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Regression and progression of one's mind is not always linear. The model is framed as a spiral for a very good reason.

Since when was it a numbers game? (Quality trumps quantity imo anyway)

I don't have any thoughts 90% of the time. It's a weird feeling to describe. I'm not as enlightened as this guy, but I can relate to that.

So, so much of nutrition/supplement culture and discourse online is pure bollocks.

I live in hell (the North of England) and am surrounded by selfishness and the temptations of the devil everytime I leave the house. Instead of seeing this as something miserable, I used it to train my own mind. Being in the belly of the whale is spiritual amplification fuel imo.

Only thing you can do 🙏 ✌️

Agree with all of this 👌

The main person I have always judged in life is myself 💔

In terms of organ damage, milk thistle and NAC might have helped (main supplements to aid recovery) but that was just an added bonus on top of staying clean. Most K cramps feel like you are dying and you feel that you have done irreversible damage in the moment, but the body bounces back surprisingly quickly after a few weeks of total abstinence. Consistent spurts of K cramps while using the drug, with no efforts to aid healing/mitigate damage, will absolutely incur permanent damage to your gallbladder and liver though. Most people only know about ketamines affect on the bladder (I never experienced any bladder problems at all during my addiction, goes to show it affects people's bodies differently and that some of us a predisposed to protection in one organ and susceptible to damage in the others it damages) so going through the gallbladder and liver pains was interesting albeit fucking horrific.

The only real healing that came about in Japan was the detoxification and direct confrontation with complete abstinence from ketamine. I meditated at temples, experienced companionship with people of other cultures and did extensive on foot tavelling but this was all flavour, I walk loads, meditate, have great relationships and eat clean at home. Japan had nothing to do with my healing, it was me facing my demons in another part of the world heavily removed from the UK for an extended period that did the actual legwork.

FYI I do think fish and chips are the epitome of mid, our "cuisine" is fucking shocking in all the worst ways, yet I still love it cause it's part of what makes us who we are (detestable cu***)

I wouldn't say I genuinely hate anything but I can certainly express disdain for aspects of human behaviour and life in a creative way, very different from actually, properly hating something imo. Hate is a word I use very loosely, more for effect, mostly just having fun, especially being British where we have a very different way of expressing ourselves compared to Americans, as I have found lol. "I hate fish and chips me" "Dude what, really? That's fucked!" "Nah, I'm just having a laugh" >American brain implodes

I second this. I discovered a lot of this work through my own self but since I am a very chaotically minded person (something I have also learnt to love and embody in a wholesome, productive fashion for myself and others), truly grokking my experiences was a complete blur until I stumbled upon Leo's work (which gave my chaotic being a well needed taste of order) and by extension this amazing resource of a website, on top of the great people on here who definitely make my journey feel less isolating even though we communicate through pixels lol. I have met many spiritual and psychonautic people in my post-awakening experience of life and to this day, barely any I've met in person have held a candle to the authenticity and intellectual-bravery exhibited within this circle Leo has curated. I thought I was going mental until I realized so many spiritual people I have met chat absolute shite haha. Very glad to be taking a closer look at this website and forum nowadays.

Funnily enough I just saw it in IMAX (I'm in the US for the first time so there are way more IMAX cinemas than in the bleak shithole of the UK), second movie I've ever seen in that format, really added to the experience, especially the amplified sound!

Hoping for the best outcome for you mate, I'm sure you know but there are countless examples of exceeding a doctor's predictions for the duration of your life while going through a terminal illness. I like to see that as a part of your journey in life, beating the odds would absolutely ignite even more consciousness into your life. In the case where you are to pass though, I pray for it to be as peaceful as possible.

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Martyrs IYKYK The most profound AND disturbing horror movie I've seen. I can sit through anything, but I've only ever seen that twice and don't plan on seeing it again. Very brave and creative extreme French (mental bastards those lot) horror film.

Figured that one out a long time ago 👁

During my ketamine addiction I went through various sicknesses and organ damage that placed me in moments of excruciating suffering (Leo was right when he said intestinal pain is some of the worst bodily pain imaginable). In these moments not only did I have to face my addiction, it helped me directly empathise with my mothers lifelong battle with her gallbladder which produced pain for her nearly identical to my K cramps. In those moments of anguish, I also had the pervasive thought of "if this feels so unbelievably agonizing for ME, truly comprehend and imagine the suffering beyond this others are going through around the world" ultimately connecting me more with the plight of humanity. I would never wish K cramps or the suffering that comes with ketamine addiction on anyone, but I'm glad I went through it as I wouldn't be who I am today without that pain. Makes me appreciate moments now where I feel physically comfortable and with no pain as well!

I watched it in a group which made it more funny than I imagine watching it by myself would have. The point of "trying too hard" I get, but that was a huge component of the meta quality of the movie, it knew exactly what it was and rolled with jt, hence why I enjoyed it. I could talk more about why this works but it would spoil the twist. Either way, I wouldn't have minded if there was no twists, ridiculously OTT characters are always up my alley, Tom Cruise is an infectious performer and he is very talented at giving life to sleazeballs. Magnolia features my favourite performance from him as a PUA-type personality. This movie felt like a mashup of Dr Strangelove and there will be blood but with the whimsy of Birdman. I'm very glad it's so polarising, shows it was brave enough to be 100% itself and not pander to anyone's expectations.

Tell me something I don't know pal 🥸

Took me 13 years for my passion to become profitable enough to live the life I wanted. Barely any of those years felt gruelling, despite being hard work through and through. If you have honed in on your ultimate passion, have faith in the process but mainly, just do it cause you love it! It could pay off next week or in 10 years, nobody knows when you will "crack the code" of your own work.