The0Self

Yeah... It really can't be found lol. It can apparently be found, but never is found.

Well yes, of course we would say that. I certainly do believe (or experience that) there are degrees, it's just rather obvious that everything is for nothing, so there isn't really anything with the solidity to carry "degrees." But yeah, of course, there are definitely apparent degrees of Real-I-zation. At least that's what's happening "for" me.

^^ The degree to which it is understood is the exact same degree to which it is not understood. So there aren't really degrees, only apparent degrees... That's the miracle/mystery. How can what happens not happen? And yet, that's just the way it is! lol

I watched your video on Gender and was reminded that I could probably stand to ask more questions. Other than just doing self inquiry and psychedelics and getting life-purpose in order (which I assume likely must be part of the package), what can one do to bring an ongoing potential of Infinity-as-an-identity into daily life? My "identification-fluidity" is quite so... relative to what it used to be -- I haven't viewed my self as exclusively-human since about 4 years ago, nor exclusively-real for about 3, and it has steadily been loosening (there are of course ups and downs, but it's an overall very positive trajectory) -- but I have no idea just how deep it can go other than a very strong intuition that it's endless and boundless. I'm well beyond the point where, as a straight man, I'm disgusted by the idea of having gay sex, etc. And I've had realized God, Now, Infinity, no free will, Love, fractality, emptiness, and various others at least to some degree, with substances (mostly LSD and ketamine), and without them (Witnessing, Metta, Jhana's 1 and 2, etc) Most importantly (or most concerningly), I'm completely unsure of whether I already have access to Infinity as an identity... I am concerned this may be arrogance for me to think in such a way -- prematurely assuming I'm further along than I really am. Now if you would perhaps say: "oh... you'd know..." Well, I have known many things that turned out to be false (the process I owe probably half or more of my deconstruction and development to). I am certainly not as conscious in everyday life as I am when contemplating in stillness, especially on LSD + ketamine (which I usually don't combine), but very highly conscious states do tend to sometimes actualize for me here even without practice (at which point, "dying for the truth" would be welcomed, but that's not always the case). You seemed to indicate that you appreciate serious questions. Well, from the bottom of my heart, this is a serious question. Thank you, so much... ...That is, assuming the question even makes sense at all, which... I can imagine a few ways why it maybe wouldn't... But anyway. Thank you. (Done editing; just added a few statements)

That still seems like someone imagining there to be something else. There isn’t anything.

“I” am compelled to say, it’s getting basically incomprehensible even imagining what “identifying” is... lol. In the same way: there “not being someone here” is more different than “someone being here” than can possibly be imagined, simply because something being exactly the same as something else, is not a difference that is imaginable — there is nothing else! ? lol wtf

Well... It didn't make sense to me when I heard Leo say "infinity as an identity" -- I didn't know how one could identify as everything because identity of course implies one thing, and everything is not a thing at all -- this is everything, nothing ever moves, there's no time (literally completely made up concept) what apparently happens has no distance, and there's no reality (no reality = I am dream) apart from this zero-but-infinite-dimensional appearance. So I was relatively sure I had at least some access to this identification-state, but idk the limits.

Nobody has guilt, or a self... But yeah what you say does appear somewhat true -- it's not ultimately true, nothing is

"You" can't, I am real is a false claim. It doesn't exist. Nobody judges nor cares about anything -- ultimate freedom. If you want a better experience, you can try meditation, inquiry, psychedelics, pickup, cooking, anything. In this story I had success in obtaining powerful but temporary happiness with witnessing and self-inquiry, psychedelics, sex, etc. Time seems to be one of the last illusions to go, so If you want to do something that will get a supposedly thinner or more exalted experience, maybe try end of time teachings like from Rob Burbea, etc. No reason why I'm presenting that. There's nothing else.

That's not inquiry. Find the subject, or more simply, just turn away from all that is happening... constantly It has no use, but there's no reason not to do it either. It can be fun. Leads to powerful realizations, etc.

Yeah. It's just it, and not.

The degree to which truth is understood is the exact degree to which no one is there to understand it. Nothing even comes close. Sorry lol

There's no solidity for anything to be "in" or to carry anything else. The whole illusion is that there is "something," but this is just everything without other. Can't get any closer or further.

There are no enlightened people. But this body is apparently going to unfortunately come before you and tell "you" something: There is no real experience, it just seems like there is, and all there is is what it seems there is. This no-thing which is everything does not move. There is no real space or time, but if the thought "this is really happening to me" appears, then it can seem like "time" carries "you" to the future. It's an energy that imagines there's a real future that never comes -- it's an illusion. This is already nothingness. Consciousness will not be interrupted because it didn't start. You can't get it. If it isn't obvious that this is everything, there will seem to be experience, or another time, and the appearance will seem to have someone "in" it who has a "life."

It doesn’t matter. There’s no one to look and things aren’t happening

Lol. Not as some “thing” that happens, no ?

It’s crazy because while life will never be difficult for anyone in any serious way again, there isn’t anyone to be convinced that it’s real, so hardly anyone left to experience. It’s amazing how this un-nameable Love uses variable real-ness to deliver/fulfill itself in complete fashion.

No one needs to know — there is no one to know because there’s no separation. It’s just obvious this is everything.

There is only infinite whole complete. When no one left there’s no one for things to actually happen to. It’s already natural. This is what is looked for.

Thank you. About a week ago I stopped doing practice, which I’d been doing every waking moment (including while asleep and lucid). That (stopping practice) rather “kicked things up a notch.” I guess... I guess it’s like practice. What was recognized... is everything is actually already perfectly naturally complete in a way that is not understandable, and “nobody needs to know that.” There’s nothing wrong and nothing can be wrong. To say this is a mystery is not really cutting it lol. Suffice to say infinity is infinitely more perfect than perfect, through the apparent integration of nothing. And nothing actually happens. It just appears to fulfill — maximally. It’s just... wow. The more _____ (not describable) the less things matter and the more fulfillment there is, but the less person there seems to be left to experience it. Except there is literally never anything of value present in more or less quantity, because the source of all value is simply all there is, and there’s nothing anyone can do (nor anyone to do it) to get away from the infinite completion... which is all there is.

Stopped meditation like a week ago and started having more “transcendent stuff happening” ever since ? I would say something like “I guess taking breaks works,” but it’s obvious that nothing “works,” because there isn’t something or someone that does something else. It seems I used to think that there was really something called a “next moment.” Even though obviously there’s only what is — it seemed like there was really a life with a future and things really happening that “I need to be there for.” ? ? This is utterly complete and total liberation. This. There’s nobody to wake up. This is just it. Everything. Nothing matters, and nobody has ever cared or judged.

Well something definitely seemed to change. No longer feel like I’m really moving through space, or especially time, in daily life. I still don’t feel “I am everything,” it’s just incredibly, ridiculously obvious that there’s only everything, there isn’t anything here, it’s all for nothing, and there’s nowhere else to be. So I guess that’s it then, lol. It’s “finally what it always was” ?

This whole “thing” is not moving. It just seems like you’re moving through time because you imagine time “carries” something through it, namely you. I’m not even talking to nothing, this is nothing speaking and hearing with empty thoughts of different locations. There aren’t even two different times either, or one. There is no time and there is no causation...

There’s nobody for whom having a me is a problem. There isn’t anyone who has a me. So who exactly are you trying to disabuse of this notion?

? Joking Its all for nothing ?