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After awakening one of the main struggles I've had, is trying to navigate normal human life and affairs whilst "playing" the act of being human. I had this brief insight just now about how a lot of my personal problems are not relatable or explainable by conventional society and this explains some of my failures regarding personal development. I was diagnosed with ADHD and I have most definitely got autism, but I let these dictate my psychology for a very long time after awakening and have only just started "going beyond" them in a sense to become the ultimate authority over my own psychology which is both challenging and endlessly fascinating. Hope someone can relate or found this interesting ✌️

They look siiiick!

I spent 16 years of my life unable to talk to anyone, let alone women. Once I actually plucked up the courage to work on my social skills, after probably 12 years of doing this consistently I can chat shit to literally anyone and enjoy it, even though I am an introvert at heart. The real issue with not understanding how this works, is lack of experience. You have to be committed to putting in hundreds of hours into the social domain and dating in order to wrap your head around it all and develop mastery, much like anything in life really. I didn't even have a girlfriend till I was like 17/18, if you're still struggling with women in your 20's I wouldn't worry about it, just keep putting consistent effort in and one day it will all just click and become virtually effortless. The number one thing you have to change in your socialising with women, is eroding the friendly, nice-guy persona. This should be common knowledge but apparantley it is not. I have never 'pulled' a woman by being the overly cheerful and supportive nice-guy, you need a bit of edge to you, but not fake edge or cruelty, but just embodying what it means to be a cool guy with depth. Easier said than done, but countless hours of socialising will get you there, it's just a matter of whether you can actually be arsed putting in alll that effort, but trust me, one day it works and it doesn't just help with dating it helps in a fuck ton of different areas in life.

It's all fun, games & experimentation until the karma burn-through ends with you addicted to *INSERT CHEMICAL OF CHOICE HERE*

Yeah this is so true I tell my mates this all the time but they are so locked into the manosphere shit that they can't be helped.

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This will be some nice fuel for the online discourse surrounding the age old "separating the art from the artist" discussion 😈

@Joshe Yeah, some of em actually have haha I have spoken to people who have seen what we would call a "ghost"

Herein lies the problem, most people won't read the book. Even people I know who are into aliens & UFO's won't bother reading the facts, they just love the disclosure fantasies and the wacky alien narratives too much. The cultural brainwashing surrounding Roswell goes so deep it's maddening. The beautiful irony, is that the proof is in the pudding and it has been staring us in the face the whole time. My late grandma was alive to remember hearing about Roswell and she said at the time, even in Britian, the majority of people she spoke to about it did not believe the balloon cover-up and not just because it was nonsensical, but because the entire Roswell situation as described anecdotally made more sense than what was being painted by what would end up being project blue book. My grandma said that Roswell was the moment that even regular people who had all had their fair share of weird sightings in the sky, felt validated that they weren't absolutely insane and that it was more likely that the truth was that aliens have been here, because why wouldn't they be? People who deny alien presence on earth need to think more like these aliens, makes perfect sense why they would be here. Forget the intentions or agendas, from an alien POV, of course you're gonna check earth out. Also RIP Nick Pope who died recently and was Britain's most iconic ufologist, his work changed my grandma's life and many others. I don't think we'll ever get disclosure in our lifetimes but anyone who has read into this for thousands of hours and contemplated it deeply enough has already proven it to themselves. It is undeniable once you reach a certain level of understanding imo. Psychedelics that tap you into alien type thinking helped me a lot, on top of just literally looking UP and taking it ALL in.

@Leo Gura sorry this is off topic but I tried emailing you for an interview/podcast on my channel and it didn't manage to send. There are no limits to how deep we can get in our discussion of God, psychedelics, mysticism, the scientific paradigm etc. I feel we are both coming at all this from a similar angle and I have had profound awakenings myself that will allow me to channel your insights better than previous podcast appearances you have been on. Let me know how to contact you to arrange a date. My audience is very interested in having you on.

@Leo Gura fr. I've not seen the odyssey yet but I already know Nolan will squander thr fantastical/mythical elements of the story, like the cyclops. Such a shame.

We'll win it again one day! (Probably not 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿) https://youtu.be/dhZUsNJ-LQU?is=isscJ1NAvXeOMSku

I am a recovering ketamine addict and I highly suggest people who are nerurodivergent psychonauts to be extremely careful and disciplined with their use of ketamine, as it can easily lead into addiction. One traumatic event in your life could plummet you into a K addiction, because it is such an "effective" form of escapism (temporarily). Often times neurodivergent people get addicted to K cause it silences their dysfunctional thought processes. I've been there and it took a long time to rewire my own mind. Be very careful if you are prone to depression and anxiety, ketamine will be too alluring not to habitually use as "medicine".

Best horror movies imo: 1. Possession 2. Alien/Aliens 3. The Thing 4. The Fly 5. The Shining (there's so many "The x" movies haha) 6. Jacob's Ladder 7. Pulse 8. The Seventh Seal (not horror but deals with horrific concepts) 9. In The Mouth of Madness (it's just fun) 10. Berserk 11. Saint Maud 12. Hereditary 13. Midsummer 14. 28 Days Later (personal favourite cause I'm British and biased) 15. Obsession 16. The Mist 17. The Descent 18. Get Out 19. Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me 20. The End of Evangelion 21. Come and See (the horror of war, very profound film) 22. An American Werewolf in London 23. The Exorcist 24. The Witch/Nosferatu/The Lighthouse (Robert Eggers is brilliant) 25. Candyman What all of these have in common is that they all have well written characters. Horror without good characters, is just schlock, mostly...

Galaxies, Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast & Knights of the Old Republic 2 for me

This is where being pop-culture savvy has real life benefits. Learning the art of gossiping and chatting shit (in the least unconscious way possible) is essential imo for dating. You can get to the deeper stuff later on, if they're even open to that. If you can't sense any open-mindedness in a potential partner, I wouldn't even bother taking things further anyways, unless you're just looking for a hookup

Reading this is wild to me ngl. The best horror fiction explores so many nuanced topics regarding human psychology and are generally just interesting and entertaining to watch, especially due to the craft required to make effective horror (practical effect work is exceptionally rigorous and looks amazing in the best cases). The majority of people I know enjoy horror films, they are certainly not psychopathic. Some enjoy the more shallow stuff but big time horror buffs know that there are countless titles that stir emotions and explore themes that no other type of genre can. If you have never seen a single horror film, it is likely your assumptions of the medium are very inaccurate. Some of the most artistic and profound films of the past 30 years have been horror or horror-adjacent. It's fair enough not to be into horror, but assuming all horror is the equivalent of junk food cinema is a closed minded take.

@Leo Gura Looking forward to it. I don't wanna get too involved with the debate, but it's pretty clear from my own perspective that this is a natural evolution of your teachings and the spiritual domain in general. Thought you should know that a lot of us lurkers are all for it Leo, keep up the great work. I'm at a point in my spiritual journey where shedding the human is of utmost importance, so I welcome alien levels of mind with open arms 👾

@Leo Gura @Leo Gura There are good writers in Hollywood, but if the writing for a big franchise like Dune is too nuanced, the masses won't get it by default and cause the mindless masses are where the money is, this means the film won't make as much money and thus the incentive to water down the complexity of Dune and any other original or pre-existing IP makes sense from the corpo standpoint cause if the writing is too layered, dense, intellectual and detailed it will be inaccessible to the masses. The masses are gagging for epic fantasy trilogies ala lord of the rings, star wars, pirates of the Caribbean, narnia etc. And Dune is the only film series at the minute which is capturing the essence of those films, so I'm not surprised that these films haven't seen their full potential, the big wigs don't want Dune to be too alienating to audiences so having a fairly arthousey director like Denis adapt it is probs the best of both worlds. Jodorowsky's Dune would have been unreal. The Holy Mountain is a deeply spiritual film imo, he could have translated the spiritual qualities of Dune into a movie better than Denis. Denis is a master at establishing thick, rich atmosphere at the expense of plot. The characters aren't deep but the performances and production are too masterful for it not to spark some emotion out of me.

I'll likely pick up GTA 6 as I'm a fan of the series but I'm skeptical as to whether this games story and characters will be on par with the writing in Red Dead 1, 2 & GTA 4, since the lead writer left after GTA 5 (which I would say is one of the weaker written Rockstar games). I reckon it will be good fun at the least, especially with friends if the multiplayer isn't bogged down by limitations, but for me it's mostly interesting to play to observe the technological qualities of the game itself (graphics, game systems etc.) and to get an idea of where gaming is headed in the future. I'm more curious than excited tbh.

It's defo not in England I can tell ye now

Yeah man. Fucking not that hard to wrap your head around the notion that advanced minds can literally warp to wherever they want in reality. Makes so much sense when you realize the limitlessness of Mind at large. Humans project their bullshit limitations onto the aliens and create a self-deceptive narrative that prevents them from being able to realize their existence. Of course they can fucking beam themselves here, we are like a retarded fish compared to them.

Relate to this a lot 🙏

I've been complimenting my sobriety with cannabis (one mild dose of sativa during the day and of indica at night) and I've found it has been very beneficial for my consciousness. I used to abuse weed so now I know not to and have learnt how to healthily interface with THC. I use a vape, lasts me ages cause I use it so sparingly. It has made me much more creative, in some sense it feels like a nootropic.

I did it. Speechless. There are no words. Cliche, but ultimately true for the feeling of what awakening is like. The epitome of ineffable. This was the ultimate shift from destructive nihilism towards positive nihilism that I needed in my life right now as well. My ketamine addiction completely clouded my mind for many years and my mind would spin delusions as Truth and couldn't let go of the "ketamine consciousness" if you will. My DMT trip just now recontexctualized my whole life and tapped into the mind of God in a way I have never experienced before. I know it goes unfathomably deeper than I can ever fathom, but this was the first of many awakenings in the future and it was finally refreshing to have helped me now make sense of all of my past trips albeit without the chaos. I had fallen back into my ego for many years since I took a break from my healthy psychedelic practice around 2022. This was after my 90mg 4-aco-dmt experience (do not recommend a dose this high at all tbh I actually overdosed it accidentally) my whole life changed for better and worse and I was in a perpetual state of endlessly fluctuating states of euphoria and dysphoria in my mind. Eventually after enduring this chaotic mindset every day and other events in life unfolding for me, I got addicted to ketamine and it ruled my life for years up until October 2025 when I went to Japan for 3 months and embarked on various wellness retreats and to spark magic back into my life. This ultimately ended up helping me recover from ket addiction and has not only been amazing for myself it's now allowed me to have a second life purpose for helping addicts alongside guiding others towards awakening. This trip unlocked a part of me that had been slowly bursting out of me my whole life. I'd like to thank DMT firstly but and even bigger thanks to @Leo Gura for sowing the seeds towards my awakening. I love You. 👁