Ima Freeman

While listening to my favorite music I find it ecstatic at times.

I don't understand death=infinite life Because infinite life for me is creation

So, awakening through death contemplation?

Good wishes

Sounds like good advice, thank you

So, surrendering to death it is then?

Sorry to hear that. How are you know? Is your condition stable? Impermanence is ruthless. Life is ruthless.

Are you conscious of past lifes?

Depending on your age and fitness. If your old and dead tired, you could even feel relieved. Who knows.

I may need a lot more insights to see what I am. But the things to be accepted are precisely the ones that you are conscious of to happen anyway.

Interesting story. I can intuit that after seeing a situation will doubtlessly end in death (of the body) resistance vanishes.

Yeah, as I said. I don't mean idealism btw. If the body is clean, the mind will follow.

First of all, detox body. Be thankful. Take nothing for granted. See self-loathing, resentment and anger as you spoiling your own life experience. In fact take responsibility for how you color your own state. See how everybody is struggling. ...

Wow, sound like a crazy time down there Are traveling alone or with friends, a guide, ...

Hey @Bazooka Jesus, how is it going?

Read this post only if you don't want to see sickening and heavy stuff. You have been warned. If you have a bad time remember that life can become crazily more painful. Even relatively common human sufferings are good times compared to the realms of suffering that lurk in life's creative potential. Just how can one be cool with fates like below? Is the living through of these fates unavoidable for God?

I was thinking about that too. Pain is terrifying.

Try heavy metal detoxification.

Normally not, only if I concentrate on the above paradigm.

It's Idealism. Things do not exist if they are not present right now.

After some time, I went to a techno party again. At first I wanted to enjoy the party sober, but took a little bit of amphetamine with me just in case it fitted the situation. The drive for pleasure took over and I consumed it after dancing and socializing for some time. It did really feel good to express myself enjoying the music and atmosphere and interact with the people around me. The thing is, I would never be able to dance this inhibited without drugs. I tried it multiple times. Stimulants especially speed and MDMA are such great keys for feeling alright and well in ones skin. I dislike that they are toxic to the brain and the comedown is unpleasent. I dislike that they subtract from my bodily and mental capabilities. But dancing is such a great way for me to get more comfortable with my body, developing confidence and mingle with the opposite sex. All of which I am heavily deficient in. I would like to get to such a state in a healthier way. Does anyone here enjoy dancing and is proficient in expressing oneself in a satisfying way without drugs. And what are ways to get there.

@Yimpa But your ability to translate your passion into bodily movement is something you can improve. It is like learning a language, and with time it becomes more effortless and playful.

@Yimpa Yeah, but anyways that was not my question

Now take the paradigm into account, that everything is created spontaneously, including your memories.

Funnily enough, I am going to participate in one in two weeks