The0Self

@Someone here Reality is what the individual will seem to undoubtedly call this, when a false claim about this is “this is real.”

Most people would. Too bad ?

A Saint is completely fresh and new. Didn’t come from anywhere and isn’t going anywhere. Decisions are replaced with pure faith and selflessness, and there’s essentially no one left to care. They’re dead to the world; awake to what is, alone.

So that’s why it’s all over when Unconditional Love is seen... Why? Well, 1. It cannot be put into words or described. 2. Everyone knows it deep down, but it’s too much to bear to admit it, both in beauty and magnitude, to be able to even exist while looking even slightly toward it. I just had a memory pop up, it wasn’t mine. It was of an enlightened family of Jews in Holocaust (maybe not literally Holocaust, but looked very much like that; some genocide/etc). It was practically the faintest memory ever, as if the experience intensity gain was turned down to 0.0001%. It was SO fine, but... what I saw... it was so heartbreaking and heartwarming and indescribably amazing, seeing the enlightened appearance entirely free from the person ... (that alone is a bit like 5-MeO times infinity as far as just how different it felt for there to be no one there, and that doesn’t come close to this level of pure unimaginable ineffability; 5meo may be “more intense” and amazing, but it isn’t anything like this) ... in a family of Holocaust sufferers (“experienced” [it was beyond mere subject-object experience] the memory of at least 2 individuals merged through shared ego death), that even a faint glimmer caused the “I” to cry out in terror — the fear of death was immense — I almost didn’t make it out. Though, it’s intuitively obvious that I never was.

For fucking real. It’s like thinking “heaven and hell swapping places” is “good” or something. The intensity of that fear can probably even give the body physical health problems lol

@James123 ? yeah I wasn’t exactly being literal with “becoming everything” (who would become what already is?) just saying that’s how much fear it was causing. And that’s how profound the “experience” was. Almost killed me, or seemed to.

It literally feels like I’m looking at going from 1. normal life, to 2. dying forever, and becoming everything Though obviously there is already only the 2nd, it feels final. It’s basically a no brainer. I choose life, lol. Whatever that was with no one was perfection, but that same state with self would be utter incomprehensible — idk, can’t really even imagine it properly. Was like literally no one here or anywhere else either, just everything. Obviously not up to “me” though. Fear has gone. Might try inquiry/witness/surrender in a couple days, I feel like that could probably blow it.

It literally felt like end of universe. Like it was about to be erased. I don’t know how the fuck to let go like that. It’ll probably happen unexpectedly when I’m driving to work or something ? (well, obviously not, but you get the idea) This was from no drugs and actually, no technique. I just sat down and just started noticing everything was truly “Perfectly Ordinary” and then that memory flashed. It was a shockingly powerful glimpse for such a short flash.

I’m not enlightened btw, but I’m on the brink and literally am about to die.

“I” realized God in ways you clearly haven’t. This is about more than mere God-realization. You aren’t conscious of what God really is. If you only knew what going “further” actually meant for me over here... well you don’t know. It’s alright. It’s not fun and games like you seem to assume.

You aren’t reading this sentence right now. To “you” it may feel like you definitely are. That is God dreaming. It isn’t happening. Let me explain, but I warn you, you either won’t get it, or you will: First, the infinite is all, so nothing should really be surprising. Keep that in mind. With that said... One good example that is at least possible to see through: You believe, for absolutely no good reason, that prior events cause later events. You might believe this is obvious, but that’s another belief for which perfect (yet completely illusory) evidence may arise for — you may further believe you learned this or assumed it or were told this and you believed it. ALL those claims are actually flat false. Completely self contained belief world. God dreaming. That’s why you die when you realize emptiness (emptiness seen by nobody). It’s the end of something that never began.

You probably think you can understand more of this and apply it to your life. If you truly see enough of it, it will literally erase the individual out of sheer love. The part you misunderstand, however... here’s modified form; the perhaps shocking situation: There is only what is. God isn’t actually dreaming a separate reality — it is literally a strange loop illusion: belief A creating evidence B which creates belief A again. It isn’t actually happening. If this is seen, enlightenment of you (erasure of God) can occur, but even if not, you’ll never be the same.

@Kalo Those are all false claims. The only “real” God is is-ness itself — there is nothing else. And really, it just shows lack of insight when one is not willing to call it by its rightful name, Unconditional Love ❤️ You need it to feel like it makes sense. It doesn’t in actuality. Causality is an illusion as well. You aren’t there to see it, but the belief structures are the entire reality. You actually believe, for no good reason, that prior events cause later events. But it’s such a given, most would think I’m crazy for pointing that out. Evidence for beliefs arise out of themselves and create personal reality. But it isn’t actually happening, it just seems that way.

It seems to lead to all of those, quite effectively, with the exception of liberation. Nothing leads to that, simply by definition, since liberation is merely the end of all false claims, including but not limited to: time is real, space is real, I am here, past caused present, future is real, movement is real, something is needed, etc. With liberation it is recognized that nothing has ever lead to anything, nor even actually happened at all.

Yes, but God with any associated meaning isn't real -- this God is literally a REALization the individual can "have." But there's no individual, so yeah... If you're still there, your conception of God will necessarily be of this variety. In fact even if you aren't there, any conception of God will be of this variety. In other words, talking about God is quite literally masturbation. Not that there's anything wrong with that. "I" do it fairly often, in fact.

Since God is infinite, there are limitless ways in which it doesn't have to obey logic, alone. This means infinite playground...and every single belief can seem to make logical sense, when held. Like it's nothing... This is how infinite creation appears out of, and as, nothing.

The difference between existing, and being existence, is not trivial.

What you are calling God, is not God. Nothingness is not a thing, literally. There are no things. There is no God, since all there is, is God. God does not exist, since God is existence, which is emptiness, which is fullness. Watch thoughts as you respond next. Notice the explosion of false claims. Not judging, it just happens.

I've found 110ug is the perfect dose. For me, anyway.

God is a tautology. God is and is not. To say there is no god is either nonsensical, or actually true, since if ego is active, it will seem to have ideas about God, which are the obstruction to God — that which is beyond even itself, which is the exact same thing as nothingness.

Humility --> Awakenings You might not be fully taking into account the strange-loop nature of no-thing being everything. Just because one labels God differently than you... well, he clearly refers to “Being” in a way that you’d perhaps say “oh yeah that’s God.” He’d perhaps disagree. It’s words.

@Mu_ The retort of the ego will undoubtedly be “but I feel separated by time.” Seems this is because it is (understandably) assumed that there’s another time. There isn’t though... There’s only now. Doesn’t seem possible to really understand, but it is intuitively obvious from here, whether it’s ultimately true or not.

When I ignore everything (all experience; thought), vision, senses, and all body feeling go “blank,” but it feels like blank, so I ignore the blank too, as it’s just a subtle experience/thought, and much thought goes away, mind gets super quiet and still, and body feels intense pleasure. Then I ignore (“look away from”) the pleasure, stillness, and quiet too (turning from all experience, without exception). Then... it’s as if the big thought/experience of “looking out” is seen as a little tiny thought in a huge ocean that is “looking in.” Feels like “God.” If “I” keep on going ignoring that too, eventually either focus is lost, or it feels like everything is disappearing, but it doesn’t all go completely. Just very thin, like it’s not real. Does that sound familiar? What is going on there?

Well, memories of being in (deep, dreamless) sleep don’t ever seem to appear, but it does seem thoughts might arise during sleep, since after sleep an “amount-time-passed” thought forms. But... after anesthesia? Way different. It is basically like time traveling instantly to the future. During anesthesia (unconsciousness) there is no thought/sense/existence of any kind, including thought of time passing or anything at all. It’s like it didn’t even happen.

@ardacigin What you describe in full is actually just "concentration(stillness)/Samatha done right." Even this is not enough for awakening -- you need to use the power of the stilled mind to play with the lens you're necessarily viewing experience through, essentially. Some options: 1. Observe/objectify objects of dualistic experience until they fade, thousands of times. Viewing them as either impermanent, unsatisfactory, not-me/mine/self, or empty of existence outside the mind's construction -- watch closely, many times, how deliberately simplifying your lens to one of these "insight-lenses" more tends to fade experience, while using them less tends to build experience. 2. Maintain extremely open awareness by practicing merging attention and awareness together. 3. Self inquiry 4. Noting 5. Witnessing -- the technical description of which is basically just "find the place beyond movement and place attention on it, so that attention collapses back in on itself, and the actual focus of attention becomes: watching from a detached perspective," which gets attention out of the way so that metacognitive awareness predominates. I'll add... In the early stages, a great formula for getting the ball rolling with concentration/Samatha is: Unless you can remain attentive to the breath sensations indefinitely, your main focused intent should be cultivating the readiness to emit appreciative joy upon noticing you're distracted from the breath sensations. Then gently and firmly return to the breath sensations (the only physical sensations you should ever deliberately intend to focus on, in the early stages). This creates positive feedback loop through repeated positive reinforcement, and eventually the mind will "notice distraction the instant it occurs" (i.e. introspective awareness is constant; distraction does not occur) -- though it may take some time during a session to get to that point. Sets the foundation for later skilled practices like Jhana; Witnessing; etc.