Realms of Wonder

Optimism + Action. You are 21! there are a lot of things to be excited about in your future.

here are three prior threads about him in the last three weeks.

Could be wrong here, but it seems to black and white. Expanding this out beyond just people and getting scammed, there's literally zero guarantees in life, at all... why always expect the worst? Imagine approaching every situation expecting the worst? Imagine approaching each situation with caution when necessary, yes, and deep trust of self and intuition, would there be a difference?

Why?

No roast, been there, I remember a similar situation, I was buying an apple watch off of Offerup, right from the get go it seemed too goo to be true, but I didn't listen to my gut, ended up paying around 130$ before realizing what was going on. Also, a different kind of scam, Got involved in an MLM (Amway) at 19, was in for 9 months, why? I didn't trust myself, I let myself be manipulated and definitely lost way over 2k from that, though many lessons were learned. What specific lessons did you learn?

Notes from DMT Experience. Words can do no service to the actual infinity of my Self. DMT is a gateway to Reality, in new and unfamiliar flavors. Watched the entirety of Leos "Poetic Description of God Realization" it’s a beautiful episode, I did not awaken, but the levels of consciousness reached were mind-blowing, I understand to new levels what God is, What Reality is, its LITERALLY UNLIMITED MIND. ANYTHING I IMAGINE IS REAL. That is a scary thought, or is it? Great insight into life purpose. To play music, showing why to love reality. Music is MY flavor of God. Its the medium I choose to show people WHY to Love Reality, Their self. Why play music, showing why to love reality? If I was all alone, no others, no people, just me and my consciousness, I would still do it, for myself, so that I deepen my love for reality, for myself, the deeper I love myself, the more authentic I am, the deeper of a connection I have with reality, the more authentic I am, Right? Authentic means real, true, truthful, genuine, or… Reality. If I show people WHY to love Reality, they then have a choice, will they love it? Or reject it? Either way, I will play music, write songs, and be in a way that shows WHY to Love reality, to myself and to "other." Really though, What else is there to do? Imagine if I had to live life without playing music? Life without music? A mistake. Not life haha. WHY? Because I Choose Music as my Life. Not just my purpose, but my life.

35 days since I have eaten added sugars, fried foods, gluten, dairy, or any type of processed food (outside of gluten free flour.) I though it would be harder than it has been, once I made the decision, clearly defined WHY I wanted to, and the payoffs of the old food habits I would let go of, its been a breeze. "99% is a Bitch: 100% is a Breeze. The 1% can make a world of difference." -Jack Canfield

At low/micro doses, yes, though your desire to work out, run, be active, may disappear.

Is that True?

I believe in you. Make a 100% commitment. This can help. https://www.actualized.org/articles/overcoming-addiction

Dont be so hard on yourself. Its counter intuitive, but Love yourself through that failure. What did you learn? Something that may help is just building momentum with small things, saying hi, making eye contact, etc.. for some, jumping straight to asking someone out can seem like an impossible hurdle to pass. I see a deeper issue is your fear of being rejected or called out for expressing what you authentically want (asking her out,) as well as a deeper fear "she would never date me." I could be wrong so correct me if so. Also, how do you feel about yourself and life in general? if you feel good about yourself, and your life, being social and connecting with people becomes easier, you have a foundation to stand on, so to speak.

Psychedelics came first, even before I knew about meditation, personal development or Actualzied.org. My brother had some experience with psychedelics, and we did it together. What a way to start

Song #4 Now, I Can Breathe: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1I2vvFbkfMxeuieOQz0inu8utgNhBlS6H/view?usp=sharing Summer, 2020, a immense fire raged outside the city of Portland, infusing the air with smoke, thick enough to make one cough. This song reminded me that it will end soon, that soon, we will be able to breathe. Expanding this idea, soon, we will breathe, breathe in new life, new growth, those on the path will breathe in a extraordinary life. Enjoy this instrumental, dont forget, you can breathe, now. Picture: one night in smokeland.

Maybe you’ll arrive at one specific skill you want to master, but to get there may take time and trial and error, and there may be many, 5-10+ Ancillary skills to develop proficiency in. For me, after 4 years of pursuing/creating life purpose, I have arrived at songwriting as the skill I want to master, BUT, there are many other skills I need to ace my life purpose, such as live performance, marketing, social media content creation, music production, and each of those could be broken down into “micro skills.” Take Leo for instance. His domain of mastery (as of 2015) is personal development, we could call that the “one skill.” But there are a lot of other skills included in his life purpose package. Video editing, speaking on camera, web design, and so on.

Myself. Music. playing it, creating new songs, connecting with music Listening to music, new, old, known, unknown. Nature Seeing it Being in it Hiking, camping, Trailrunning, walking, swimming etc.. Sexual tension Connecting with people, leading them to feel heard, seen, and understood. Mental masturbation/theorizing Making love, sex, fucking, Beauty, be it physical, moral, or skill/excellence. Authenticity: in myself, and in others Singing Asking high quality, thought provoking, engaging questions. Psychedelics, especially mushrooms. Growth Creating My parents My partner Being right Courage Being wrong Empathizing with others Visual phenomena, light playing on objects, mirrors, fractals, and so on Clouds Driving Riding my bicycle Consistency in myself and others Firm and healthy boundaries Love itself. Understanding others Leading others to engage with Reality.

Selectively closed minded. Generally open to a lot of things, but can get triggered/instinctively closed off to some people and ideas. Integrity: saying I’ll do something, and not doing it, usually small things, (telling my partner I gotta go, so I can make music, doing it for 5 minutes then watching a movie instead.) Comparing myself to others. Judging of myself and others.

Here’s a thread he posted on.

Hadn't thought of the heat, that would definitely degrade the quality. I usually have my backpack with me so that's my go to, car is backup.

Still on track with my diet, still no added sugars, gluten, dairy, fried foods, or processed junk. The closest I came was eating Thai food with my family. its been almost 4 weeks since I started, since I made the decision.

Song #3: Wacky Tacky: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1avZSwm-2MY2QcVdjrSiSEhGxcIkjw8e2/view?usp=sharing This one was fun to make, an instrumental, think of it like psychedelic candy for the mind

I always go magnum Bare-skin. I keep them everywhere, my backpack, my car, my apartment, my camping gear (lol,) not a fan of wallet condoms.

Warning, this is kinda graphic. Experienced a bike crash a week ago, skinned up my elbow, here is how it has healed since then! Night of.. Today! I find it fascinating how the body heals, there is a world of difference between now and a week ago not just in how it looks, but the pain is almost all gone. INCREDIBLE!

Song #2 As I Can: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1irJ4jzBhTFmTFtgGSQdWoP83tk4zYZZo/view?usp=sharing This is my vision for life, an authentic life, my own mind, to go where no one has gone before, to explore, to discover, to know myself, and melt any barrier to love. "I'm gonna live my life as authentically as I can I'm gonna give my love to as many as I can" I dont know how authentically I can live, I dont know how much love I can give, that is what my life is for, to discover, to understand and to create that. This song is also a proclamation of who I want to be, I grew up with people pleasing as my go to survival strategy, its taken years to get to where I am now, the degree to which I dont care what others think and can be authentic, and I still have farther to go. As you listen to this, think of the life you desire, think of who you need to be to olive that, to be that. That's possible for you!

Song #1 The call: https://drive.google.com/file/d/11HTNGqZc-79e13UAO9EZBS5vVUbwxFn9/view?usp=sharing The call, a pulsating, vibrating message of consciousness, in this life, we will be presented with a call, the call to adventure, our adventure, out heroes journey, will you answer? This song is special, as I grew up playing classical and Celtic violin, felt forced into it by my parents and grew resentful, leading to me quitting for a while, music finds me, and I come back to it, now extremely grateful to have that skill, its a part of me, enjoy this sonic love, let it cover you, let it bathe you in light, and hopefully, lead you, to accept THE CALL.