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I just got out of the cinema. Not gonna be everyone's cup of tea. I enjoyed how over the top and absurd it was, thought it was very funny despite being on the nose. There are a few twists and turns in the plot that reframe the whole film which was neat and creative. Perhaps a bit heavy handed, but very imaginative nonetheless. Felt like a film that is directly interlinked with the madness of our society, you could only get this type of art through the Trump era. I think this film lives and dies on whether the comedy lands for you. Tom Cruise is an excellent character actor and it was as much fun watching him on screen as it was imagining how much fun you could tell he was having. I'd recommend it for anyone who enjoys meta-comedy.

To get back on topic. A lot of neurotypical women have found my divergence unattractive, you can just observe this on the spot with their behaviour towards you, yet I've also harnessed my own mind enough to become attractive to the type of people I resonate with and vice versa. Attraction goes a lot deeper than brain types. If you express authentic, charming behaviour, you could be riddled with mental disorders and still find attraction coming from normies. If anything, I find it hard to be attracted to neurotypical women, cause I resonate with alternative behaviour and mindsets. Dating is not a binary type deal, it is complex and relative. But yeah, be aware if you are very autistic, bipolar etc. Normie women probably aren't gonna find you as attractive as the chad in the room that fits her needs more, but she can still find you attractive regardless.

@Natasha Tori Maru I'm a serious offal enjoyer myself. Basically lived off of it when I was travelling Japan for 3 months. So good. I've had kangaroo and crocodile as well, thought that was tasty af.

I'm not a spiritual leader by any means, but my work has facilitated romantic encounters I couldn't have imagined outside of living the life I do now through my psychonautic focused career and artwork on and offline. This is defo true. Before I had any form of success in the online psychonautic world, the quality of women I was encountering was not at a level I could resonate with, casually or intimately. This alone proves it to me that my work has done dividends for me in the world of dating and can do for anyone else, it was also great for my self-esteem (not that I ever really cared for the world of dating anyway, but it's a nice bonus on top of your work to engage with deeper women). Also, you've got to actually make the effort to get yourself out there. I'm UK based and have had to do some major travelling to create space for these relationships to blossom in my life. God knows there's fuck all going on in England that could have let any of this emerge for me, friendship wise and romantically speaking. P.S. another important point is to not expect anything to come of your work either, these things happen naturally.

Seeing Digger on Saturday. Idk, looks interesting, now even more interesting due to how polarizing it is.

It eventually becomes unfulfilling like any consumptive practice. One great thing about making art is that consuming entertainment becomes inspiration for your art rather than just being pure consumption. Trust me, I've been there, eventually you will be so inspired you'll be fully motivated to start creating.

Dibs on the audiobook narration 😉 🥸

Yikes 😬

Yeah. Pretty mad. Makes a lot of sense. I never felt like I had a sense of self. This has been hell for most of my life but awakening made me realise I already had a foot in the door for pursuing spirituality. I am at peace (relatively). What are your guys thoughts on DID and awakening? On top of all the other disorders relationship with this stuff. 🍻

I saw that haha it subconsciously lead me down the path towards watching that film last night and having an existential shock

My pleasure mate!

I'll check em all out cheers 🥸

Oh I forgot to mention I do have one very distinct personality that has mostly softened called Jimmy (my mates call him that) who is almost like the hedonistic, animalistic version of my baseline ego. He's verbose, vulgar and as equally as annoying as he is entertaining (from what I've been told, it's not fun actually being Jimmy). Jimmy has caused most of the problems in my life. Ironically, Jimmy is ME, I just hadn't integrated him. Now we're sort of at peace and I am no longer addicted to drugs (experientially, in my mind I feel like I am on drugs all the time and pursue sober activities that produce the feeling of drugs like rock climbing, playing music, writing, voice acting etc.) I am fairly certain that if I didn't actually discover psychedelics, this work and meditation I would have ended up as a criminal, homeless or worse.

Thought people might enjoy this! https://youtu.be/N0v5qbVdULQ?is=ZPvGquRpgaWsFgcw

I always related to this a lot as a kid:

Funnily enough I started watching Split last night and it was scarily close to home haha I've not seen the other one's.

We'd love to do it. I'm going to visit him in person and do a talk someday.

Infinity 🤓 jk, at this point in my life I have mostly stabilised into an amalgamation of all of them, but some days I slip into that of something different without even knowing it. There is a manic identity that sometimes emerges "randomly" (I don't think it is random but experientially it feels like that) but I have learnt to control/alleviate that through meditation. The other week I slipped into some strange identity that resulted in me walking through the forest naked in the middle of the night because it felt like what I had to be doing in the moment (something "normal" me would never do). This was all done consciously and I didn't disturb anyone. I have thankfully tapped into how to alleviate my DID by healthily channelling my various other identities that emerge, rather than suppressing them. Suppressing them is what has caused the bulk of of my suffering in life.

Really appreciated your latest blog post @Leo Gura it was especially illuminating to further understand my condition ✌️

Nibbas tryna gaslight me into not thinking I'm God n shiet 😔

Me too! Medical buds have been a lifesaver for me. I was addicted to ketamine (makes sense considering the dissociative angle) for a long time until medical ganja allowed me to tap into a lot of my psychological problems and also allow my body to relax. Glad they work for you mate 🍻

Regarding psychedelics, I'd agree that extreme neurodivergents like myself and schizophrenic types should be especially careful with psychedelics, but if you can wisely and healthily interface with them, they are genuinely the best way to understand your condition. My friend xoradmagical is a schizophrenic content creator and he has a plethora of psychedelic experience which helped him be at peace with his hallucinations.

Interesting! How would you describe the people you meet with DID, like what sort of behaviour do you observe/intuit? I'm more interested in awakening-coded people's opinions on the condition than regular society haha normies aren't very helpful. I haven't pursued treatment because my whole life has been self-treatment with meditation and psychedelics.

Yo! My main insight into this state of consciousness is that it is only a "disorder" if you are living the conventional, neurological lifestyle. I'm a YouTuber and freelance voice actor, so I am living an alternative life which allows me to be at peace with my own mind. For anyone who is in a similar position with a debilitating mental condition, I would encourage them to carve out their own path by tapping into the type of creativity that only your type of mind can produce. This is when neurodivergence becomes a "superpower". It shouldn't be romanticised though, as if you are not living aligned with your own values and ambitions, this condition is 100% a disorder and generates an unfathomable amount of mental and sometimes physical suffering. Hope this was insightful.

Did not mean to write such a bad title sorry lol my phone made it look like I had written a full title. Definitely a skill issue as well tho.