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https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-criticism-industrial-complex This makes so much sense Leo. It reminds me of a rule you said was to never demonize any part of reality or anyone. In addition, other things you offhandedly mentioned about the problem of judgment basically retarding your consciousness if I recall correctly. When you criticize and judge, it is done in absence of understanding God's infinitely intelligent creation. Judgment and criticism is antithetical to an attitude of understanding truth. (This is not to neglect the use of discernment either. Discernment is an important distinction to make from judgement.) Truth = Love, so basically if you cannot love that thing, you cut yourself off from understanding its true nature. Anyways, thanks for this post @Leo Gura. It makes me think about how I like to criticize people's understanding and lack of expertise in something and how that makes me feel smart, powerful and wise, without having an awareness of how this attitude towards others can shut me down from an even deeper holistic understanding of others.

For me, the advice that I would give myself around habits is make sure you have strong intent behind every habit as to why you're doing it, otherwise you won't have that buy-in to do it long-term. Oftentimes, having very clearly set goals to help a lot. And then being willing to revisit them every 90 days or so to adjust. I find myself adjusting habits all the time, as I figure out more and more what is actually effective and important for me. Basically make sure what you are committing to makes complete sense so you're not questioning after the third week. Returning to Vision again and again, and chunking down your goals again and again is what will help a lot. Constantly visioning out what your next step is and connecting that to all the steps you need to get to where you want to go. Most importantly though, is to learn how to get back on the horse again and again. Especially maintaining habits in unpredictable lifestyles and in unpredictable environments. I have way too many factors of unpredictable environments that mess my habits up all the time.

1.9. Primary psychopathy 2.0. Secondary psychopathy Scorefor primary psychopathy was higher than 41.76% of people who have taken this test. Score for secondary psychopathy was higher than 24.72% of people who have taken this test.

Thankyou for sharing this Leo.

Invest in desensitizing and reprocessing all trauma. Invest in your relationship to truth. Investing your ability to contemplate. Invest in daily practice of being funny. Invest in approaching new people all the time so you meet a few hundred new people per month at least. To create a really awesome life it looks like everyday being remarkably intentional and scheduled and focused. I like the idealized version of a monk but living in a modern world of survival. Distraction is going to be your biggest enemy. See Leo's episode on distraction. What's going to really actually motivate you to really focus and say no to absolutely everything that is not your highest priority is to deeply connect with the importance of it. See Leo's video: motivational speech Oct 2021 Get insanely fucking clear on what your goals are and what they are not. What your life purpose is. What your values are and how that actually looks like in practice of alignment. I have been motivated to write up a post discussing how you really get Leo's life purpose course working for you. Oftentimes I have found people's experience of the life purpose course to be lackluster because they lack the ability to implement and the ability to revisit and recontemplate how does all these new insights apply. I still consider myself an absolute noob with this stuff, so even just writing that post will help further Clarity for myself. My goals in my life: ⭐ Top 5 Goals in Life 1️⃣ Awakening to God - Love, Truth, Intelligence 2️⃣ Bestselling Self-help Author 3️⃣ World Class Motivational Speaker 4️⃣ World-renowned Life-Coach and Therapist 5️⃣ Master of Socialization - Building Connection - Charisma - Sales - etc. Sense of Humor included

Thankyou for sharing. Profound.

I appreciate this writing here. It is serving as a reminder of the power of visualization. Alongside the mindfuckey nature of reality that I can just spawn a planet into consciousness. @Lazarus93 Also, beautiful post altogether. You really captured what I understand at an intellectual level, and what I have become conscious of in peak moments ( in facets) across several of my trips.

Can confirm.

Leo I want you to know that I'm one of the insane individuals that actually deeply appreciates your content so much that I want to 100% actualize.org like I'm collecting all the hidden flags of assassins creed brotherhood. I actually wanted to make a post asking what to prioritize and also how to realistically create time for it all.

@integral My mother worked in Hospice. What's most important is just having those end of life conversations. Making sure you make peace with whatever while the opportunity still exists.

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To clarify, it's book 3 under Meditation & Yoga Techniques section? Just bought it now.

All this mentioning of pranayama, and I'm still in the dark around exactly what the practice entails.

I've got a crash-out letter I wrote a few weeks ago that I want to clean up and post here.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-341 Hey Leo, I've been having a desire to cultivate a Kriya practice. Especially since you have preached a bit about it being a powerful practice. I've been neglecting the discipline of learning the techniques, believing in it, and then doing the practices religiously. It's been tougher to hook my mind with it especially since it's more of a long term investment thing. My initial thought is to contemplate this further and deeply connect it with my values, and then just bite the bullet and do an experiment of practicing consistently for 6 months to a year and see my results, which is easier said than done. Do you have any other suggestions for really building a practice? More specifically, getting my mind to see the value of it such that the commitment to it becomes obvious?

It's hard for me to say I regret certain things, because I simply wasn't conscious of it, at the time. How could I blame myself? I needed to suffer to finally get the insight. I was given all the ignorance, patterns, coping mechanisms and trauma that I've been given. This is my plate of vegetables to eat. The only thing I can control is how I act in the present. Here are a list of things I WOULD mentor my younger self on if I could travel back in time and become a father for myself that I never had... and a role model for myself that I needed. Letter to myself: I wish you had the awareness to eat healthier. I wish you had the concept of boundaries to be able to say no to people treating you disrespectfully. I wish you felt like you could set boundaries with every bully you encountered. I wish you worked out every day and developed a healthy relationship with exercise far earlier. Working out every day to get the body moving and do heavy strength training a couple times a week. I wish you had the mission within yourself to see the value of developing your socialization confidence to the point of being able to speak to absolutely anyone. I wish you made socializing with new people a manditory habit. I wish you didn't play so many videogames, watch so much porn, and watch so much TV. I wish you picked up a reading and writing habit day 1. I wish you stayed reading self help, philosophy, metaphysics and epistemology day 1. I wish you let go of the need for your mother, father or friends to be a certain a way of to understand you. I wish you let go of the need to be understood by anyone, day 1. I wish you spoke your truth when it felt right to do so. I wish you went to bed on time for years. I wish you solved your anxiety around going to bed. I wish you got EMDR on yourself sooner. I wish you had life coaches and therapists with with you on a weekly basis. I wish you had the confidence to tell women you liked how you really felt. I wish you were honest about being attracted to the women you were attracted to. Rather than letting them fall away completely because you were too shy. I wish you had the courage to speak up when you were being wronged, even if it was emotionally unsafe, even if it threatened your job. On the principle of self respect. I wish you had a industrial reading habit.

Merry Christmas!

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Link to Previous Trip Report: > Dear reader; > The trip report is mostly written while I am high. > Text with the chevron “>” in front of it is text, is to point out that I wrote this as a comment afterward > I removed unnecessary filler to leave only the parts that might spark insight for you. > Things that I found particularly impactful will be in bold, underlined, or my top insights/musings will be in Green. Mushroom Trip 029 - Growth = Death Date: July 6th 2024 Time: Taken at 2:57pm Dose: 5g Wavy Caps (Psilocybe CYANESCENS, NOT your typical Psilocybe cubensis) Intention: What is Growth? Contemplations: What were the times that I grew the most in my life? When I put myself in a new challenging environment (Where I’m forced to shape-up) When I wrote the self-authoring suite. When I was writing a lot. Whenever I have a lot of suffering and fear to overcome. Thoughts on How to grow: Owning the truth. Becoming conscious of your self deceptions. Owning your corruption. > Complete Reflections and contemplations from Leo's Lectures on: Devilry, Corruption, Double Standards, Being Wrong, Avoidance of Truth, Fear. > Need to See Leo's video on real vs fake growth Start of Report: 13 minutes in: Subtle onset. - - If I feel like dying, I’m going for ego death. 18 minutes: kicking in. Wondering when I can meet Leo. This mushroom strain of Wavy Caps is very intense. It is very Ego dissolving. No wonder it went on sale. Nobody would like to use this strain for fun! Life advice for young people part 1 and 2. Watch it again Growth IS dying! Death creates real change. >At least it involves a lot of death of self/ ego-mind. Look at what other people your age are able to do. Look at the top performers, entrepreneurs, all of it. Set that as the bar for challenging yourself. And then challenge yourself to aim higher. Listen to your body, your body is deeply intelligent. If my body is telling me something, fucking take the authority OF MY BODY, and fuck any other human's authority. My body is deeply intelligent, remember that. My Gene Keys remind me of this that my body is the driver and my mind must follow. > The context I’m thinking about here is when I am in dangerous situations in Wildland Firefighting. Really gotta trust your body. Jokes are precisely where the exchange of authority happens. This is why the jester is right up there with the king. Growth happens when you know how to construct and deconstruct. Time doesn't exist! Holy shit! >That one just hit me like a brick to the back of my head. I wasn’t even going for it. I have instant access to nothingness. How the fuck do I even exist!? As the layers of ego dissolve, your access to the true nature of being deepens. At some point of the ego dissolution process, everything in your direct experience reveals itself to be nothingness. Then if you go further, you realize that this is all deeply intelligent, then going even further out becomes an overwhelming wave of love. Love being described as a traumatizing gravity that is slowly unifying and pulling reality all together. >Traumatizing oneness everybody! Reality will just wrap itself in layers of constructs in ways that you don't even know how. But this is how an ego gets constructed. An ego-self extends WAYY Beyond your body. It's like it extends out past your skin, let's say 100 m in front of you (when in reality it extends out throughout the infinite field of consciousness). The ego gets constructed by continually wrapping yourself in layers upon layers of stories, contexts and beliefs to explain away this current direct experience. > To the point where it no longer feels like a divine mystery. Learning to grow is to become conscious of what layer of constructs that you are currently wrapped in. Because throughout my entire life, it felt like trying to get myself out of A Rat's Nest. > Peeling back one layer of illusion after another, facing the truth. Owning the truth and accepting that I actually don’t know if I am going to wake up the next morning. I need to practice loving the process of falling asleep. That is a piece of therapy that I have not corrected yet. I still have fear of sleep, fear of facing whatever fucking crazy dream I am going to have next, fear of my consciousness drifting off. >Wayne Dyer said “You die every night”. I felt validated when he said that. I need to think in more terms about me being energetically correct. > This has been a big shift for me in approaching how I live my life. Oftentimes, I will energetically “feel” into a situation far faster than I have the ability to create words for it. Now I can lean into what my body is feeling and what my intuition is telling me far more. > Ask your self, “Is this [thing] energetically correct for me?” > > Examples: Career, Person, relationship, environment, food, etc. I realize I do much better with difficult conversations if I take the time to write it out. Even if I then have to read it out loud to them. I need to honor this part of my self more. > 2025 me is integrating this! > Anywhere you can have a Truthful conversation is an opportunity to gain respect. End of Report.

Previous Trip Report: > Dear reader; > The trip report is mostly written while I am high. > Text with the chevron “>” in front of it is text I wrote as a comment after the fact. > I removed unnecessary filler to leave only the parts that might spark insight for you. > Things that I found particularly impactful will be in bold, underlined, or my top insights/musings will be in Green. Mushroom Trip 028 - Strength Is Owning The Truth Dose: 5g Wavy Caps (Psilocybe CYANESCENS, NOT your typical Psilocybe Cubensis) This is a strain that is supposedly much stronger, with a slightly different matrix of effects. Context: In this chapter of my life, I was in the middle of my Wildland firefighting season. I went on a mushroom trip on my days off. Safe controlled environment at home. Mom is Trip sitting Date: June 16th 2024 Time: Taken at 12:50pm (Lemon Tekked from powder) Intention: What is strength? How can I be stronger? Start of Report: 16 minutes: Experiencing comeup 23 minutes: Strong comeup. Strength is owning the Truth. >There I am, just sitting there like a thinker statue, and this killer insight came in the first 28 minutes. Truth is literally what exists. You can only work with what exists. I notice much deeper now how much suffering is created and how self-deception and human bullshit stems from missing the truth of a situation. I think my biggest gaps in my self actualization is from a failure to make a truthful observation of myself and of my life situation. Therefore being unable to address my situation appropriately. (Like the truth is I have a real hard time to focus and motivate with an ADHD brain. And I benefit from routine and possibly even being medicated. And also of course I still want to do the heavy metal detox. I just need to finish up my research to cross every T.) Ask people this: “Tell me the truth that you want me to own.” And that will give me strength. This imaginary idea of “Energy trails” are a useful metaphor to understand how people perceive you. Just to notice what energy you put out. What trails you leave behind. Anything that's not seen as intelligent is just thrown away understanding. When you have truth, you have the ability to step on others because that is what actually exists. You can only step on others with what literally exists because if it doesn't exist and you can't step on other people with it. >The imagery that comes to mind here is stepping on someone’s tail as a form of control. If I want to be God I have to own the truth. That's owning your creation. Taking responsibility for it all. The truth hides behind knowing. If you want to become intelligent, learn to sit with the pain of not understanding. > The pain of not-knowing. Making yourself feel smart and intelligent (through any means) isn't the practice that actually makes you more intelligent. > Making yourself feel smart by having knowledge actually limits you from gaining real intelligence. Sometimes you have to choose to be strong. The Event of an ebike Getting Stolen: > Then halfway through the trip it was thrown way the fuck off because someone during the trip opened up the garage by accessing a truck that was unlocked, and stole my father's e-bike, which is worth several thousand dollars. Mid trip I was trying to get my trip sitter mom to calm the fuck down but her level of distress was way too high. > The thief had the garage door opener and I had no idea if or when they would be coming back. > I was seriously contemplating running to the neighbours, burying myself in the backyard, running for the hills. I thought the thief was going to come back and kill me. This was while I was PEAKING on 5g of wavy caps. > My body started to get REALLY hot. I was so hot I felt like I was going to die. I stripped down to my underwear and I'm just standing there in the kitchen in a panic. > I had no clue if I was going to get murdered by the thief coming back, or if my mom was going to kill me, or if I was going to die from my body getting too hot. > I called my friend to come over because I didn't feel safe at all. He came over in 20 minutes which felt like an eternity to even wait 10 minutes. > I was incredibly disappointed with how my trip sitter handled the situation. I was distressed, I didn't feel safe, I thought I was actually going to die or get killed. So it taught me a lot about the lack of awareness of my trip sitter. How she has no idea what it actually means to be a good sitter. Almost had my dog fucking killed because she could not get the dog inside from the confusion of the situation. Whereas my mind was so open that I immediately recognized that we were stolen from. Her mind was not open enough. > My mom then continued to have a heated conversion on the phone with my aunt about the whole situation. And I was absorbing all of that negative energy. > I just told her to let it go. But she couldn't at all. Couldn’t even shut the fuck up for the duration of my trip. > She also couldn't just take responsibility for the situation, or even sit with accepting the state of consciousness of not knowing. > Honestly I'm glad it happened because now, going forward I'm just going to trip alone. > So, because of that, the trip was incredibly rough. But I guess at some point my ego was dissolved enough or something because I entered a state of consciousness where I just decided to feel good, to have a good day. I felt like I could run naked in the streets. Because I entered a state to just love and appreciate everything. In that moment, I felt like I could make an ass of myself like Connor Murphy and be totally fine with it. > I entered a state of consciousness I can only explain as “Going Connor Murphy Mode”: Making absurd statements to make fun of the dream. Because I realize that I am the Ultimate authority in interpreting my perceptions of what is. > Saying silly things like: “I can choose to have sex with doors, I just realized!” “I can fuck my leg!!!” “Leo is this, Leo is that, And I can make it in my mind to be true because I have the authority.” > Realizing how easily the mind can make up some story, and then believe it as true. Illuminating to me the power of self-deception. > It was a very rough trip. But I did enter some states of fulfilment. I believe I had a deep look into the nature of metaphysical love. Where it's clear that the collapsing of dualities is simply just love. What's not to love? I can decide to have a good day today. I am going own the truth of not knowing today. Reality exists today, therefore I'm happy! I can't wait to die today! That's owning truth! I can't believe I'm retarded!! I love my defense mechanisms of not owning the truth!! Because the relationship of God is what I decide to imagine. It's BEAUTIFUL TO BE INSANE BECAUSE I have the authority! > I pretty much lost my mind and became invincible. I DID NOT Know objects were consciousness! I have to learn how to love the situation! If I'm not happy! Then it's because I'm not owning the truth!! INFINITE PAIN IS GLORY!! I CAN MOVE OBJECTS ONE DAY! I'M CURRENTLY Enjoying you thinking about me that I don't know something! There's nothing to know! Reality is infinite! I would love to remind people that they didn't know. I Love admitting that I have no control REALITY IS LEARNING HOW TO control itself to love itself! The truth hides. Vulnerability literally IS LOVE! I'm going to decide later to have ZenSwift forget this state of consciousness! Creativity is Literally love! REALITY Will literally kill you if you want to own the authority over it. I love sitting in reality, not knowing! Literally what does it mean to feel? So funny that objects are independent objects. I find it a great game to learn how to have people like me. I understood the cosmic joke in the sense that there is no “evolution” for God to discover himself through. Existence as form and formless is literally just Cycles God goes through for eternity. > I realized that this idea that there is “a mission” here, and that you are God exploring itself as an innate purpose, is pure fantasy, constructed by ego-mind. There is no collective raising of consciousness, there is no point to any of it. There may be a direction that consciousness evolves. But what about when my body dies and I supposedly just imagine a whole new reality from scratch? The infinite Nature of God is already complete. There is nothing left to discover. The infinite potential is already there. These are just stories that God is creating to distract itself. Supposedly. Can’t confirm any of this. But I think I’m on the right track. God rapes your ego infinitely until you realize the intelligence. I am literally imagining layers of ways I'm not loved. Oh my God wow I need to take more authority in my life if I'm to be a leader. Dear Reader, I want to learn to respect your intelligence. End of Report.

Bruh moment

I've often viewed the journey of awakening as a steady process of loosing one's mind in a controlled way. (Controlled as much as you can) (I'm not awake yet btw)

Leo you've taught me that Reality is a challenge worth loving

@Mihael Keehl I checked out your website. Very appealing thing you've got running over there. Might just have to carve out a couple months to fuck off and write my book surrounded by some chill people.