Realms of Wonder

Thoughts.. "Wow this is a very engaging haircut tutorial.." In all seriousness though, the lighting is superb, watching this is oddly suspenseful and mentally stimulating. While seeing it unfold, my mind was trying to see "What actually changed?" Obviously the hair is different, but did anything of this beings essence really change? I also related to your experience, having had long hair, and cut it, and shaved it all off, its a.. liberating experience, to me it shows the fluidity of identity, it seems so obvious that the hair is not what I am, look at it.. its all over the floor, is that really me?

New song (lyrics) Heart That's Full of Love. Verse1 I don’t have to have All of the answers To help you to feel I don’t need to be The man that I'll be In ten years now I don’t need to fake Love in my being To guide you to heal Everything comes clear in moments stillness All alone with this life Chorus 1 Cuz where I am is who I'm s'posed to be And what I see is more than enough for me And who I am is all I'd ever need And all I'd need to give, is a heart that’s made of love. Verse 2 It's okay to be, an unfinished project With room to improve On the path you'll see So many that tried Without the love for their self We don’t need to be Anything other Than what I am today To share all the love That we have inside To that which is, to who we are Chorus 2 Cuz where we am is who we're s'posed to be And what we see is more than enough to be And who we am is all we'd ever need And all we'd need to give, is a heart that’s made of love.

Still holding strong with these decisions. Massage therapy school starts in 24 days! Very excited to begin. Have been eating cleanly (No added sugars, gluten, dairy, fried or junk food) for 48 days now. I feel amazing, still having dips in energy here and there when I over consume carbs, but no judgement, excited to carry this awesome lifestyle change with me into this 15 month marathon of working fulltime, and fulltime school!

Song #5 Sing Music: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1T_4eIRej8_Asxp4Xsuu01IktxYbIZGrz/view?usp=sharing This song is held dear to my heart. It started as just the sample of the rainforest, the instrumental blossomed from there. Armed with new understanding from the book "The Music Lesson" by Victor Wooten, I was experimenting and loving it. The opening vocal phrase "Sing music" came to me while I was tripping on DMT, originally it was "Sing music, sing music to your friends, sing music to those who dont know they need love." And it evolved from there. Enjoy this sonic portrait of my mind, This is Love, this is Music

learning to be, more and more. I feel so much deeper than I did 5 years ago, less judgement as well.

A Visionary with a life purpose, an impact he is passionate about creating in his life, he works, puts effort towards this, as it is his highest priority. this man lives by his own core values, he understands himself and what he wants, in his life, and with his women/partner. He is willing and able to cut ties with those who would drag him down, are toxic, dont have a purpose in their life, etc.. (negative/toxic influences.) A truly high quality man values spirituality, a deep connection with himself, and reality as a whole, he is sexually whole, open and free, meaning he has integrated/healed his hangups and repressed sexuality. there's a lot more, but this is what comes to mind.

'Muse'ic

47 days without sugars/added sweeteners (aside from stevia and light amounts of agave,) still eating fruit, but noticeable changes. keep it up! You will find a balance that works for you.

I love this, Most pop songs dont catch my attention, this is different.

"The Call" https://drive.google.com/file/d/11HTNGqZc-79e13UAO9EZBS5vVUbwxFn9/view?usp=sharing

Talking about Andrew Tate on this forum is like putting a taco bell, Crunch wrap supreme inside of an organic farm grown salad.

What about socializing, connecting, and conversation, can you get excited about?

Optimism + Action. You are 21! there are a lot of things to be excited about in your future.

here are three prior threads about him in the last three weeks.

Could be wrong here, but it seems to black and white. Expanding this out beyond just people and getting scammed, there's literally zero guarantees in life, at all... why always expect the worst? Imagine approaching every situation expecting the worst? Imagine approaching each situation with caution when necessary, yes, and deep trust of self and intuition, would there be a difference?

Why?

No roast, been there, I remember a similar situation, I was buying an apple watch off of Offerup, right from the get go it seemed too goo to be true, but I didn't listen to my gut, ended up paying around 130$ before realizing what was going on. Also, a different kind of scam, Got involved in an MLM (Amway) at 19, was in for 9 months, why? I didn't trust myself, I let myself be manipulated and definitely lost way over 2k from that, though many lessons were learned. What specific lessons did you learn?

Notes from DMT Experience. Words can do no service to the actual infinity of my Self. DMT is a gateway to Reality, in new and unfamiliar flavors. Watched the entirety of Leos "Poetic Description of God Realization" it’s a beautiful episode, I did not awaken, but the levels of consciousness reached were mind-blowing, I understand to new levels what God is, What Reality is, its LITERALLY UNLIMITED MIND. ANYTHING I IMAGINE IS REAL. That is a scary thought, or is it? Great insight into life purpose. To play music, showing why to love reality. Music is MY flavor of God. Its the medium I choose to show people WHY to Love Reality, Their self. Why play music, showing why to love reality? If I was all alone, no others, no people, just me and my consciousness, I would still do it, for myself, so that I deepen my love for reality, for myself, the deeper I love myself, the more authentic I am, the deeper of a connection I have with reality, the more authentic I am, Right? Authentic means real, true, truthful, genuine, or… Reality. If I show people WHY to love Reality, they then have a choice, will they love it? Or reject it? Either way, I will play music, write songs, and be in a way that shows WHY to Love reality, to myself and to "other." Really though, What else is there to do? Imagine if I had to live life without playing music? Life without music? A mistake. Not life haha. WHY? Because I Choose Music as my Life. Not just my purpose, but my life.

35 days since I have eaten added sugars, fried foods, gluten, dairy, or any type of processed food (outside of gluten free flour.) I though it would be harder than it has been, once I made the decision, clearly defined WHY I wanted to, and the payoffs of the old food habits I would let go of, its been a breeze. "99% is a Bitch: 100% is a Breeze. The 1% can make a world of difference." -Jack Canfield

At low/micro doses, yes, though your desire to work out, run, be active, may disappear.

Is that True?

I believe in you. Make a 100% commitment. This can help. https://www.actualized.org/articles/overcoming-addiction

Dont be so hard on yourself. Its counter intuitive, but Love yourself through that failure. What did you learn? Something that may help is just building momentum with small things, saying hi, making eye contact, etc.. for some, jumping straight to asking someone out can seem like an impossible hurdle to pass. I see a deeper issue is your fear of being rejected or called out for expressing what you authentically want (asking her out,) as well as a deeper fear "she would never date me." I could be wrong so correct me if so. Also, how do you feel about yourself and life in general? if you feel good about yourself, and your life, being social and connecting with people becomes easier, you have a foundation to stand on, so to speak.

Psychedelics came first, even before I knew about meditation, personal development or Actualzied.org. My brother had some experience with psychedelics, and we did it together. What a way to start

Song #4 Now, I Can Breathe: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1I2vvFbkfMxeuieOQz0inu8utgNhBlS6H/view?usp=sharing Summer, 2020, a immense fire raged outside the city of Portland, infusing the air with smoke, thick enough to make one cough. This song reminded me that it will end soon, that soon, we will be able to breathe. Expanding this idea, soon, we will breathe, breathe in new life, new growth, those on the path will breathe in a extraordinary life. Enjoy this instrumental, dont forget, you can breathe, now. Picture: one night in smokeland.