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🍄 7 grams - Mushroom Trip 026 - Decision = Doing 🍄 Most Important Notes are Bolded and Coloured! November 15th 2023 7g strained Lemon Tek (5.89g Golden Teacher + 1.11g Penis Envy) Strained it this time, was tired of drinking dirt. 2 large cups of shroom juice. Intention: What is God? Rules: Do not answer any calls or respond to any texts or messages or emails from anywhere except the dedicated spirituality group chat on WhatsApp. You can write what you want to send but don't send it until 24 hours from now. I can tell you I am experiencing a boatload of pre-trip anxiety before I even take the dose. So I'm definitely excited for what's in store because that means something of my ego is definitely dying today. Through all this fear I still want to awaken to God. This is Key. Taken at 3:09pm I want to awaken to God. God, I want to know you. Starting to listen to Leo's guided exercise on realizing your God https://youtu.be/gdWxdhEB19s I realize that if I made my story about my father public that would inspire a lot of people, because the relationship between father and son is actually a widely shared one. I notice that I have to clear my mind routinely in order to be good for these trips. This is done through meditation. If you're able to do meditation for 10 minutes, It appears that Periodic meditation forces the ordering of the mind. Writing context cues on a whiteboard in front of you can be helpful to remind you that you're on 7 grams of mushrooms. I am finding these written reminders to be rather helpful at such a high dose. Here I am 58 minutes in wondering if I should finish that last little bit of sludge that was strained out. The structure of the illusion is that it will always create distraction to distract you from God realization. That is the function of Reality. I still wonder how about that fucking sludge. I need to go on the retreats to become a better man. I just realized that all of these distractions of being a man is distraction from realizing God Real Religion is making the harder choice to align with your higher consciousness values. I have to make the harder choice to eat the most healthy at work as my religion. I'll die today to get your respect. There's something in you that wants to be more. And I want to love every part of that. I need to organize my phone to aid in success and destroy distraction. Focusing on the infiniteness of God is something that you have to train your body to handle. “How” is the mystery of the universe. God is telling me that I'm going to have to train my body. You need to train your body and mind to be ready to go on these deep trips to awaken deeper. Healthy Eating, Heavy Metal Detox, Exercise, Good Sleep. Nutrition, etc. Big Insight: You Can Just Decide. Because you’re God, you can exercise your authority stronger than you realize. You can just decide for people to like you. That's Authority. You literally can just decide and you can have everything. The decision comes with the actions that you take to fulfil that decision. The Decision to Actualize something and the process of actualizing something in reality is actually the exact same thing. You Become the decision by becoming Your Actions I realize one day I will just imagine objects as an Ego Form, not in this life, but another. Like as a DMT Alien Mind that can just imagine Forks. I realize one day that I will become conscious that I am already Imagining objects. You need to actually say for yourself to declare that this hand is God. That has to come from you! Authority! You can just decide to create people in your life that will help you. I literally imagined Wes Watson's life to teach me what I need to know about being a man. You can literally Realize that James Cameron’s Avatar Actually happened in real life precisely because reality is infinite. You can just decide to start channeling people or fictional characters in your mind if you want to. Fear is the Fountain of God. That's pure spirit. Pain and Fear is like a pure version of the spirit of reality and the spirit of God’s Power. YOU ARE PURE LIGHT! GROW UP! With whatever you want to create in reality, you just have to ask yourself what would have to happen. I really do feel like reality will start morphing itself more and more into the dream of what you focus on as you focus on it more and more. When you understand something so thoroughly, you can SEE it in other people's minds whether or not they understand it yet! YOU CAN SEE PEOPLE'S UNDERSTANDING! God is imagining a story that the universe is becoming more intelligent. Insight: Invest thousands of dollars into yourself towards who you want to create. Invest at least $1,000 into your personal development every single year. Build up the story in your mind that you are worth investing into. Think about how much the $1,000 investment in your phone has created you. What that has done to your identity. I want you to imagine a story of you spending $1,000 as an investment to invest in your character every single year Fundamentally, God is literally everything that is present in your state of consciousness at all times. What exists in front of you are stories to teach you something about God that you intentionally forgot. All objects in your present state of consciousness are designed to be perfectly in front of you for your evolution. I have definitely understood a lot more about omniscience today. Bigger Fingers: So the blood flow circulation in the body was so high that my hands actually got a little bit bigger due to the sheer amount of blood pumping through my fingers. End of Report.

I realize that suffering is a great tool to open up the mind. Especially towards further evolution and holistic integration.

I forgive my past, I release the future, and I honor how I feel in the present.

I think part of the beauty of English is how you can say the same thing in 50 different ways and yet each way will point to a slightly different facet of reality.

Not sure if relevant enough, but here is a book that wandered into my consciousness and seems to fit here: Cues: Master the Secret Language of Charismatic Communication Book by Vanessa Van Edwards

Holism. You need to integrate Holism to break free of paradigm lock. See Leo's 2 episodes on Holism. Periodic use of psychedelics will dissolve beliefs and paradigms from your mind. Strategically place yourself in a position where facing truth doesn't negatively impact your survival. Study Leo's Episode on How Ideology Works. Do the contemplation worksheet.

@Phil King As someone who dreams extremely intensely every single night, to the point where I get disoriented in the morning, I feel that. I've had a couple dreams like that with my father. When I think about it now it's incredible to me is the ability for consciousness to imagine stories and feelings of reality that have you so bought in. Consciousness can imagine your reality to be so much more different if you can allow it.

Very entertaining video.

@Davino Perhaps I shall commit an entire trip in front of a mirror for this,

I've noticed when someone Types @ZenSwift, I never actually get any direct notification of any sort or anything. For All I experience its just "ZenSwift" with a blue highlight. I am wondering if any of you guys experience this.

Just saw this now, Thanks for the shout out!

@Phil King Ah I see now, I have to scroll DOWNNNN

@Sincerity Just seeing this now, Cheers!

@bmcnicho this one yeah? You just took 1 pill? https://www.amazon.ca/Cognance-Enhanced-Capsules-monnieri-Activation/dp/B0BQWY5BB9/ref=mp_s_a_1_2?crid=1FZPMKBEDS6E6&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.Gdo22kd1ZplE2qpDIFF3zUNyAtQuwIon474nbddvkK4CJt9ni3kb6qW6IVLNewuTSRib81CPcPKrgi8vb9LKtiOXS54Ba4vaTPmRNJIdeiJc_gZaPKb3Evkr5_AX4DuhbierANpHpc95soAsL6DDAB57zHExA9ETxnHJVwekMY9LbgzM-UYRBz5TNjBole14.tptXnHGoBxOXkLJ6GetYDV2_PWa4Pt7IQm-kyrBd6fI&dib_tag=se&keywords=cognizin+Bacopa+ebelin+lactone&qid=1709929621&sprefix=cognizin+bacopa+ebelin+lactone%2Caps%2C293&sr=8-2

@Leo Gura Tell me about how you are going about Leo's Geography Challenge. Are you taking notes? What do they look like? What do you note down? Where do you draw the line of depth? Do you Limit yourself to just 1 documentary? What if you are not satisfied with what information that specific documentary provided? All these countries is an insanely interconnected Holon, I was wondering at what depth do you stop. How many years back do you go? How much do you look into the several links of information that are referenced? For example, Christopher Columbus is noted as an important point, Now I'm thinking about reading his article and watching a documentary on him, This shit is endless. There is so much lore on this planet. I feel like I am following my curiosity as far as it wants down the rabbit hole. I think I may just write a little paragraph of information on each one. I wonder how much of my mind will interconnect all the dots.

I think I already fucked up with scratching off my first country of Belize. I scratched too hard and went right through the paper! 😭😭😂 Belize Doc 1 https://youtu.be/XcRA-3txKGQ (Most informative) Doc 2 https://youtu.be/3MrYk3kCUGk Doc 3https://youtu.be/T-fHe5Mhj4s Doc 4https://youtu.be/ME1tUKEZwE4 Wiki https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Belize

@Ayham Enjoy the process of being a level 1. Appreciate the awareness of the fact that you are not exactly where you want to be and see it as a fun puzzle to solve.

I'm on it. 🫡

Thanks for the read. 💖

I remember specifically one of his examples which was pointing out flattening our interpretation of language or something by putting up the words "fuck you". Which episode was this?

I suppose I will at some point share my massive Excel Document of Links to Documentaries. For Now I will share a list of channels and playlists that I have come across in this thread. Countries List: https://www.worldometers.info/geography/countries-of-the-world/#:~:text=Countries (following the U.N. definition,Dependencies and other territories Free Documentary: https://www.youtube.com/@FreeDocumentary/videos Geography Now: https://www.youtube.com/@GeographyNow Complete Country Playlist: https://youtu.be/ipVw772hCrM?list=PLR7XO54Pktt8_jNjAVaunw1EqqcEAdcow Playlist From Actualized Member: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLKm7OXaaugYBkh-7bpMXByjUd4eXVgUcc Indigo Traveller: https://www.youtube.com/@IndigoTraveller/videos Stop Over - Documentary, Discovery, History: https://www.youtube.com/@StopovertvHD/videos Slice: https://www.youtube.com/@SLICEDocumentary/videos DW Documentary: https://www.youtube.com/@DWDocumentary/videos Free High-Quality Documentaries: https://www.youtube.com/@FreeHighQualityDocumentaries/videos Geodiode: https://www.youtube.com/@Geodiode/videos

@FlyingLotus appreciate it!

Most Important Notes are Coloured! 🍄 Mushroom Trip 025 - A Whiff of The Ox's Solipsistic Farts 🍄 In this trip report I got a small taste of The Cost of Awakening Mainly with the Solipsistic True Nature Reality. Guiding Questions: - What is Actuality? - What is Direct Experience? - What is Perception? - What is Consciousness? Consciousness IS nothing. Pure existence without content. - What is God? - What is Self? - What if I'm Not The Body? - What am I? (Existentially) - What is Direct Experience? October 25th 2023 Dose: 6.5g Golden Teachers Lemon Tek Tea Ground into a fine powder. I let it brew for 1h50 minutes. Just had A LITTLE BIT of procrastination to take this high of a dose. As you can imagine, I am experiencing fear in that dose. But that's where the gold is, so here I am. I really want to Focus my awareness on looking for the perceiver until I realize there is no perceiver. I am definitely experiencing a massive procrastination and hesitation to take the dose. I haven't had THIS MUCH fear in a while. So that's a good indicator that it's going to be a very deep trip. This kind of dose and this kind of fear warrants a very high amount of seriousness with my intention. The more fear I have, the more serious I have to become about the trip. Otherwise it will spiral out of control into an undesirable experience. I said to myself: “I want to awaken!” What is REALITY? Taken at 1:35pm I should strain it going forward. Literally drinking a cup of dirt at this point. It is gross. I'm 15 minutes in, about to get MEGA stoned. I guess I'm a bit impatient, even now, as I should have done 6 grams 6 more times to the point where I'm ready. But, here we are. So yeah there was a little bit of panic that I could have escalated into, but this is my 25th trip with mushrooms, so I'm okay. If this was an LSD trip, that would have spiraled massively down into whatever uncomfortable state of mind. Upping the dose and acclimatizing to a higher dose of LSD is ITS OWN TRIP. Until I acclimatize, it can be easy to be distracted by the idea of "What the hell am I in for at THIS dose?". 6.5 grams is getting to be up there with monetary cost. I may consider purchasing synthetic Mushrooms to save money. (4-AcO-DMT) On the come up and during the trip I am Watching Leo's video on his guided exercise to realizing you're God. I’ve been listening to this one during several of my trips. Usually I can get so distracted with mushrooms so it's a challenge for myself to actually work through the entire video. I HAVE TO be very intentional to focus on the video. What is God? I notice that I should be meditating again because it's hard to sit there and focus: To sit there and be bored. I need to meditate a minimum of 10 minutes a day for the rest of my life. I noticed that I'm actually impatient and I don't want to get bored with this inquiry process. I'm unconsciously avoiding boredom. That is a very valuable insight, so here we are, we're going to be bored. 29 minutes in Noticing visuals. Had 'em earlier too. You have a lack of awareness of the programming that you're in. That's how reality controls you. You become an individual that thrives/matches the environment that you find yourself in. And you've mistaken your identity based on what is consistently present in your direct experience. Including your identity of you being a human. But also, you can mistake your identity of being not good enough by growing up in a school where the entire attitude of reality says "You're not good enough. You're different, and that's a bad thing. You're an outcast. Etc" Have you ever met someone that is clearly an individual that is clearly in an echelon above you? I met this one guy that clearly gave a bright white and green aura. When you become the WHO that you're after, it seems that your presence sends out constant signals to attract and repel different parts of reality. When you become exactly WHO you desire, you ARE IT. You IS it. You BECOME it. By BEING it, you will naturally blast away all that is not meant for you. You will blast away all that isn't you. When you're a being of exactly what you need to be, you blast away everything else! That's why you will lose your friends, addictions, beliefs and mindsets that are impure to begin with. This is par for the course in creating the momentum built up for a natural purification process. I have to speak three times a week - BECAUSE it's hard - BECAUSE I don't have time - BECAUSE I'm not inspired. That's Religion. You need to read your last trip report. Do your homework! (Will do) You have to get ripped out of your love for your people. Only listen to teachings grounded in direct experience. If you're not operating at a TEN, there's still problems! (A 10/10) I am starting to believe that we naturally love to perform at our optimum 10/10 Self, but we don't know how and we don't know how to overcome our challenges. All my direct experience is actually distraction. Fuck everything! Holy fuck! God! God will create distractions in such intelligent manners to hide himself from your conscious awareness, it's incredible how subtle it is. He will do this by creating distraction. These distractions are MASTERFUL. It feels like Reality is intelligently learning how to do this as an ongoing process of designing reality in a way to make the dream so Dreamy that you'll never wake up. Reality is a system designed to not discover itself. Reality will create a way to kill you so you don't realize that you're God. Love is the pattern of God. My "beer" is a highly healthy fruit drink. Instead of having beers and sodas in the fridge like a Fool, I should have really nutritious superfood drinks. You have a lack of awareness of the programming that you're in. Therapy is a process of taking your Authority back. And once you have the authority back then you actually take correct control of your life. People who try to be your teacher typically have their minds closed to the possibility that they could be taught by you. Reality is a system that is designed to distract you away from god-realization. Reality is a construct that is SO ELABORATE that the last thing you would guess is that it was all imagined. The story that I show other people is realizing that you are the swan! I am acutely aware right now that there are no other people. Everyone is just imagined. Absolutely everyone. To open your mind up to this possibility is the real challenge. Opening your mind up to this is not fun at all. Fucking everything that I think that "happened" in the past was just "turtles all the way down" to explain away this present moment. An infinite chain of explanation to create the illusion of a reality that is "real". We wouldn't question an illusion that spans infinitely in all directions and dimensions due to our bias of following things linearly. That is the trick of God. We'd be like "no way, that's way too much work", "There's no way God would go THAT far to create an illusion that's not even real!" But we forget that this is nothing for an infinite mind with unlimited power. So yeah, it WOULD go this far and it WOULD be this elaborate. It would be TOTAL as fuck! Why not? What would stop it? We have a misguided assumption of understanding what REAL is. To my current understanding, what's REAL is just a point where you sit at a "high concentration" point of the infinite fractal of God. “High concentration” meaning that there are too many stories and contexts to keep track of so you get fully lost in the dream of reality. So many stories that it knits a web that cocoons you in illusion. Since you're always in illusion and always have only experienced illusion in this life, you've never had an experience outside of it. There's no duality to create a reference point for your mind to understand. Reality will become "unreal" (as in you become conscious that you're looking at absolute infinity/imagination) when you have a direct experience of what's ACTUALLY real, what's ACTUALLY True. Awakening is the suffering process of emerging from your cocoon of illusions. As shedding illusions is a process of shedding all form and fully loving and accepting the truth of impermanence in all areas. I understand more now when Leo says as ego goes down, consciousness goes up. Psychedelics will wipe away the presence of these stories in your direct experience, allowing you to focus your awareness on what's actually the case. The higher the dose, the more ego dissolution. The more you're able to focus on the substance of God. The void/everything of God. I have accessed a state of consciousness where It is much clearer to me that this field of awareness is going to occur eternally. I'M the one that is going to be living all the lives in all the realities. When this body dies I will imagine a whole new reality. Let's hope the next one is Pandora, and not making bricks with my hands for 20+ years! (But of course, I will imagine both.) I'm talking to my mom while on the trip while she is a great trip sitter! I'm like: "Mom! We will be having conversations like this FOREVER for eternity." Definitely a moment for a cry. It is a very emotionally challenging reality to accept eternity. But here's the kicker: I became conscious that any emotion that is a negative reaction is just something that I'm ALSO imagining as well. So the true nihilism kicks in and it just becomes a moot point. Any emotion that I am experiencing is still things that I'm imagining. - Respect always finds its place where it's due. So the way you act now, people will remember and as they mature they will look upon those memories through that new mature lens. So don't be shy to act in the highest manner aligned with respect. People will recognize eventually. - Tapping into the COMET of GOD's Intelligence Have you ever noticed that these overnight successful people live these incredibly fast paced, high Workload lives? Like it's either insanely high intensity or no success at all? I don't think this is a coincidence. Think about it this way: So you want to live a life aligned with the intelligence of God? If you want to capture the intelligence of God, then you have to speed up yourself to the seriousness of commitment required! This is a process of eliminating all of your distractions and fully committing your heart, mind and soul to your craft. It's a heroic journey of surrendering to what's required of you to become the individual that is a vessel that channels the intelligence of God through you! You have to do everything you can to optimize your brain, body and mind to be able to receive these downloads. Working out multiple times a day. Fasting & Eating the best foods, detoxing heavy metals! Constantly finding ways to stimulate your state of consciousness to be ready to put in the work. Listening to motivational speeches every day. Doing the meditation, saying no to things that lower your state of consciousness and lower your vibration. etc! The Process of tapping into the intelligence of God is a process of surrender into being your best 10.0 self to be able to access and channel the intelligence of God through you. (Ten-Point-O self across the board.) You have to surrender to your body every day. Wake up on time, no distractions. Create VOLUME , VOLUME, VOLUME! I am a channel, a comet! To catch a comet, you have to be ready If you want access to God, you better listen! Do your homework! God MADE your brain so that you could learn that shit! The extraordinariness of God is a scary comet to catch, but you’d be a fool not to fly out to catch it. It's like flying out to mars. It's like flying from earth to live on an advanced civilization that is on a comet. When I reflect back on the moments growing up in elementary school: - The whole attitude of reality manifested itself that you were not important. - Think of how the mind of God physically manifests for you as the attitude that he has created to carve you into who you are today. - The attitude that you are a loser was indoctrinated in the brain's chemistry. It's not in your awareness, it's subconscious! To understand reality as best as possible, we need to be running at peak capacity. (Sleep, nutrition, exercise, heavy metal detox, supplements, etc. ) What is Self? - it's a construct that you create to operate in reality. - You need a physical being to walk. If you are God, you are an open infinite field of awareness, nothingness and infiniteness. You create a body and a reality "separate" from it to BE ABLE to look around. My existence is just a story. On Dying - Dying is a state of consciousness that you go through, and then it's done. Then there is a new chapter. Wayne Dyer talks about dying as taking off one robe and putting another one on. I respect my life so much. You have been gifted with an extraordinary mind. When you get herded with the sheep your whole life, you mistake your identity for a sheep. God will write the story for you to be with the herd until you realize that you are God. Then the story of meaning stops. The hardest insight today is realizing that other people don’t exist. It means that I am alone. Becoming god is a therapy session. You need therapy to catch the comet. I am alone - it just is. You are imagining the emotions of having a hard time to comprehend things. Solipsism is that realization that makes you go "oh shit I'm actually alone in this bitch". Direct experience is God choosing to exist. If God did not want direct experience he could choose not to. Think about this, God has chosen to have reality exist exactly as this! I feel like God has pre-installed this innate curiosity about reality in me that caused me to pursue this process of awakening. God installed the fear of sleep every day to become enlightened. The curiosity that was in Leo was pre-installed. - Your physical manifestation of how you exist every day says everything I need to know about you. - The nervous system tells you everything you need to know about a person. - I come from a lineage of people that chose to not embrace life until it was too late. Not taking responsibility for death. .. What's Terrifying and what I have grazed on before is that I'll live forever. What's even more terrifying is I'M the one that's going to do it. Imagine looking at your mother and realizing IT'S JUST YOU and kind of being mad at the illusion itself and wanting to punch your mom in the head! I assume what is going to happen is that this solipsism will slowly become more and more of my normal baseline direct experience as I trip more and more. Similar to me losing my face and head. After reflection and tons more study. I did not become directly conscious of God. It would've felt more like absolute infinity. I would have KNOWN FOR SURE that it was God. What I experienced at the peak was an absolute Solipsism of sorts. Days after the trip As time passes I fall back asleep. But I do have a faded memory in my mind of that state of consciousness. But yeah when I was completely at the peak when I was talking to my mom it was just fucking surreal. And the most amazing part was that my mom just went with it being like "Yeah, so?" During this trip I became extremely conscious that only my direct experience exists and therefore even other people is just the Mind. Reality is literally JUST MY EXPERIENCES. There's just me looking through this VOID of which I thought there was a face before. There is no other person behind any of the other eyes that I see. I am the only See'er. I'm the only experiencer. The gravity of this insight is incredibly shocking and is definitely an "oh shit" moment. REAL SOLIPSISM. The amount of authority that I now take back for taking control over my entire life is more than ever before. The amount of authority that I take back to solve this puzzle that I call life and reality has become a whole lot more serious because I realize I'm the only mother fucking player. The choice to be good is truly a choice now, of course I should still be mindful of the consequences of my actions as well. Because my direct experience is the only thing that exists, only I can awaken. End of Report.

@Butters Truffles are not nearly as potent as normal cubensis. Apparently after asking chatGPT... 10 grams of dried truffles, they might contain between 20 to 50 milligrams of psilocybin. 5 grams of dried Golden Teacher mushrooms could potentially contain 50 to 100 milligrams of psilocybin.

Depends on your goals. If you just want to reach the highest states of consciousness possible, then 5meo is in order. If you want to be able to contemplate deeply for hours and hours, consider LSD or AL-LAD. If you want to work through a lot of fear, mushrooms are very cathartic and good for that. I hope your conscious of the difference of potency between regular cubensis and truffles. Personally at someone who has lots of experience with shrooms I highly recommend to First be able to handle at least 5 grams being able to purify as much fear as you can, because this whole entire journey is going to be full of fear and you need to learn how to understand fear and what to do when it gets too much. (go for an ego death) ( contemplate what is death, what is self or what is Ego)