levani

@kag101 last two times i was at the dentist, they injected the nolvacane or whatever and i had a terrifying response from it, i started shaking and it was not pretty so now i am wary of local/general anaesthetics, and also the recovery time is a bit bleh

cosmetic is different rhinoplasty / make the nose look better saptoplasty / make the nose function healthily apparently ??‍♀️, anyway i think I will bite the bullet and do the surgery.

Please don't laugh as this is the level of development/stage i'm at now. I don't want to get traumatised or get PTSD from meditating ∴ do you have any advise for me to overcome the fear of meditating. I heard horror stories where people lose themselves for 10 years after meditating or they get sunk into "eternity of pain" or the dark night o the soul or whatever. same with psychedelics and real yoga

@PurpleTree listening to it now, @Lieseluke i've heard the same from my colleagues, thank you for the feedback bro

i don't think I need professional help, i am just an average stage orange/going on to green guy with some irrational fears like many people who is just trying to be cautious, i am not a hypochondriac (i think), i am just wary of all the negative things that can happen ∴ i want to be ready for them, so far what i realised is that meditation is just a route that teaches one how to surrender.

you think it's worth getting the surgery ? maybe there's some boiling water mint / towell alternative ?

and how do i be cautious ? where do i get the info for this ? i'm a little scared of sleeping with the lights off ∵ of sll the scary movies i guess and i had a frightning sleep paralysis when i was 15/16 (i'm 26 now) thank you for the advise btw.

how do i develop a healthy sense of self ?

is it equally as dangerous as meditating ? can you lose yourself in "eternity if pain" by drinking water ?

how do i develop a healthy sense of self ?

so what now am I supposed to not meditate or take psychedelics ever and live in this materialistic life forever with all this mind masterbation ? I will read the books above but i'm just so lost with this

just out of curiosity how could you be so sure that psychedelics aren't for me though ?

Can never be too careful. Thank you!

that's what freaks me out, like i've seen the "dark side of meditation video" from the guy who runs this forum and my guy went deep, he was saying some people see massive insects or get lost in eternity and never come back and have demons around you and nothing scares me more than this whole demon stuff, so i might sound like a little girl but that's where I am right now unfortunately but I want to work my way up.

wow thank you so much bro, i appreciate this, i just ordered the book from amazon, appreciate this.