Megan Alecia

"Just that you do the right thing. The rest doesn't matter. Cold or warm. Tired or well-rested. Despised or honored." - Marcus Aurelius What a badass. I just love how sure of himself he was. I think to be that is the greatest opportunity of a lifetime, and he was one of the people throughout history, who reached it. "We have to create culture, don't watch TV, don't read magazines, don't even listen to NPR. Create your own roadshow. The nexus of space and time where you are now is the most immediate sector of your universe, and if you're worrying about Michael Jackson or Bill Clinton or somebody else, then you are disempowered, you're giving it all away to icons, icons which are maintained by an electronic media so that you want to dress like X or have lips like Y. This is shit-brained, this kind of thinking. That is all cultural diversion, and what is real is you and your friends and your associations, your highs, your orgasms, your hopes, your plans, your fears. And we are told 'no', we're unimportant, we're peripheral. 'Get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that.' And then you're a player, you don't want to even play in that game. You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that's being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world." - Terence McKenna Terence sums up life. "No no no no no NO NO NO!!" - 'Personality Crisis' by New York Dolls (I think of this quote whenever I'm being a doormat lol)

I am skimming through a Jung book right now. In one instance I spotted a passage that accurately described one of my most deepest unconscious inner workings. It made me feel disgusted (idk why), nervous and terrified. I kind of want to keep reading, given the merit of doing it, and in spite my own lackluster attention span. But I know its gonna be hard read not only with not just many rude awakenings, but also with some sacrifices to make (in terms of habits and hidden desires).

I feel alone. And I'm afraid of being isolated, stuck with my own thoughts... I wouldn't be able to function during those moments. Along with the feeling of "fuck this why am I even alive??" A sense of purposelessness. A disgust for humans for not caring about my pain and emotions. How do I deal with all these? It's like my entire life is about building something... A good life, an attractive outside facade, a healthy body. What if all those are nothing, and love is all I need?

@VerballyHazardous Lets talk if you want, I could be of help...

Thanks guys, I'll be reading this and trying out the things you all mentioned... since they all seem like helpful tips.

@ertopolice How do you quantify one's worth? For example, your own?

@Farnaby Quality advice, thank you.

While reading some Internet forum, I was just disappointed and slightly disgusted at the fact that people seem to prioritize themselves in basically every situation and care very little about others. Like it always has to be "me, me, me..." But of course I'm not beyond this. I just have this inkling, but that's it. I guess that's why I'm asking here; how to care for others without it being an egoic trap/self deception ?

It's all good, baby baby... https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3uvssy0T23WXBtWpzGglFi?si=unB2yx35SRyU1rOTbjrFqg

@Artsu Define free will? For clarity I guess?

Stage Orange YouTube comment aptly threatened by a hippy and religion.

Basically I have super low attention span (even on coffee) while note taking and/or research. Anyone else who have encountered and even beaten this before? Advice would be nice. Thanks!

If reality is perfect, then how does free will fit into that paradigm? Or I guess the right question is how much of it is allowed in the grand scheme (whole of reality) of things? "Who makes our choices?" is quite vague but is sort of in a similar vein too. Does reality make our choices? Or do we (as an individual) make it?

@JosephKnecht Seems like a nice assessment of it

A non-psych rock Green anthem

'The greatest' - him probably

By work I mean long, boring stuff like research or organizing things. How to fix this?

Terence McKenna once made a video like this, I'll link it if I could find it.