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I've been described and agreed that I am autistic my whole life. I scored a 9. Genuinely perplexed haha. I think I have just done so much inner work that my autistic child self doesn't really govern my psyche. Strange. Might pursue a proper diagnosis and see if I fail it

real rap

Experimental hip-hop is something I enjoy listening to now and then, especially stuff like this with the weird, shoegazey sound to it.

I didn't even know what that was and I just looked it up and it sounds like my mind as it has been for God knows how long. I have met many people like these in my circle, in fact some of my very best mates operate from this type of consciousness. I am starting to realize my life experience isn't very normal lol.

One thing I have observed is that introverted people I meet in alternative communities are less likely to venture into other types of sound versus extroverts. I didn't "get" electronic until I went to my first rave, which by nature is a highly extroverted type of environment. There's also group-think and becoming the sum of your peers in stuff like metal scenes where if you start veering off into other types of music, you risk losing touch with your group. I've been in and out of many music scenes and this is something I've observed happen in my self. Nowadays, some of my best friends are people who are into everything and mean it, cause they can't be tied down to a clique.

This is stuff I like to explore. I get a kick out of listening to obscure sub-genres. I find the gamut of human creativity engaging across all mediums. I have never been one to lock my taste in and be like "yeah that's me", cause realistically it's not. I'm adventurous in all walks of life and music is no different. I met a spiritual girl who on the surface looks like you could pin her down to just listening to the generic spiritual music genres when their favourite musical outlet is dark, moody electronic music. That to me is a sign of a versatile mind, not someone who is operating at a lower state of consciousness.

Music is way too relative to boil some of it down to being "unhealthy". You can certainly have an unhealthy relationship with more shallow music, most people use these types of tunes as ego fuel or to engineer shallow fantasies of themselves using music as a catalyst. Look at roadmen and drill music. I am not a roadman, but I can enjoy UK hip-hop and drill cause some of it just sounds fun. I don't use it to engineer low consciousness identity. Many of my musician friends have the same relationship with music as I do. I think the big thing here is whether you make music or not. If you make it, exploring it all is a delight, whether you enjoy it or not. Same if you're a big film buff, you're not gonna prevent yourself from exploring genres outside of your taste. Also, some of the deepest people I've met in life, male and female, have extremely versatile music tastes cause they like to experience all types of feelings that music can produce.

I think that's a hugely relative affair when it comes to music. I am not averse to any music and enjoy elements of every genre I have explored. I just simply enjoy listening to certain music for different reasons. I am not listening to most rap because I resonate with the lyrical content. Like, I listen to Kendrick Lamar and Drake sometimes whose lyrical content is more often than not, crass, but I enjoy the sound of some of their tunes due to elements of the production. I don't think it's a one size fits all type thing.

I must say though, as my consciousness has risen over the years, I have naturally not felt as much emotional resonance with rap & metal like I used to. Particularly rap. I do think for a lot of people that as you go deeper on the spiritual path, your dominant music taste reflects that. I am a huge shoegaze fan but at this time in my life, the melancholic, bittersweetness of that music doesn't hit as hard (I still love it but it's not as massively on my rotation). I find myself listening to very up-beat alternative music and trippy electronic stuff on the regular now. Huge fan of Japenese music that has a whimsical, triumphant feel to it as well. For me and I imagine a lot of other people, your music taste is interlinked with your development. Doesn't mean I'm not listening to Pig Destroyer while I write this though lol but to be honest, making music and performing it also has made me enjoy pretty much everything in some respect. I don't resonate with drill, modern rap or trap, but I really enjoy the production on some of those types of tunes cause I am a sucker for a deep bassline.

I bet @Leo Gura's least favourite sound ever engineered is rap-metal hahaha

Shut the fuck up Donny

Impatience is a hallmark of an immature mind, so the less patient we get, the further off contact becomes. We really are collectively, a species locked in spiritual infancy. Open contact is so far off it's not even worth talking about imo.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/yes-ufos-are-a-thing I believe this is the post Leo was referring to @integral

Catch me in the trenches ☕️

Not surprised something like this came about. Out of all the old skool popular fringe comedy YouTubers, H3 had all the makings of the type of personality that gets into a scandal like this.

I don't like to plug my own content but I think the reports collected here are fairly valuable: (I hate naming my videos like that btw. If I didn't get shafted by the algorithm I would have titled it more appropriately).

https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=94762 A good report on an entity encounter on the same chemical (the NBOMe obviously influenced the trip but it should go without saying that these should be avoided due to how dangerous they are). I'd happily share some good links I know of in here if people are interested. Extends beyond just psychedelic experiences btw.

I've talked about it here on the forum as I've been unpacking it over the years. The report on my channel is outdated content wise and is a rough early video and there wasn't enough integration and depth of the trip processed to properly convey what happened, but I'll link it if you're interested. In a nutshell what I understand now (the memory of the trip has been drip-fed into me with further contemplation, meditation, psychedelic trips btw) is that I became some kind of infinite type state that interfaced with reality in what I can only describe as God meets alien-hive mind. Weaving universes together for the joy of it, completely eternal. When I came down, I was ushered back to this form by a purple energetic feminine goddess type being that was both mother, lover and myself. It told me that "everything works out" or something along them lines. Cliche, but it happens. No ufo's or greys, but an experience of alienness and an alien being that goes beyond conventional physical ideas about beings and paranormal phenomenon.

That book in-particular is what I would consider a low-tier resource but I found it interesting enough to read. There is value in reading bullshit. Makes you more aware of how it functions. I didn't take much from it other than some interesting speculation that I haven't done much with my worldview. I don't regret reading it. I have not been absorbed fully by any one of the works I shared with you. But patterns are undeniable when you've studied this field as extensively as I have. My YouTube deals with alien, UFO and entity encounters to a staggering depth, so it is sort of my job to explore everything and not leave anything aside. I am biased in that I want to know the entire gamut of perspectives.

@OBEler Yes. I have had an experience on 90mg (do not do this, it was an accidental overdose) of4-aco-dmt. Slightly similar to what I've seen of the alien-mind that Leo has described although much different in content.

Ask anyone other than me who's well-versed in this field and they would vouch for the material I suggested. I didn't know about what you have just claimed, if I did I would have specified it in brackets like I did with Greer.

@OBEler You should focus on what I labelled as a must-read. You're getting lost on one recommendation.

Hunt for the Skinwalker is worth looking into (the series is much much better, look into what they dug into lately underneath the site). You think you know what's going on, you really don't till you open yourself up to it all. Get researching is my advice. I have my own ideas, doesn't mean I won't study all of it. When you have an interest in this field, looking into everything without getting sucked in to any one particular persons set of ideas, this allows you to get closer to the truth than anyone who's sucked into it because of their careers and biases. Helps to have a few alien experiences yourself as well, even moreso.

It's undeniable.

Fair enough. Doesn't negate the rest of what I shared with you.