The0Self

It’s indescribable but the closest description is: there’s only what appears to be. It’s like oh yeah there’s just this. Special/not-special duality collapses, as does knowing. Suddenly no one knows if they know or don’t know — there’s just no one left. Nothing added on, but the aspect of the collapse of special/not-special could be described as breathtakingly ordinary. There was never anyone who knew or did anything. Everything is the same, but loss is no longer real loss; gain is no longer real gain, as there’s no one separate from this to lose or gain anything from this, and there’s no fixed “this” anyway to actually gain something from. It’s both too real and equally too unreal, to do anything with — there’s nothing separate for it to be relevant to. There’s just life, typing without any reason, purpose, or meaning behind the appearance as it seems to be.

Liberation is the end of wondering where I go from here, or how I got here -- the end of questions. Without questions, there is nothing which can be answered. Mystery, but void of anyone who could be mystified. The truth that can be told to someone else is not the truth at all. If God-realization or anything else happens, then that's what happens. You seem to be pointing to what can appear as the lived-reality result of God realization -- a state of detachment and seeming unity with everything. There is already no separation to be unified. The unity consciousness is part of the dream setup too. Not saying that recognizing this would be any better for survival, it would just be the recognition that there was never anyone who did or didn't realize God or do anything else; there's only boundlessness appearing without limit, which by the way miraculously doesn't actually have any need for anything whatsoever, including causality, context, meaning, knowing, or even making logical sense.

For substances: surrender and community.

That's what's appearing to happen there. That's what's longed for. This is actually simultaneously/timelessly as simple and as unimaginable as it gets. The ordinary is the extraordinary, and real/unreal are not two -- that cannot be seen by anyone, but it's all there is. No one is separate; the knower is an illusion. There are no real stakes -- only the appearance of them... and that statement is misunderstood if it seems to have any affect on the unaffected appearance which is all there is already. There is no Godhead. There is no this. There's simply what appears to be -- singular, empty, and without other. There's just what's happening, which is everything. Yes the finite view is very helpless. It's the appearance of looking for the unknowable without knowing that the unknowable already is all there is.

? love it Though I don’t really think that’s where he’s coming from. No clue lol. It’s all practically a joke anyway lol — one that no one gets.

Interestingly, occasionally the day after LSD-25 I would have a slight headache, and I don’t think I’ve ever had a headache outside of that, and drinking a lot as a teenager... Haven’t used it in probably close to a year now. Haven’t had a headache since.

I dig what you’re saying, but you didn’t hear the communication. There’s no you. No one who suffers. There is only suffering, or happiness, or anything.

Total story-telling: It’s actually not different at all. But you’re coming from a position apparently deeper in the story than God realization. And if I understood you, you’ve indicated you have no idea what it entails (if you haven’t used psychedelics it’s almost not possible for you to have a clue about God), but I could be wrong. ? Who knows where he’s coming from... Could be pointing to the insubstantiality of everything. Maybe we totally misunderstood him. ? It’s probably just a bit more likely that he just has no idea, but in the end it doesn’t matter.

Reincarnation complicates this timeless singularity. If you die, you won’t be able to tell anyone, including yourself, what it’s like. And the one who dies will be recognized as never having been, so no one dies. Reincarnation is a story for the continuation of the I. Everything said about it is completely just story telling. If memory-continuity is not maintained between lifetimes, clearly no one reincarnates, this is just what appears, and its nature is as veiled as time is experienced as real.

The difference between a being a human using logical deduction, and being God creating the universe with imagination timelessly as a lived reality? ? You’re not serious are you? Well, now you know? Lol Where your mind is seemingly at now, will not understand anything talked about here existentially, so perhaps ignore all of it. ? Just messing with you. Not personal. ? God-realization too, is a dream. But you know nothing about God realization.

It’s just what’s happening — it’s not about you, it’s fulfillment. The suffering is unavoidable, thus there is no suffering for someone separate who could dream of something else, unless there’s apparently the dream of that, in which case, that’s what’s longed for — nothing; everything; unknowable; non-objective. It’s already done.

Because of lots of meditation practice, objects were not as flashy as my self, whatever that was. Objects were ignored until none were left (advanced meditation skill). And the subject was alone as God. Looking in at its creation from the outside. That was still firmly in the dream as the witness. That’s how it sometimes went. But other times it’d be totally, almost incompatibly different... It was just an apparent journey up the dream of god-consciousness, that’s all. Has no significance. Sure, you’re God... A God completely unlimited by qualities or meaning or knowability of any kind at all. A God which both is and isn’t. A God that can’t know you. This God is nothing, being everything. The desire to call this God faded away as it was recognized that to use a profound word like God is almost disrespectful compared to calling the unspeakable something very simple like “this” ; “life” ... Or “table”...

Beautiful! ?

Exactly! ? Without awareness, nothing happens. And this is what nothing looks like when it appears to happen. That’s all there is.

That’s just what’s appearing to happen there. This is not coming from a position or knowledge. No mental conclusion was reached, and there is no fixedness for circumstances to actually play out in. It’s infinitely deep — It’s infinitely empty — It is the infinite itself = As it has no other, so it has no self. Its actually very simple. Overthinking seemingly hides the reality that no one is thinking. This is already fulfillment. This is already absolutely free and wild, and unconditionally exactly what is longed for. There is absolutely no causality in actuality — only the infinite, which is not big or small, it’s no-space... and the eternal, which is not long or short, it’s no-time. How can one get to what already is? No possibility. There is no one separate and aware of this from a separate standpoint. It’s a dream that isn’t really happening. Everything else is just what it is. Infinity is so limitless it can appear limited, and it’s what is longed for and it’s inescapable — if it were designed some might call it the ultimate ingenuity, but it’s actually so devoid of need, it doesn’t even need to have been designed, nor have had a history, intention, or goal. There’s no separation, only unimaginable freedom, longing for, by being, exactly what appears to be happening. Without breaking a sweat. And it’s over as it begins.

Well there’s certainly no one here who doesn’t take responsibility for their actions. That would be a denial of what is. There’s simply what appears to be. That includes preferences, compassion, care, etc. It simply has no solidity. It’s the same there, there might just be an apparent solidity in that non-solid-appearance, as if it were something actually happening, and therefore also happening to me.

It can be, in the dream. Awareness is intimately tied to the feeling that this appearance has something to do with me, thus being the sense of ownership of what appears to be. It’s the sense that if I weren’t here, nothing would happen — the I already isn’t there.

There’s is no one else either. That’s all just a story; trying to make sense of the ungraspable. There’s simply what appears to be happening, without meaning or purpose, and without an observer or doer. Bodily actions can appear but it’s simply no-thing apparently happening. Total equilibrium. Pure happening. Exactly what’s longed for; everything, which is paradoxically not an object, and is not viewed by a separate subject. There is just the view.

Insights/awakenings having to do with the perfection of the appearance can go on and on forever. There can be the revelation that there is only infinite perfection, which also happens to be absolute equilibrium. There’s no one who suffers in oneness, and no one who is fulfilled. There is just fulfillment.

The body still seems to function as it always did. There’s just seeing; typing; sitting; etc. It’s the same there, it’s just that there might be the claim that it’s happening to me and I know seeing; typing; sitting, which surprisingly is itself completely unknowable. There’s just what appears, and there is no solidity to any connection or context because there’s nothing separate to be connected.

Awareness is the imaginary whom. It doesn’t appear to someone, it just appears — of course that’s not logical when seen from the perspective of being aware, so don’t think you’re going to understand it — it’s not graspable, because awareness itself is not separate from grasping, and there is only the appearance of grasping anyway; it appears but has no solidity or reality to it. It might seem complicated but it really is very simple and ordinary. Amazingly so.

The appearance of awareness is the dream of connecting what already isn’t separate. It’s not the absolute, but like everything it is the absolute — awareness (or knowing, consciousness, or even God) just has no higher claim than anything else.

How does one get to what already is? How could you get to what already is? How did you get to what already is? How could you have gotten to what already is? How could what already is, be otherwise? How could what already is, be put into a context without that itself simply being what already is?

That's fine. It's a paradox so of course it makes no sense. We're talking on two different levels, but you were talking about quantum physics, which precisely doesn't need to follow causality. Scientists are running into what's being pointed to, but are unwilling to go beyond the story, as they can't do so. You can't make sense of infinity -- only apparently so. There is no knowing though, in the sense that it's only an appearance.

I never tried LM, but I too found L-theanine to be quite effective -- prominent simultaneous relaxation and alertness. Pregnenolone was very helpful as well for some HPPD a while back. L-histidine was pretty good too. I tried like a hundred things lol and those 3 stuck out -- and chelation, but that's a lot of commitment. Also to some degree so did aspirin and zinc, for some reason. Maybe some others but can't remember. Magnesium didn't hurt either. D,L-phenylalanine hurt more than it helped. Taurine was relaxing too, but basically every single time I took it, it made me break out in a blemish the next day -- after it happened like 20 times I just never took it again lol; to my knowledge that's not even a reported effect, so I assumed it wasn't the taurine... until it was rather undeniable.