think it’s that binary. even if it takes 10k hours to master something, most of our lives are long enough to master more than two things.

Not saying to copy me, here is my balance right now. my priorities are 1. Life purpose 2. Health 3. Relationships Days I work a double Wake up at 4:45, go on a walk while I brush my teeth 15-20 minutes generating ideas for my YT channel 80 minutes music creation breakfast Work from 8:00 AM to 6:30 P.M (meal prepped lunch in between shifts) Eat around 7:00/7:15 read, watch YT, edit a video, be distracted, etc.. bed by 9:15 days I work a short shift Wake up at 4:45, go on a walk while I brush my teeth 15-20 minutes generating ideas for my YT channel 80 minutes music creation Gym from 6:45/7:00-8:15 breakfast then shower work at 9:00-3:00 (meal prepped snacks between giving massages) groceries after work meal prep Edit, read, music, video shoot, watch a movie FaceTime my brother or YT mastermind call with my girlfriend Sleep by 9:15 (usually) days I am off (more relaxed about timing) Wake up at 4:45, go on a walk while I brush my teeth 15-20 minutes generating ideas for my YT channel 80 minutes music creation Gym from 6:45/7:00-8:15 breakfast then shower Clean Edit/video shoot break/walk/watch YT EDIT/music break watch a movie facetime my girlfriend or my other parent sleep by 9:15 (80% of the time) Hope that gives an idea of how days can be invest. warmly, Paul

What is your channel? I'd love to give it a look, I am building my own brand/channel/life purpose on YT (Here), and would be happy to give feedback if you're interested! As for the honesty and integrity + Entertainment I think its solid. Why is this important to you? What kind of consultations do you see yourself doing?

Way to be! What is the unique value you can provide through your work on YouTube?

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Hey! I feel you, I am also in a long term, long distance relationship, working full time and building my Life-Purpose. For me what has worked is recognizing that I will have a "spiritual" season in the future, a chapter where deep connection to reality IS the focus. For now it is meeting my basic needs. Finances, Relationships/sex, Meaning needs, Self esteem, etc.. For a long while I was meditating every day, that was a part of my morning routine which I built up over a while. But in the last 3 months I have let go of it completely, I will meditate here and there when I want to, but instead I wake up extra early and get 1.5-2 hours of creating in before I head to work. Hope this can add some perspective, what have you been trying that has/hasn't worked? Warmly, Paul

What do you mean by authenticity? If authenticity to you means just you do whatever you feel like.. that may be a foolish path

I’m not a women, but, I would imagine that vaginal or genital ‘boofing’ may upset the PH of the area.

Why does it matter?

I can only speak from my own experience, but am currently in a mind-blowing relationship, its magic. We have both worked hard for it, tomorrow is our two year anniversary.

I don’t know, hopefully another 10 years so I can get my catalog of work into the world before I die. realistically, unless something catastrophic happens, I’ll live to 60+

Absolutely! Especially if you can share your personal story, journey, and process. People are drowning in fake content on YouTube/Twitch, they want a human connection.

Thanks! Good question. The only way that worked for me was to get really clear WHY I was doing it, choosing the habit, and sticking to ONE new habit at a time and give each one 90 days to solidify. Expect life to fall apart a few times during the implementation stage of each habit.

Hey you! I want to share some inspiration for your path. At 18 I was considering killing myself. At a college I went to because it was easy, doing my best to escape my past choices, the feeling of being lost and depression. Somewhere deep down I knew I Was living inauthentically, but wasn’t aware of it. I was facing crippling low self esteem, awkwardness and anxiety in social situations. I was wrecking my body eating fast food daily, eating ice-cream most nights to escape my thoughts. I had no direction, no purpose, almost no hope, and didn’t know what to do. I didn't dream, I didn't aspire to anything beyond what I was doing, but something was brewing inside. Seven and a half years later… I take consistent daily action, investing 1.25-4 hours daily into my life purpose, on top of working full time. I feel the best I’ve ever felt in my body, finally beating SIBO, (mostly.) I feel so much momentum in my creative work, I feel it build and it’s AMAZING. I don’t want to stop! I have an amazing intimate relationship of 2 years. Our communication is better and better, our attraction keeps growing and growing, and we both inspire and push eachother to become more authentic and loving of our self. I have more clarity then I’ve ever had before. I know exactly what I need to do each day to move my life purpose forward. Even going to my day job has its role. My worst days in the middle of an ego backlash, are often better then my best days 5 years ago. I often wake up with growing excitement leading into my first creative session for the day. I wake up at 5:00 AM consistently, automatically, giving me time to create, go for a walk, pack lunch and eat before I head out for my job. My job is better than I could have imagine 5 years ago, a whole new industry, kind co-workers, honest leaders with integrity. I still distract myself, but there is less and less judgement, and a trust I will find my way back, and a growing wake of results to look back on. Maybe its taken longer than some, and there is so much left to go, two of the big ones are… I have yet to build financial independence from my life purpose I recognize that it may be years before I focus on spirituality seriously but I am on the path and it feels amazing. I hope you have a great day! If you have any questions, I am happy to respond. Warmly, Paul

I’ll share a perspective here. I’d rather know how hard it could be, how much effort it could take and how hard it could be because If I still want to do it it’s probably a good option. For example, with YouTube and my music career. It’s likely it will take another 6-12 months before I’m monetized, and another 6-12 months before I’m earning enough to step away from my day job, maybe even longer.. it could be 2+ years of consistent effort, learning, failing, and not seeing the result I want before I succeed at that. but even knowing that I’m excited, I see how far I have come and see where I could end up and it’s inspiring.

Recently watched. a few that I enjoyed. Enjoyed them all to varying degrees! Highly recommend Gattaca and Dark City.

No book alone will make anyone successful. It requires taking action and creating actual results. What action are you taking daily to make your success a reality?

Happy to! would love any feedback or thoughts if you have any Here is my YouTube Channel: Waking Call And here is my music: Waking Call's Music Warmly, P-Dubzy

haha that's me! Lookin for the single corns To put this in context, the career I have spent the most time in is Restaurants as a cook. Generally pretty toxic, low consciousness environments. It doesn't take much to be better then that from a co-worker and leader perspective haha. And for more context, this job I now have, I started working there right around 7 years after starting my path. I am not saying it will or should take that long for you, just, I worked a lot of shitty jobs, changed careers 2-3 times before finding it. To find a job with higher quality environment and leaders... One perspective could be that in any industry there will be outliers where that high quality is happening. I dont like relying on outliers.. Another perspective is to choose an industry which requires or at least has a higher chance of higher development. I work as a Licensed Massage therapist. I chose that industry from the later perspective, and now work at a wellness center that has chiropractors, a naturopath, acupuncture and massage, its pretty great. Not saying you should become a bodyworker, but become a CA (Chiropractors assistant) can be really easy, and can pay 25-35$ an hour depending on where you work. If I would have known it was an option, I would have worked there instead of kitchens in a heart beat haha. Let me know if you want me to expand on any of this. Warmly, Paul

Great questions! Hmm, I dont feel mature hahaha. But relatively speaking, I am more than that 19 year old. I would probably tell him. Choosing an Authentic Life is an option. Its okay that you dont know what you want and that you feel behind. It is going to work out. The challenges you are facing are preparing you. Love yourself more. Enjoy being unconscious, they are good times too. To the second question, I dont know man... For me, I can tell a marked difference between how I could think at 18-21 and now. Its like my mental vision was nearsighted at those ages (Prefrontal cortex not yet fully developed I'd imagine.) But, I think its a factor, but not inherently. If I would have done nothing with my last 7.5 years, I would be the same age but less wise. 7.5 years can be used to gain experience, make mistakes, choices and solve problems. Or it can be used on a video game world and no real world change. In the end I think the maturity difference is really because I am 7.5 years more experienced. But hey, maybe in 7.5 years I will disagree with what I just wrote, lets find out Warmly, Paul

Thanks Its been really messy, still is to some degree, but is are the cliff-notes version of the last 7 years. Don't forget to sprinkle a few kg of uncertainty, fear, loneliness, overwhelm, and emotional discomfort on top of this pile. I'll keep it as big picture as I can. LIMBO I dropped out of college, was introduced to Psychedelics and actualized.org at 19. I tripped a lot, investing in the life purpose course that new year. Around my 20th birthday, I realized I needed to move if I was going to actualize my potential, so I got a second job and started saving. 7 months later I moved to Portland Oregon. Chose inauthenticity by joining a MLM Cult for 9 months, (was in denial about the cult mechanics for a long time,) but chose authenticity, leaving to explore life and try and build this life purpose thing. Started building habits: meditation, Humor Practice, going for a walk. Got a job in a new career (Barista work,) and went on my first Solo Retreat around new years of 2020 (I was 21.) Coming out of the solo retreat with clarity and commitment to my life purpose (still super fuzzy at the time.) THE BEGINNING Started producing music as COVID hit (Life purpose at the time was to create music that connects people the beauty and wonder of reality.) During the next year I faced a lot of social anxiety as a barista, started dating, kept creating music. Took another Solo retreat the next new year, (Got COVID, used it strategically.) Got a second job to save money, then quit both to work at a gym, then quit the gym because it went against my values. Moved to Pennsylvania to work at a summer camp for the summer of 2021. (Met my current GF there.) When I returned to Portland I got a job as a cook (again,) and started releasing music and posting on Instagram. (Life purpose at the time was to Create music that gives people the courage to face their self.) I did that for 6 months, then decided to quit all social media (Including YT) and just face myself deeply. Leading to a pretty deep existential crisis. (I was doing a LOT of DMT at the time.) During this "dark time, I realized that I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, not really, and that my current path wasn't going to lead me to living my life purpose. (At the time called "Waking Authenticity," with a vision to make the world more authentic) I also wrote my first album during this time. Coming out of that slump, I made a strategic choice to become a Licensed Massage therapist, aligning my day job more with my values, and giving me more free time to work on my LP. I went to school for 1.25 years, then passed the licensing exam, and got two jobs as a massage therapist. THE BEGINNING OF THE MIDDLE After a few months of transition period, 6 months ago I started releasing videos on YouTube and writing music again. Kept it up until today, learning, growing in both quality, value and excitement. Whew! This is not concise, but let me know if you have any questions Warmly, Paul

Impressive. how detailed are your outlines? basic points, examples, rebuttals? or is it scripted word for word.. what’s the balance between structure and ‘lettin’ her rip?’

Floor to ceiling windows in my master bedroom, I dream of waking to rain rivulets running down the window. Washer and Dryer Accessible from Master bathroom, so I can dry off and put on fresh, warm clothes right from the dryer. A big lawn to mow and when I have kids (in 10-15 years,) they have room to run around and play, sports, get dirty, etc.. Be close to a stream or source of water. A Large Garden out back. 20-30 minutes from the closest city. Aesthetic lighting in all rooms Lighting that automatically changes color to fit my sleep cycle. A Music Studio in the center of the house, All the equipment I need. Wood Floors and soft carpets